Regain fear, and community standards.
My weight loss has been stalled for quite awhile and I am trying to figure out what happened.
The shock of being invisible for 20 years and then suddenly being visible was shocking and awful.
People online are very...something so I have basically dropped off. I have 1 nice picture from around my birthday, wearing a dress. I look good.
Around that same time, I had an old dude follow me around a grocery store around my birthday and it seemed to HALT my progress. There have been extra snacks, missed workouts, and yes some binges. But thank God I managed to quit my CBD gummy habit.
So I joined Jiu Jitsu, because f everyone who makes me feel unsafe.
But the sudden switch from invisibility to visibility is very weird and shocking to the system. Having people treat me like a person is weird.
And alot of people act like this is over, when it is not.
I have been going over some of the diet sabotage things in my past and it is rough. My ex used to bring home Sam's bags of chips and salsa every time I mentioned I was going on a diet. It was my kryptonite. Suddenly we would be going out to eat and dessert would be encouraged. My other ex was covert, but in some ways way worse. She was constantly bringing home BS and "forgetting" about it. I work from home so I was around all that shit all the time.
My gf is morbidly obese. I cannot follow her behavior and maintain this weight and/or lose and more. I still have about 50 pounds, I think. I am currently 192. I want to see what I look and feel like at 176, 169, etc before deciding.
My sister has regained. I cannot follow her model without regaining. It breaks my break that she spent so much money and has had trouble with a regain.
Here's the thing- it happens. Biologically, when you get heavier, your body release more ghrelin to make you hungrier. But when you lose weight, it takes a long time for it to go back down. And your brain is stuck in the pre-1900s where people could literally starve to death so it send neurotransmitters to encourage eating every time you see food. Yep. Every food commercial, every time you drive by a restaurant, every food smell, every time food is placed in front of you.
It's alot to combat. People often succumb to what the people in their community do, which is sometimes why things like weight watchers and beachbody work- their community is doing similar things.
Why is it so hard to find healthy food/weight role models? [Outside of the MLM industry]
I hate that I have stalled but I am trying to flip that to- I haven't been gaining. I have found some ways to maintain my weight within about 5-10 pounds.