tired ramblings I guess
the not so great and interesting paradox that is living in one of the most progressive states around historically queer neighborhoods growing up
but also coming from a conservative Christian far right household thatās taught you to look the other way towards anything āotherā out of fear and shame
like that shit is confusing for a kid seeing people like you and their culture in public but not being āallowedā to acknowledge or interact or even respond to it or them
like yes I know Iām not alone bc thereās literal a gay couple with kids down the street from us
but also I couldnāt possibly acknowledge that and they will literally be driven out of this suburban nightmare by the homophobic neighbor moms in a year or two
this is why it took me till I was 17 years old to even feel comfortable saying the word āgayā in the same room as my parents
It might be 2025 now but just like when I was a teenager growing up and seeing steady moves towards progressive action around me
just because the world is changing doesnāt mean that my world is
Queer kids can still be isolated no matter how much the world changes around them unfortunately
It took so much for me to fight my way here please donāt give up on them just because things are better than they were in *insert decade*
just because we have more rights doesnāt mean we canāt lose them and does mean that all kids are actually being taught those rights
I was constantly told the type of cishet strong Christian man I would grow up and marry supposedly
I didnāt even know gay people had the right to get married until I was in middle school, and we gained that right during my childhood
parents will do whatever they can to shield and protect their children
and unfortunately parents with homophobic beliefs will ultimately just seek to isolate them not only from the world and others but from a part of themselves
