#questioning myself

[caramelizedpopcirn]

I'm not going to be sorry if I act stupid once I get my hands on this game

[deerainy]

hello! I need some advice, I've been questioning my sexuality recently. I'm a lesbian, I've come to terms with that years ago but recently I've been wondering if I'm not asexual too. The thing is I struggle with depression and anxiety so it can be difficult for me to even want anything, I've also not been in a romantic relationship since I was 15 and have never been intimate with anyone apart from kissing. I have however desired one person more than romantically and would have been willing to be involved physically with her (it was lowkey driving me insane how down bad I was). The thing is I know asexuality is a spectrum and I rarely feel the need for intimacy with anyone if I don't have a crush. I think I could go on forever without it if I never fell in love again. Though I feel extremely sad over having never experienced intimacy with someone and I crave it. I'm wondering if it isn't linked to the loneliness that comes when you realise you're a lesbian and no one you know is and to have never been desired by anyone, so any thoughts? I'm asking because I've been doing quizzes online and I struggle with it because I notice the obvious in the questions that I find extremely stupid and there's no context whatsoever like the first question is 'how do you feel about touch and intimacy?' a. strangely against it b. I like cuddling but don't want more c. I like kissing but nothing more d. I wouldn't mind being physically intimate with a partner

BUT WHAT ? I don't have a partner, I haven't been hugged in literal months and have literally no memory of cuddling with anyone but I know I crave touch, I'm strongly against physical interaction because I was physically abused as a child, and I like kissing but I don't know??? this test seems to have been made for people who ALREADY know it's so silly like I hate it because the questions aren't detailed at all and obviously the first answer is for someone who is most likely asexual and the last for someone who isn't...

Also I must say I feel extremely awkward towards the idea of physical intimacy, not mine but others. I find it very funny and odd. I don't really understand why people do it. I also don't understand how it works in the sense that it doesn't make sense to me as to why people need it so much. I hate seeing scenes in movies because I find it so useless and unnecessary, same in books and especially in fanfictions to me it ruins everything. I actually despise how sexualised everything is and I don't understand it.

So I'm hoping someone on this app may help me out! This is a very scary thing for me to ask even to friends because I fear being judged and misunderstood so that's why I thought about asking here, thank you for reading!

[metallicangel92]

I may be a little gay for that new Moana villainess 😵😵‍💫🫨🫣🤷🏻‍♀️

[sunnshineyelllo]

Had a really strange, hurtful morning. After talking and making plans for over a week, I mentioned that my ex and I both decided we were better as friends and that he helps watch my little one sometimes and this person flew off the handle, saying I was a lying, manipulative slut among other things... I had no idea this was a thing, to be honest. AITA? Is being friends with someone you used to date really so awfully dishonest? Or...permiscuous? For the streets? 😅🙃🥲 I must confess, I might be too autistic for this concept.

[marunene]

Sometimes I wonder if I really am aromantic or if my psychologist is right and my father simply traumatized me so much about relationships that I can't feel anything romantic towards irl people.

[ellowynthenotking]

Me thinking: quick! What's the most dangerous thing you can think of!

Me, checking my writing: apparently a white man left unchecked in a position of power...

Me, thinking that's not really what I was looking for: well, then, what's the next most dangerous thing?

Me checking notes again: a white woman with an obsession

[maudiemoods]

I can’t believe you had a “I should call her” moment in the tags

She was my best friend pretty much all throughout middle school and we used to meet up to make our fursuits and set small fires in the woods (we watched them and put them out of course)

The summer before highschool she moved really far away and because I suck at keeping up with people (I also didn't have a phone at the time 🥲) we lost contact. But now I have them on Instagram so I should definitely get back in contact.

[izzy-mizzie-boo]

Anyone who knows a lot about Virl Dox(Brainiac 1.0) could please tell me exactly how his POV is about the planets' government and how he would really rule the galaxy if he could?

(Wanting to make sure, bc the Bellmont family has a certain view about the government and it's practically like a... Dictatorship. If what I have in mind is correct, I also might have another plot, but this time to Guinerva. ;-;