I Thought You’d Be Louder
Jujutsu Kaisen Fanfic by MythboundCal
The apartment’s still here.
Second floor, third window cracked open like it always was. As if Geto had just stepped out for groceries. As if curses didn’t bleed out of the walls in Tokyo now.
Gojo lets himself in.
No key. Just memory.
The door creaks like it remembers him. That annoys him.
He stands in the hallway too long, not looking at the coat rack where a black hoodie still hangs. The air smells like old books and hair product and something faintly citrus.
“I thought you’d be louder,” he mutters to no one in particular.
He doesn’t mean the apartment.
He means the grief. The silence. The absolute wrongness of this. He thought it would come like thunder—like Geto used to, all ideology and noise and conviction.
Instead, it’s soft. It’s suffocatingly soft.
Gojo moves to the table. There’s a chessboard there, half-played. Suguru’s side is one move from checkmate. Of course it is.
“Smartass,” Gojo whispers.
The chair opposite it is still pushed out, like it waited. Like it knew he'd come back and lose.
He sits. Doesn’t move the piece. Doesn’t touch anything.
Just… listens. To the quiet. To the ghost of someone who used to know how to pull a laugh out of him like a rabbit from a hat.
Geto once said the world was broken.
Gojo never argued.
He just kept trying to fix it anyway.
And now? Now he sits in a dead man’s kitchen, playing the last game they didn’t get to finish. And he loses. Gracefully. Silently.
“I hate you,” he murmurs. Then adds, almost gently—
“You’d hate that I’m still here.”
Now that the show is upon us, I am ready. It's been a while since I've been as excited as I am now, I'm so eager to see Peter Claffey in action!
Oh I remember it. 😂
And now it’s real, which frankly feels illegal.
A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms crawling out of development hell with Duncan front and center is exactly the kind of quiet, character-driven ASOIAF content this fandom has been starving on while being force-fed discourse and dragon spreadsheets.
Peter Claffey is such an unhingedly good pick too. He looks like he could genuinely haul a hedge knight’s life on his back, eat bad bread, sleep in ditches, and still have that soft, earnest, painfully decent energy Dunk needs. I’m ready to watch him be large, awkward, honorable, and constantly out of his depth in a world that eats people like him alive. If they get the tone right the humor, the melancholy, the small human stakes it’s going to hurt in the best way.
I haven’t felt this kind of low-key, deeply rooted excitement in a while. This is the ASOIAF lane I actually want to live in again. Less apocalypse prophecy, more mud, bruises, bad decisions, and quiet loyalty. I am absolutely ready to dive back in and be annoying about it. 😌
January fifteenth passes not as a conclusion, but as a reveal. They have been given more time. Neither of them is sure what it’s for.
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The building is quieter than it should be.
Wayne Enterprises after hours always feels like a held breath — lights dimmed but not off, corridors echoing with the residue of movement rather than its presence. Tim’s office is lit warmly, desk lamp casting a smaller, more human circle than the overhead fluorescents ever do.
Takeout containers are spread across the conference table instead of the desk. Thai, by the smell of it. Familiar. Practical. Chosen without ceremony.
You loosen your coat and set it over the back of a chair.
“Hope that’s okay,” Tim says, already unfastening the cardboard lid of his container. “I didn’t think tonight needed… anything fancy.”
“It doesn’t,” you say. And you mean it.
You sit across from him, not beside. Close enough to feel like company. Far enough to remain deliberate.
For a while, you eat in quiet coordination — the easy kind that comes from working together too long to need small talk. Notes sit stacked neatly at the end of the table. The final briefing materials. Everything prepared. Everything ready.
“Tomorrow should be straightforward,” Tim says eventually, tone neutral, professional. “The language is tight. The amendments didn’t change the core structure.”
“They won’t challenge the ethics framing,” you agree. “Not publicly.”
“No,” he says. “They won’t.”
That’s as close as either of you comes to acknowledging the rest of it.
The after.
You push your container aside once you’re finished, folding the lid closed carefully, like it matters. Tim mirrors the movement without looking at you.
“Thank you,” he says then.
“For dinner?”
“For everything,” he corrects.
You pause. Just long enough.
“You’d have managed without me,” you say. It’s a reflex. One you don’t entirely believe.
Tim looks up at you — not sharply, not surprised — just attentive.
“I don’t think so,” he says quietly.
The words sit between you, heavier than the rest of the evening has allowed itself to be.
