#poetryaboutdid

[thedigitaliscollective]

Life with Alts

I am host to feelings

In equal measures

My pain is shallow

Dipping a glass in halfway

Will only dredge up the scent

Of death and time

Original scores of strings

Lead to modern

Instruments

Springs are sprung

Leading to

Complex ball bearings

A preachers wail

Becoming over time

The antithesis of the next

Rap king

This leads to that is

My whole story

See I’m not really that complex

There’s just little warning

When I feel

Whose feelings they are

Or what you’ve done now

If I could only decode it

Maybe we could both find out

Life with alts is like

Sometimes

Living in your skin

When I hurt your feelings

It really hurts your friend

And they come uncoiled

Like so many snakes

They go avenging angel

For both of our sakes

-Gwen & Trystan

[thedigitaliscollective]

Trigger: a dyptic

My brain is wired tight

Each string remisent

Of an older feeling

I am only female

Because I remember the tight pain between my legs

The day winner took all

You trigger

I shut

Tight, my stings

Get whaled on

Like hendrix and a new les paul

I die a little bit more

But

I also cry and scream

I let him see

How much it first hurt me

When tuned strings got plucked

Like the same exact ones he’s

Holding

2nd in series

My brain is wired tight

Sealed tomb

Worrisome old

We are tattered fragments

Of the here and now

Brand new patterns of the back then

I am mausoleum to old

Ghosts

Gentle phantoms of desensitized

Factors

Wheres hope?

You tug my strings

All it leads is back here

To me

[thedigitaliscollective]

To my System

There are times when I wear you like a security blanket There are times i hate you And I wish you would leave We can't have actions without Consequences What a tangled web we weave Sometimes you call out to me When I'm just about to sleep There are times I'm really committed To finding out who you are We can't find new headmates without Reorganizing where we are I've only just begun to love you my T says that's a start When we switch it's like a movement Between different parts of my brain It's like toggling a switch board And the pain comes in waves I can't imagine what it's like to be Without the Constant unending pain I'd like to think your my family But some of you Are against that thought Sometimes it's only a suggestion, a whisper Things we do in the dark, I take a breath And try to hope one day Year and I will be like sisters I'd like to hope that one day you won't Carry so much pain That your sleeplessness won't be all my fault That we will dance together in the rain, I reject the thought that you Are all different parts of, My brain. You are all individuals as different as Planets, moons, suns. Knowing the difference between you varies Because you would rather hide. Everything should get easier once we learn to just enjoy our, ride. Sometimes it's hard because You self harm, or cope in negative ways I try to be there for too, cherish you Because even protectors need to feel safe Everyone is judged on their actions, For singlets that's commonplace.