#panic atttack

[sobriquette]

i'm gonna do it. i'm gonna re-proof all my fics and send my ao3 link to my best friend. what's the worst that could happen

[agatharioscoven]

It's fun having a full on panic attack half an hour before your first shift back at work

[maisjetaime]

I can't breathe.

[youcangoandfuckyourself]

what a great way to end a shitty day, with a panic attack...life.

[sorceressofthefake]

Sometimes I Hate My People

So yesterday in science we were disecting worms, and I was uneasy about it when it was announced, because I didn’t know how I would react when we did the actual disecting. I have anxiety and have panic attacks over things like these, but hoping it wouldn’t be an issue, I didn’t mention it to my science teacher or anybody in my class, thinking I’d be fine.

So I got to class yesterday and the classroom smelled really stongly of vinegar and cleaning chemicals, which I get headaches from really easily and I was really worried that I would throw up or something. Then my teacher pulls out worms that are like 15 to 20 cm long, and I started to freak out. We were told to partner up and if we didn’t want to touch the worm, we were supposed to partner up with someone who was willing to. I ended up getting a terrible headache and being minutes away from having a panic attack. I was in the hallway for the last 15 minutes to class. We are going go be disecting crayfish, cow eyes, and frogs this year.

I was talking about it with one of my closer friends and they told me that having a panic attack wasn’t a valid excuse to be excused from the other disections. Like, EXCUSE YOU.

The friend that I’m talking to gets upset when she doesn’t get her pencil back… I have a mental illness that I try to control and sometimes can’t and she tells me that it shouldn’t change my every day life. I seriously wanted to yell at her in the middle of my lunchroom.

Why am I surrounded by idiots???

[heddafischer]

I found a poem I wrote during a panic attack because I read somewhere that writing down what your thinking can help you calm down, but I wanted to make it a poem at the time. It's actually the most terrifying think ive read because all the things I wrote were actually circling in my mind.

[pulling-my-life-away]

Panic rising.

     I can feel my heart racing and my hands tingling, everything is fuzzy and nothing seems real. I'm afraid but I know what's happening, I'm just afraid of how long this will last and if it will stop me from sleeping because I truly need to sleep. I just want to be able to lay down and close my eyes happy in the knowledge when I wake up everything will be okay.  But even now when nothing is happening I feel my heart hammering and adrenaline pumping fiercely dashing all hopes of normality for the next few hours.       I'll sit and I'll try to ride it out but ultimately I'll find a corner and curl up, allowing the insanity to ooze out, rocking back and fourth in a calming motion in the hopes it will calm me down enough to pull myself to my bed and sleep.       I'm too tired to go through this again tonight. I'm tired.       emotionally I don't think I'm coping, emotionally I think I've shattered and there's little hope of retrieving the pieces necessary for me to get 'better'. Let's be honest there is no better, there's only the level in which we cope or learn to adapt. We can never go back to the confidence we once held before the walls cracked and fell around us..      This makes little sense I'm sure but currently I just need to let some of the inner thoughts that are plaguing me out and try to relax. I suppose writing is a way to distract myself from this feeling of impending doom.  - Beckie x

[wickedrella]

You know...

What I want for Christmas, although I am pagan and I believe in the greek and mythological gods and goddesses, All I want is for everyone not to have mental illnesses anymore, I want them to live their life as happy as they can, I wish that for Christmas and New Year that people wouldn't have depression anymore, panic attacks, any mental illnesses at all.

I also wish that nobody would have to suffer from chronic illnesses like fibro and rheumatoid arthritis anymore, No more suffering from any chronic illnesses, Same goes for cancer and shit too.

I just wish that everyone including myself could live a pain free and not mentally tortured life, It's hard being chronically ill and have mental illnesses,

I wish that they would all go away so I and others could feel normal, and not like a broken crippled piece of shit like I do every day trapped inside my own damn body. 

This is getting to the point I can't handle it, I want it all just to go away.

;(