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So I had this dream where my biological mom had actually met one of my characters who happens to be a mom, although this character mom is a foster mom. The character is Rhonda.

So my biological mom was harping at Rhonda for allowing me to cut her out of my life, I think...

I don't remember the argument exactly but I kind of remember Rhonda getting between me and my mom.

For those who don't know or may not know my character who you probably have see on my main blog which is @amestilskin , Bolt's biological mom whose name is Summer is based on my biological mom, and the relationship between Bolt and summer is not a very good relationship. They later split apart and stopped speaking to each other pretty much entirely and there is a grave reason for that but I won't go into it.

I've come to realize that my character Rhonda is a mom that I've always wanted. One that is supportive and understanding whereas my mom is not like that.

Rhonda had fostered and later adopted Bolt when she was a kid... And that's actually rather complicated to explain so I won't dive into that either.

So, ya. That was my dream.

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(NSFW) Clearing my Rep

Normally speaking, I wouldn't do one of these, but in this instance, I don't think I have much of a choice. Please be warned, the contents contained are not for the Under-18 groupings. You have been warned.

So, this all started with a recent posting on my player's main account on FurAffinity....

There we a few comments - mostly positive. One person asked if I thought it was a good idea to post such a thing... and that screen cap is where things get interesting....

You see that part where a bunch of links were added by Your's Truly? An artist saw the journal and asked if there were references for said character of "Icarus". The first link goes to the character's master sheet link....

Please take a note of one important part - the posting date: 5 years ago now. So said artist now has the original character sheet model, links to various pictures that have been done before, the character's F-List account... hell, even opening my gallery would show images of Icarus in 5 of the first 7 images, clearly named as well.

So why were those posts removed by the owner...? Because I saw that they had posted a picture of Icarus in... how can I best put this? "180-Degrees turned-around from what was wanted in the journal, and certainly nothing even CLOSE to his character's posted personality. They didn't contact me about it, didn't clear the image's content, and didn't credit Icarus to me.. which is a double-edged sword. a portion of the image is posted here, cropped, to show the direct character similarity....

It is obvious and clear that the helmet design is CLEARLY Icarus'/mine. That is simply fact. Once I saw the image, I sent a private note to the artist, so as not to cause a massive stir with their followers....

Clearly stating that the content / context of their posted image of Icarus was counter to the intention. I didn't demand anything at this point, expecting that the artist would be understanding, pull it, and find out what happened. The note reply was... curious...

So... HUH. Not exactly the reaction I was expecting. So, I answered to better clarify myself...

So, I clarified - let them know what was wrong with the content / context, and asked for the piece taken down... but do notice, I recognized work went into this piece. I didn't want Icarus as the character here - but meaning, though I didn't explicitly say it, if they changed out the main character to NOT be Icarus, hey! That would be fine.

The reply was.... uhm...

"Wait is this your character?" (O_o) I mean.. the references were asked for, he's in my gallery, his creation info was in the first link.... and it was obvious that the helmet design was taken directly from the character reference sheet showing he is mine for the last 5 year... references they specifically asked for. So saying that they "Googled" for Icarus and "found its[sic] a[sic] actual MLP character" is just untrue. There are, if memory serves, 2 "actual" batponies in MLP Canon and they pulled Princess Luna's chariot for Nightmare Night.

So, no.... Googling for "Icarus" in conjunction with MLP would bring up 90+% information for me / my postings.

I started a reply to explain what I said before - You did hard work, change the character to Not-Icarus and work it however you like. The note couldn't go through because I was blocked. But I received a follow-up right after....

So, I was being an asshole about it? I don't honestly see how; my character was used in a way counter to his personality and the posted want. I asked for it to be removed and changed to Not-Be-Him.

Oh, but the fun didn't stop there. As a consolation gift, they posted the following journal of their own....

Didn't know if the character was mine or not? You used his exact helmet design from a reference 5 years old that you specifically asked for. So if you didn't know who the character belonged to, why not find out so you could at least credit them? But if the exact character design was used, how could the ownership be in any question....?

Do I follow their account? Well, yes; or at least I had. That will be changing as soon as I post this. BUT....

Considering what happened with this, and since I am disallowed from linking to this posting from within FurAffinity due to Code of Conduct regs, I would ask you folks who might know, who have accounts there, to consider what's happened here and to really wonder, "Is what everyone says really real?"

I don't need to be mad about this; since I know I wasn't in the wrong.

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