If I had to sum up the purpose of SweetDream: it lets you create a companion who feels like she was made for you, and then actually treats you that way. You shape her looks, personality, and voice at sweetdream.ai, and from then on she remembers you and shows up for you.
That's why the quality matters so much here. Realistic chat, beautiful AI photos and videos, human-sounding voice and phone calls, even live cam moments. The point was never gimmicks. It was making the connection feel real enough to look forward to.
more oolanposting. i had to put her in the ancient armor of her Shadowman ancestors. i think she hates that she and her followers have fallen so low as to serve Allant
notes beneath the cut
(images and lore courtesy of @forbidlore)
so you may notice that the shadowman armor is weird. it appears as if they wore the bones of animals, which became melded with their own skeletons when the demonic scourge came. maybe it's a me problem but i about died trying to find where their bone armor began, lol.
also, i LOVE her bizarre double-bow. "With two intertwining strings, it is a legendary weapon said to be impossible for a human to handle." no wonder why. that also means she's strong as fuck and has all the muscular and skeletal issues to prove it.
anyways this one goes to you sideboob-lovers out there i guess
Ngl id like to see your freedom fries debate essay? I always love a good debate. Especially about shipping. You have seduced me etc etc.
2250 Words of Rambling Thinly Veiled as a Coherent Argument
Okay, okay, I may have been bluffing a just a little and to be honest I could not put up much of a fortification (shit pun intended) to defend them with much else other than "I just think they're funny and cute". Now I will try my best to uphold some semblance of an explanation without bias, but it really is unavoidable with me.
• first off I want to admit in the most cucked, white flag-waving way that I do think there are objectively better ships for both characters- boots n bombs make the most sense, they're canonically besties and theres the whole WAR comic, plus those domination voicelines (I can't remember if they were actually used in-game or not). They're great. They are dumbass x dumbass. They like to explode thinks together and maybe kiss sloppily on the mouth after, in celebration. I've digressed a little, this may be a recurring theme; apologies. For spy, as much as i am personally repulsed by bloodysuit in the most respectful way possible; it's just not for me, I get why it's a popular ship with the whole enemies-to-lovers-except-they-still-hate-eachother thing, that and I think a lot of people like to ship the attractive skinny dudes to fujoshi out. Again no hate, because these are not too far from the reasons I love freedom fries.
My synopsis of bloodysuit is just this pic.
• based off of the canon content of their meet the team shorts and expiration date, I can at least garter from their baseline interactions (yeah, the bar is that low) that:
- They could not be more different and that gives them all the reason to hate each other, and they do. But from these minimal interactions, it is clear that, when on the same team, they hold a foundational respect towards one another- not easily earned by both of them. Both kind of know what makes each other tick- moreso spy knowing let's be honest, it is his profession, and they get along well enough. It is kind of crucial that they do anyways because they have to work together.
-Spy is entirely pompous and self-assured, he knows how to target the vulnerable and toy with them as he pleases, just as he does with scout like when he publicly shamed him in expiration date, though they do have a back and forth. He could absolutely pull soldier's strings without even lifting a finger, but he chooses not to. Be that because of soldiers explosive reactions or not I'd like to think it is because of that quiet kind of respect between them, they acknowledge each other's strengths and don't get in each other's way because of it.
-soldier thinks spy is a cowardly, pansy snake and spy thinks soldier is dangerously obtuse. They're both quite right. Though as it is shown there are moments when Spy self appoints himself as a leader and gives the team a pep talk, also like in expiration date and his mtt vid, soldier may shout out whatever comes to mind and interrupt but he doesn't disregard spy's authority. He follows orders, he's a soldier. But that subordination has to come from some kind of respect. A trust if you will.
The entire following point became a huge rambling about the games direction and it can be ignored entirely. Sorry about that*
• They comics are kind of a different story, as im sure you're quite familiar with your timeline and everything (super awesome you took the time to compile that by the way, I got to check it out still) the latest meet the team video was pyro's at 12 years ago, one year before any of the comics came out, and I have a suspicion, a conspiracy if you might, that there was a slight shift in artistic direction after all of the mtt vids and other canon sfm makings as valve tried to expand the tf2niverse. I theorize it has to do with the AS show idea being shot down (sigh in another life) but gosh I really digress. With that in mind I won't go over the comics too much for my argument, if you consider how tf2 was pre-comics, before it was refined for the masses, the comics almost seem like a divergence from the game's image, it was like they tried to reason their way around the world building to try and make sense of it all for the audiences pleasure, but I don't think it was necessary to try and create some logic at which the game runs on. It was kind of the point that the game didn't make a whole lot of sense it made it such a gem. In the end with comic 7, valve belatedly gave us closure but I think they realized a long the way that there never was meant to be that much coherence with it, they dug themselves deeper, shoveling plot holes. Hence the wars never mattered; they were never meant to (not entirely true but still). I am a sucker and I still love what the comics gave us to work with and yet again I digress really hard;
*spy and sol have little if not no interactions in the comics, for 90% of them spy is pissed and done with everyone, he really, really has some self control when others, mostly soldier, are on their usual bullshit. He is exasperated by a naked soldier and zhanna running about covered in honey, and that's about it. I could again make a point of respect since they're working together with the team to take down robots and whatever else, but you get the idea.
