So a few years back I had carpal tennel and had to get endoscopic release surgery and do physical therapy afterwards.
Now I’ve developed “tennis elbow” from typing as well as painful instances of trigger finger in BOTH my thumbs from typing/texting. Currently wearing two thumb braces and a compression sleeve on my elbow and trying to work around these things. Wtf.
If anyone reading can provide me any advice on how to deal with typing every day for my job and NOT getting myself jacked up like this, please share.
I hate being bipolar sometimes. I also hate how many people say they're bipolar just to say they are.. I would give a lot of things to not deal with my own mind sometimes but I'm also sort of glad that my mind works the way that it does. I am able to love so much harder than a lot of people and for that I am thankful, 💖
Rafael has been stressed for several years because of his physical problems. At some point, you can't deliver with everything you have on the court, you can't have the ideal attitude in training, you lose self-confidence too much. When your shots depend on the state of your hand, your knee, your foot, at some point having to manage all those pains tires you out. They sap your strength. It's the head above all. It determines everything, it allows you to develop your game. If it's not ticking properly up there, everything becomes very difficult. And suddenly, as soon as Rafael could play without pain, he quickly recovered a good level.
I'm on the hospital yet again, but now it's becaus of physical reasons, I passd out twise today and had a mini passi out in The morning, and I have a head ack? It's Kinda wierd, The funny thing IS that The first an second serios pass outs were in an ice cream line, and also todays vappu so i'm spending this vappu in a hospital :D, but at least There were Animals near The ice cream booth
But I did pass out on to concreat so I scraped My knee :[ but now i've got a othentic hole in My stalking :D
And now i've gotten My blood drawn, heart beat chekd, and talkd to a dude
Hope fully i'll Be Abel to leave soon, I probebly won't drawn as Mutch but i'll try My best to upload regularly
TW TMI AND SA MENTIONS/ TALKING ABOUT MY PHYSICAL PROBLEMS FROM IT
Big tw also nsfw because I'm talking about my body
I just need to talk about it because it bothers me so if this will trigger/offend you please do not read
Last warning seriously I'm talking about my physical problems caused by multiple sexual assaults over the years so it is about my privates and what happened to them and how it affects me emotionally as I go through life with it and my relationships
Okay so here's something kinda weird about me is like I don't have a taint. Like I think it's called a perineum. It's the space between your vag and your but. Like I really don't have one?
Idk if I do have one I guess it's really small like I'm talking maybe 3 centimeters or like half an inch max. I also have like a scar in that area that causes a lot of problems for me like especially with anything intimate.
And it really sucks that I have it because it makes sex SOOOO PAINFUL like 80 percent of the time it just burns and hurts because of the skin right there at the bottom. It's weird it's like it didn't heal right and the skin covers like part of my opening at the bottom so every time I get entered the wrong way it rips.
Yes I said that. It rips all the time. And like I can feel exactly when it does and it makes me so upset and frustrated because I know it's just going to hurt me so badly the rest of the intercourse.
I mean I've never seen a doctor about the ripping but I'm almost certain it was from being assaulted many times and maybe the rip didn't heal right and maybe that's why it continues to re rip itself every time.
It just hurts and it reminds me of the pain I felt before when I was being assaulted and it really makes sex hard for me. There's been many times where I have been in the middle of sex and he rips me and then I'll cry and ruin everything.
I've always wondered if anyone else deals with this too? Like if any of you read this far and are a survivor of csa or sa, do you guys deal with anything similar to this or do you have any physical problems that popped up after your abuse/assault(s)?
Thank you for reading I just wanted to get this off of my chest.
Dear all,
After not posting for quite some while, I decided it was about time to continue writing on my blog again. Today I will be talking about staying positive. It seems very easy, but sometimes things can happen in our lives, which will make thinking positive seems one of the hardest things to do. However, working on staying positive is maybe one of the most important things we need to…
