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[iankarlo]

Hello Buttercream!!!! | #OurFirstBaby

OMG!!!! I will be a furparent soon!!! I’m super happy. Jehan just chatted me that Maxie, his dog just gave birth and he showed it to me. As he previously mentioned, he will gave me a dog once Maxie gave birth. I’m super excited to be a furparent for real and I can’t wait to see our baby buttercream. He is a chubby light cream dog. I don’t know yet what’s the breed but all I can say is I’m so happy. I can’t contain my excitement and I wanted to play with him and buy him cute stuff. 

What also makes him special is that, it is from Jehan. Everyone knows how much I liked him and I am so happy and unexpectedly he gave one to me. I just teased him to give me one, cause whenever I see dogs I can’t help myself to talk to them, to say Hi to them, to play with them secretly while the owner is not looking, or to pawed them. 

This is his first gift to me since before and I must say that this is the most special gift that I’ve ever received so far. I really appreciate this one, and I wish I could be responsible and good furparent. I can’t wait to send him to vet for check ups, for grooming, for vaccines, for everything. Or even just to shop in mall to buy cute clothes for him. 

It was just a little sad because he will be far from his Mom Maxie, but I will really do my best to be a best furparent to him.

Also, even though Jehan will not be able to his this post. I just wanted to say thank you to him. Thank you for giving me a chance to be a furparent. Thank you for making me happy today. Thank you so much and you will be a soon to be Daddy!!! Secretly, you will be his daddy, so Hello Daddy Jehan!!! Hahahahaha. Thank you again and I love you so much. ♥ You made me happy today. I wish I could play with him soon...

Love Always,

Iyaaan

[iankarlo]

Happy 2nd Month, Butter

I was so tired with our talk last night. I felt so tired to the point that I cannot wake up early. I randomly woke up with my daily alarm and just checked my friends and just had a small glance with my baby. 

I kept falling back to sleep cause it feels like I’ve been lacking since day one of 2020. Then, I get out of my bed when I felt hungry. We had longganisa and some kikiams fro brekfast. My brother and I went our for grocery. I also pay the  cake for Butter’s birthday. 

I got the cake and its too cute and I don’t want to ruin it. I am so happy with thr design and how it turned out. Jehan and I sent a cake to my office bff and I had it a surprise for her along with her family. Her Mom even asked me, “Who’s the other guy? Is that his boyfriend?” and I kept on laughing on it. We even have a loveteam, #JehIan. 

We just got few chance to talk and I was asking him to call me but he doesn’t like and kept on laughing at me. He is just trying to annoy me again. I just told him that I am not mad. 

I don’t know to him. 

Anyway, I don’t want to stress myself with him. It’s my baby’s special day today and I want it to be special. 

Good night.

Love Always,

Iyaaan

[iankarlo]

Goodbye, Baby Butter

It was my officemate’s birthday today and I am so excited to celebrate with them, the jokes, the ayudas, our surprise, it gives me so much excitement and happiness. We are even throwing jokes in the morning.

Until, Jehan chatted me, “Iyaaan”.

I felt some kind of different vibe already yet I don’t want to think of it unless he continued his response. He sent me a convo of him and his cousin saying that my baby Butter passed away already. He sent me a photo of Butter sleeping peacefully. The night before he died, he sent me videos of Butter, he is looking weak, he is just lying on the floor, inactive, weary and sad. He ate a little only and I prayed for his recovery. I know God took him because he might felt more pain and slowly die. Maybe God doesn’t want to see me crying while knowing that Butter is dying. But, I wish he stayed a little longer, cause, I didn’t even managed to play with him, cuddle with him, buy him bed, send him to the vet, paw him, everything that I should be doing if only I was there. 

Maybe, I can make way to save him. Maybe if I was there I can hug him all night so he knows that I will never give up on him. I feel sad knowing that he died without even seeing him. I kept on crying this morning cause I can’t imagine that he passed away already. It was a sad day.

Earlier, in the light of the heavy feeling, we had a short time party earlier and Jehan and I surprised her and sent her a minimalist cake. Some our close friends, teased us because of the gift. It was a good feeling yet I don’t know if its okay that we are doing those kind of things.

He is so happy as well how Ate Fe’s husband surprise her and her reaction when she received the flowers. And in the back of my head, I am thinking about, will he do that to me too? Will he surprise me too? At the same time, I want to stop myself from believing that there’s a chance. I don’t know, but I still keep on praying for us.

Anyway, it was a rollercoaster of emotion today and I’m still sad about what happened to Butter. :(

Good night.

Love Always,

Iyaaan

[iankarlo]

Buttery Wednesday

I slept a little last night as we were too busy at home and we finished working late already. I woke up a little late than the normal time I wake up. I was super busy and finally had a chance to work properly in my job.

