It feels weird being aplatonic and having friends. It’s like I will never think of you as a friend. I am happy I met you. You will never be an essential source of happiness for me. You make life more fun. I don’t miss you when you’re gone. I like that your company is an option for me. Saying I love you and giving me hugs disgust me. Saying you’re grateful for me and being considerate of me makes me happy. I will never love you the way you love me. I hope I’m a good person to you. We will never completely understand each other. I like I can be myself around you. I hope I don’t hurt you. You can’t hurt me. If I lost you I wouldn’t grieve our relationship. I think of you without longing and view our lessons and experiences without ache. Is all of this fair to you? Is it fair to me? Is this really all okay or is it just me being selfish?