You stand before the moment can stretch too far, gathering the empty containers, stacking them with unnecessary precision.
“I’ll get rid of these.”
“I can—”
“I’ve got it,” you say, already moving.
The small act of tidying feels like control. Like something you’re allowed to do.
When you return, Tim is standing by the window, Gotham laid out beneath him in softened lights and distant motion. His jacket is back on, tie loosened just enough to suggest exhaustion rather than vulnerability.
“It’s strange,” he says, without turning. “How quiet everything feels right before something ends.”
You stop a few steps away.
“Does it feel like an ending to you?” you ask.
He hesitates. That alone is answer enough.
“It should,” he says carefully.
The word should hums, electric.
You step closer — not touching, not yet — just enough that the space between you narrows without closing.
“We’ll handle it cleanly,” you say. “Tomorrow.”
“Yes,” he agrees. “Cleanly.”
For a moment, neither of you moves. Tim’s hands rest at his sides, fingers flexing once, then stilling. You’re acutely aware of how easy it would be to bridge the distance. How little effort it would take to undo everything you’ve been so careful about.
Tim turns then, finally facing you.
He says your name.
Not loudly.
Not like a decision.
Like a question he already knows he shouldn’t ask.
Your breath catches despite yourself.
The moment tightens — something unspoken pressing close, demanding acknowledgment. His gaze flicks briefly to your mouth, then away again, as if even that might be too much.
Tim steps back first.
“I should—” He stops. Swallows. Tries again. “Tomorrow’s going to be a long day.”
“Yes,” you say. “It is.”
The lie is that this is about the vote.
You reach for your coat. He moves at the same time, instinctive, polite — and stops himself just short of helping you into it.
Another almost.
At the door, you turn back.
“We did this right,” you say.
Tim nods. “We did.”
The certainty in his voice is practiced.
You leave before either of you can test it.
When the door closes, Tim remains standing where you left him, the office suddenly too quiet, too ordered, too prepared.
Tomorrow is ready.
He isn’t.
And the worst part — the part he refuses to examine too closely — is that for the first time, he doesn’t want it to be over cleanly at all.
—
Morning at Wayne Enterprises is efficient in the way only institutions can be.
Lights come up in sequence. Elevators arrive on schedule. Assistants move with practiced urgency, tablets already open, calendars already compressed. The building doesn’t anticipate today with dread or hope — it simply executes.
You arrive early.
Not because you need to, but because standing still this morning feels impossible.
Your coat is neutral. Your bag organized. Notes reviewed twice already, not because they needed revision, but because rereading them gave your hands something to do. You nod to familiar faces, exchange greetings that land easily in the mouth.
Prepared.
Composed.
Unremarkable.
Tim joins you near the conference room doors five minutes before the scheduled start.
He looks exactly like someone who belongs here.
Suit immaculate. Expression calm. The kind of control that reassures people without demanding attention. If there is strain beneath it, he has buried it deep enough that only someone trained to look for fractures would notice.
You do.
“Morning,” he says.
“Morning.”
No hesitation. No warmth. No softness left to misinterpret.
He gestures lightly toward the conference room. “Everything’s set.”
“Yes,” you say. “They won’t have cause to delay.”
The words settle between you like a fact. Like an ending neither of you is naming.
Inside, the room fills methodically. Board members take their seats. Papers are arranged. Coffee is poured and barely touched. The agenda is projected, bullet points crisp and efficient.
This is what stability looks like.
Tim takes his place at the head of the table. You sit where you’ve been placed — not beside him, not far. Exactly where it makes sense for you to be. Trusted. Contained.
The meeting begins.
Voices overlap briefly, then resolve into order. Tim speaks when required, measured and precise. You contribute when invited, your tone even, your language carefully neutral. The framework holds. The machine runs.
You do not look at each other more than necessary.
You do not allow the habit of proximity to return.
And yet —
Every pause feels longer than it should. Every procedural step feels weighted, like something fragile is being carried through it without acknowledgment.
You catch yourself thinking past the end of the meeting.
What comes after.
What doesn’t.
The thought arrives fully formed and unwelcome:
This is already over.
The realization lands not as grief, but as dull pressure — the ache of something handled too carefully to be called pain.
Tim glances down the table as a member speaks. For just a fraction of a second, his gaze flicks to you.
There is nothing in it that anyone else would read as anything but professional alignment.
You know better.
It’s the look of someone bracing.