Jehan and I both wearing Yellow as discussed by the team yesterday but it ended up that its just the two of us. We are teased again a little but I tried to ignore it as much as we both do. 

I worked overtime a little earlier and after working I just ate and I fell asleep. I even told Jehan that I will work tonight but I woke up late and he is chatting me. We haven’t had a chance to talk privately or do videochat again. It was nice having that kind of conversation with him and I really find it good.

He finished working around 9PM and right after he went to his cousin’s house which is across our boarding house and he visited our baby Butter. He sent me pictures and videos of him and he is getting better now. He is running already and he is getting cuter. He will be sent to Vet tomorrow for check up and vaccines. Hope it will help him to be okay and to be stronger. He got few scars and they said he needs to be really to vet. Good thing Daddy Jehan is so responsible and he is very attentive to Butter. 

Hope my baby will get better soon as possible.

Well, good night.

Love Always,

Iyaaan

[iankarlo]

Goodbye, Maple.

It was a sad Monday for me. Another puppy passed away this evening. Jehan called me to inform me that Maple died already. She was suffering from a pain since last night and didn’t  managed to eat properly. Daddy Jehan even got him milk, milk bottle and dog food so he can eat and be strong. But, she gave up already. I know she is with God already. I know she is no longer suffering from any pain. The only puppy left is Butter and I hope and pray that she’ll get better soon and get stronger as the day goes by. 

Daddy Jehan said he is stronger now.

Also, Uncle B1 informed Jehan that he was lost this morning and Daddy was super stressed about it and he can’t focus at work cause around lunch time, Maple is crying in pain. So he was out of focus and he was pressured at work too. I was worried with him too. 

Gladly, they found Butter but Maple passed away. 

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I was talking to Jehan since 8PM and we are almost talking for 3 hours already and it so unusual. I hope we continue talking this way. We are mostly talking about our baby dog. 

PS: I was too pressured too today and I had so much errors in my job. Good thing I managed to fix it immediately.

Good night. I still need work late to send my drawings.

Love Always,

Iyaaan

[iankarlo]

Another Wednesday Stress

Another stressful day for me. Another day of assisting Dade and counting days left staying in our team. Another day of being lazy, tired and lost yet happy doing stuff or helping Dade. I’m getting happy lately and happy working with them even with Drex. The comfort-ability in our team is really way way different on other teams. Yes, stress kept on coming back on us, yes there are lots of pressure in our jobs yet we are handling it well and we are still finding ways to chill and make ourselves less stressed with the tasks. 

Our understanding to each of our differences are way too good. Our respect and jokes are really cool. We love talking about COD (Call of Duty), CS (Counter Strike) or even funny moments at work or in our daily lives.

I am so happy knowing that I grew a lot from Dade. He helped me to be mature enough to think of all things, to choose kindness and choose what makes you happy. He supported who I love and always reminding me to be careful and protect my heart. I really appreciate Dade a lot.

Also, before I took a break, Jehan chatted for a bad news. He told me that Maxie died already. The mom of Butter and the other two puppies died too. He also said that, Butter was taken care of B1 which is Jehan twin brother. He havent talked to me about what happen but I really feel sad about it. It feels like Butter is at risk also. However, I cannot do anything but to keep him there as he need to stay with his parents and I really hope that Butter will be okay.

I felt sad knowing that they lost several dogs for the past months due to parvo. I hope that it will end soon. I hope that Butter will not get sick cause I’m still excited to see him. Hope all will be well.

Good night.

Love Always,

Iyaaan

[iankarlo]

Butter’s First Week

I have a new name for buttercream, I’m thinking to just call him Butter. I just find the name Butter, cute and playful. Since he will be my new and current favorite dog, it serves also that he will always be the favorite. His Daddy sent me photos earlier and I can’t contain my excitement as a new furparent. I’m going to give him the best care as I how I take care of his Daddy. 

He is so cute and Daddy Jehan said that he has blue eyes. OMG!!!! Imagine how cute he will be. He told me few stories about it and it was really funny. He said his dog died due to Parvo disease and he is now putting Butter and his siblings to a different place with their Mommy Maxie. I hope Butter and his siblings will not get sick cause I can’t wait to see him and bring him home with me. My heart is so happy that Daddy Jehan really secure him to me. As far as I know that, his family knows that Butter will be mine. It was just good but he didn’t give it to me cause he knows I like it, he just give it cause I asked for it.

Anyway, he knows how much I like dogs and I even memorize all the names of his dogs. I am really excited to see Butter. I really hope I can see him anytime soon. I love you so much, Butter. You are so adorable my baby. I will be good to you always. ♥

Love Always,

Mommy Iyaaan

[musical93emily]

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