Before I bid goodbye to 2013
Since I almost forgot telling you a long story before this year ends... I just wanna thank the people who left and those that never and will never leave me. For being patient with me even if I am difficult (but definitely worth it). And for those to left me, for breaking my heart, for mocking me, for judging me, for showing your true colors by being a pseudo, thank you. Why? Because you made me a whole lot stronger. Sorry for my shortcomings. May it be with my God, family, relatives, friends, loved ones and myself. I know I have, intentionally and or unintentionally, but believe you me, I am trying and doing my best to be a better version of myself everyday. Thank you for the missed opportunities, for the regrets once in a while, it made me realize that I must and really need not to worry and instead, trust God's plan. Thank you for the unending blessings, despite my unworthiness. Despite my being difficult, I am still blessed with God's love and by others. And being able to love others as well. Sorry if at times, I am weak, to the point that I am starting to do things that does not reflect who really am. Even if people perceived me as someone who has a strong personality, I too, has a fragile point. 2013 is a heaven and hell of a ride again for me. At times, it makes me high, at times, it's my downer. But no doubts, for I must say that I was able to discover myself more. I discovered that I can be really damn good to others even if they are not to me, that I can take big risks, again. And that, being who you are is something you must keep. It does not necessary follow that if society dictates it, you must follow it. No, life is not like that. You don't just go with the flow, to please others. Be you, bravely, while of course, keeping the virtue of humility and respect. And yeah, being an oldie does not necessarily mean that you are mature enough. Maturity does not come with age, it comes whether you are a tween, an oldie, a young adult if and only, if and only you will be able to genuinely stand under other's shoes and understand that you must respect each and everyone in this world, without judging them. Besides, there is no account of a perfect life lived here on earth. And and and, before you think and or say anything about others, may it be a good or a bad one, have some self-check first, it helps, it really is, to tame your filthy mouth. This year also told me that not some relationships... is really not worth it. Not worth the tears, the effort, the love, the money, the time, your wholeness. Attachments. Attach moderately. Cling moderately. Detach if necessary because only those who mind matters. The rest is just an added crap of badmouths. I am already getting tired for I don't know how to write a good introduction for this post. I am drowning with music and firecrackers. Yet, I think I already said what I need to say. So for 2013, hats off. You did quite a good job. For your successor: Level up to my awesomeness because I have a stronger umbrella and a broader shoulders again for the next 365 days. Cheers to life! And long live.