The look of someone proceeding anyway.
The agenda advances.
Time moves.
You are both doing exactly what you came here to do.
And underneath it all, unspoken and unacknowledged, is the shared understanding that this is how people behave when they believe they have already lost something — and are determined not to show it.
The agenda reaches item four.
A routine transition. A line Tim has delivered variations of a dozen times in the past week, polished down to something that sounds inevitable rather than argued.
He’s halfway through a response when the alert hits.
It’s subtle. A vibration against his wrist. Short. Sharp. Gone.
Tim doesn’t react immediately. He finishes the sentence he’s in, voice steady, expression unchanged. A few heads nod. Someone makes a note. The machine keeps moving.
Then it hits again.
Longer this time.
Urgent.
He inhales through his nose, measured, and sets his pen down with deliberate care. The motion is small, but you see it. You’ve learned the tells—the moments when his attention fractures cleanly rather than fraying.
“I need to step out briefly,” Tim says. “Please continue.”
No explanation. No apology. Just fact.
Bruce’s chair is empty today. No silent backup. No buffer.
Tim meets the chair’s eye instead, gives a look that communicates proceed, then turns toward the door.
As he passes you, his gaze flicks to yours for the briefest moment.
It’s not a goodbye.
It’s something closer to trust.
The door closes behind him.
The room doesn’t pause.
That’s the thing about systems—they don’t wait for the people inside them.
The discussion continues. A clarification here. A question there. You answer when asked, voice even, posture composed. You do exactly what you were brought here to do.
But your attention keeps snagging on the empty space at the head of the table.
Tim should be here.
The chair beside you murmurs something about donor confidence. Another voice references timing. January optics. Quarter alignment.
Words slide past you, recognizable but dulled.
You glance once at the clock.
Too soon.
Minutes stretch.
Someone clears their throat. The chair consults a tablet, frowns slightly.
“We may need to table the vote,” they say eventually, tone neutral. “Given the outstanding amendment.”
A ripple passes through the room—not alarm, not frustration. Mild recalibration.
“January thirtieth,” another member suggests. “That gives us time to review the additional materials.”
Agreements follow easily.
Too easily.
The motion passes.
Just like that.
The meeting adjourns with polite efficiency. Papers gathered. Chairs pushed back. People rise and disperse, already shifting focus to what comes next.
No one looks at you like something has gone wrong.
No one looks at you like something has been saved.
You remain seated for a moment longer than necessary, hands folded in your lap, spine straight.
Your breath leaves you slowly.
You hadn’t realized you were holding it.
Relief arrives first—not sharp, not dramatic. Just a loosening in your chest, quiet and unwelcome. The kind of feeling that exposes something you weren’t prepared to acknowledge.
You should be annoyed.
You should be frustrated by the delay, the extended uncertainty, the added weeks of performance.
Instead, your first thought is:
We don’t have to end this yet.
The realization lands heavier than any disappointment would have.
Later—much later—Tim stands on a rooftop several blocks away, helmet already off, city noise rushing back in around him. His phone buzzes again, this time with an update he wasn’t expecting.
Vote delayed. January 30.
He stares at the screen.
January thirtieth.
Not today.
Not tonight.
The ending he had prepared for—carefully, painfully—has been postponed.
His reaction is immediate.
Relief.
It surprises him enough that he has to sit with it, let it exist without correction. Let it tell him something he’s been avoiding.
He should resent the complication. The extended risk. The additional weeks of scrutiny.
He doesn’t.
The thought that follows is worse.
I’m glad.
By the time you see each other again—hours later, in the quiet aftermath of a day that should have closed a door—neither of you mentions the feeling by name.
You exchange updates. Logistics. Next steps.
Professional.
Contained.
But beneath it all runs the same unspoken truth:
The ending didn’t happen.
And neither of you is disappointed.
January fifteenth passes not as a conclusion, but as a reveal.
The machine moved.
The world intervened.
And somewhere in the space between duty and delay, both of you learned something dangerous about yourselves—
You weren’t ready to let this go.
And now, neither of you knows how to pretend otherwise.
I swallowed my pride mid-August and texted my mom I was going to visit Sunday, and I had something to tell them. I was alone and desperate for proof that someone, somewhere, might care. Ideally my mother. A bold fantasy, I know.
I don’t know why I thought things would be different this time. They had never shown compassion before, so naturally I assumed now would be the moment. Growth arc and…
