I think I'm the most demotivated with this thesis than I've been my whole life, and I understand part of it is that I hadn't touched it in a year, that I've been working non stop all year and my brain is fried from that and insomnia, that it's the first experimental thesis I write and that I just want to work a repetitive job that doesn't require much thought for the rest of my life (I think that's half the autism and half the burnout) and that I'm totally fine with leaving it for the September deadline (which I'm sure is what my supervisor is going to recommend when I send her my full draft) but I'm not ready for my parents' reactions to that (ignoring that it's literally their fault I couldn't submit it last year btw).
Anyways, I'll try my best to have something decent for the 20th, but as always I'd rather turn in a proper thesis than a thesis that merely gets the "it's decent" treatment.
If the system worked better where I live and master degree's marks actually were needed to get a research grant then I'd feel more motivated, but nope, they use your degree marks (I got a 7,45/10) which is absurd...
Might fuck around and get a lab technician/librarian/archivist course at this point, can I just try and work at a damn bookshop or something like please, I need a break from academics
