#rage attack

[auntbibby]

ive never felt as much "NEW OBJECTIVE: SURVIVE" vibes as when i have a long walk home from where i am, and im actively suppressing a violent tourettic rage attack

my brain is going "i am going to get in a fight with a stranger i am going to get in a fight with a stranger i am going to get in a fight with a stranger" and every time i hear a noise or have to interact with a car im thinking "KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL"

then i get in the house and close the door & i just start screaming & crying & punchin the walls & stompin & punchin myself in the face

2 hours later my ativan kicks in and im calmin down like "........im not a human......fuck......fuck....."

[auntbibby]

had the worst tourettic rage attack yesterday that ive had in roughly 7 years.

the police came. the emt came & said evryone was ok.

im worried that the ppl i fought are not actually ok.

i dont seem like a very good person.

heres an article about tourettes rage attacks: https://movementdisorders.ufhealth.org/2015/07/07/anger-outbursts-and-tourette-syndrome/

Children and adults with Tourette Syndrome can experience a phenomenon called “Rage Attacks” in which the person has an unexplained outburst

im on antipsychotics & mood stabilizers & beta blockers, & iv tried electroshock therapy, & i hav trauma relating to both videotherapy & inperson therapy that makes me less enthusiastic for doing therapy.

my online friends want me to try therapy again, my neuropsychiatrist dosnt want me to do that, my dad is leaning toward me trying abilify.

im tired.

wish me good fortune pls

[autisticdreamdrop]

autism things 167

feeling an overflowing rage while feeling overstimulated

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When I'm having a particularly rough time all I long for is to be cuddled as I watch movies and snack

I need some soft. Some love. Some warmth.

Someone to help fill me up with all I've lost.

Last night was so bad man, I can't even remember the last time I had a rage attack. And I've had a few episodes this year but they've been triggered by something very different.

This one just took so much life out of me. I still don't feel ok.

There are some things you just can't self-soothe through.

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my ma picked a very wrong time to ask me a bunch of questions I cant really give her an answer to and I got severely overloaded and shit, what do people call it, is it even an episode if it only lasts 30 seconds. anyway, my hands hurt and I knocked my drink over and now my hands are sticky and my legs and my feet and theres ginger beer on my floor and it narrowly missed my pc tower but its got on my laptop keyboard. I just. I was already feeling SO FUCKING SHIT. I did not need this, goddammit.

fucking rage attack. thats the one. very short lived that one. havent had a rage attack in ages... not even this year I don’t think. its so sudden and intense and internally violent and exhausting. ugh:( and then it triggered a panic attack shortly after. fun fun.

[ultra-butane-baby]

My Day

My man. We understand each other. 

[phuckingphil]

BRUHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. ESCAPE IS IN 21 DAYS. 

[troylerbae-blog]

Please, allow me to slit your throat.