It bothers me that my husband and I aren’t gonna be married in heaven.
I’m single, never been in a relationship before but I know I wanna get married something and I can’t wait to finally indulge in romantic love-the love I feel the most intensely. So reading that love isn’t going to make it to heaven disheartened me. Like most things in religion, people have different interpretations of this but the most common interpretations are that we will still love our spouse but no more or less than we love other people or we will love them more but ultimately that love isn’t going to be romantic.
And here’s what my main worry is, what if that love is also something that I don’t connect with? The first interpretation triggers feelings of disgust cause it just reads so platonic to me. I always saw romantic love as the second distant love closest to God’s Love for us, the first one and being the love for a mother and a her child. And apparently that love is also gone too. What if the love we’re suppose to feel in heaven is too close for platonic love for me?
We don’t know much about heaven-In fact, this was pretty much the only thing Jesus has ever said about it. I usually don’t like to think about the afterlife, I’m definitely not primarily motivated in my worship by the idea of an ‘award’ at the end of my life, no. I’m motivated by my love for God and wanting to treat His Creation with kindness and care. I don’t love my neighbor but I know God loves them and I will take care of them for Him while I am here. But that seems to be the only kind of love in heaven.
For the first time, I’m wondering if there really is anything in heaven for me.