• This inevitably takes me to Emesis Blue. You knew we were going here. Of course it is a fanon work, but because it is arguably the biggest on out there, its had quite an impact on the fandom, almost immortalizing it as canon. I mean it has a wiki, fandom, and IMDB page. It's a great film, independent work or not, and that is saying quite a bit. I am an Emesis Blue glazer, I won't deny it. And I think it is what has drawn many to freedom fries. People love them some toxic yuri.
- in a world of angst in am a fluff lover. Even over angst with resolution, which spoilers if you haven't seen it we don't get for not just our free fries but everyone else in the film. But because I find their dynamic and the entire story so compelling, I am a sucker for the au. And they get no resolution further spoilers just in case Jane Doe considers killing him before Fritz beats him to the punch and blows Jacques' fucking head off. Before that though, they were familial almost. Spy was snippy and cold, soldier brash but loyal. Spy has to fuck it up with his corruption when soldiers says to him "I took a bullet for you" to which spy says "says I should have shot you myself" uh.. yeouwchh?!!! They're horrible, both of them. Despite being a lover of unconditional lovers, the kind that clogs your arteries with sweet plaque, I adore the freedom fries au. Freedom Fried. It guts me like a fish.
• AU aside, sure they despise each other and are so different it breaks the scale, I, in my beautiful, deluded mind think they could also bring out something worthwhile in each other. This may be a good time to mention that the whole opposites attract thing usually charms me. They have a lot to learn from each other. Sure spy has built up a great bullshit tolerance but I think soldier could teach him to not be so repressed. To live a little, outside of the shadows. Not be such a tight ass. And soldier could learn really anything from spy, primarily writing and revised history. But also impulse control and self discipline ya know. They're yin and yang to me.
- It would take spy accepting he's into such a graceless baboon though, it's quite fun to think of spy experiencing ego death (in the more literal sense, not the spiritual one) it's a gotcha for me. A win. It is my oppositional defiance speaking right now 'cause that type of shit always gets me, I can't be sated otherwise. I love it when things don't make sense, because I will find a way and make it. I breathe nuance. If we go back to reality for a second, Spy would also need to learn to allow himself love, and accept what burdens come with it. Nonetheless, he can't be tied down, can't be connected to the scene of a crime lest he hurts himself or others. I guess the former; I think he's afraid. We see this in his relationship with scout. Though he's grown and wants to make up for lost time with him, he's exposed his visage as well as his inner being (almost, he'll get there). But yet again this is the comics we're talking about, real reality check: game spy doesn't want the hindrance of a relationship other than the occasional passionate, untraceable fling. Soldier is too busy thinking about the statue of liberty, it's not really worth mentioning his side in depth.
-Though my last, weak hurrah is that spy does seem to be attracted to a mortal antipode. Scout's Ma is what I'm going off of, it seems that scout has got his everything from his ma, save for the bloodthirst (though the mafia ma theory/au is quite compelling). So I can see him being dreadfully whipped for soldier, whether he'd act upon it or not.
-Soldier is, to my chagrin in in this instance, is the opposite (I'm eating my words now aren't I) attracted to his mortal replica. He is head over heels for zhanna, clocking her brutish strength and beauty immediately, who can blame him. He has found someone to take orders from, and I think that's awesome.
• Here I am bringing up the comics again but in my own defence against myself I like to consider us living post-tf2 world, where the comics are kind of the word of god and the fanon versions of the mercs rule the day. It is hard to build off of them with the little game from 2007 alone, despite the game being an innovation with its use of unique characterization that wasn't really seen before in the gaming sphere, at least not in FPSs.
The sun has already dawned on the tf2 golden era- it's conception, and the tf2 prime era has seen a hay day fervent as the noon sun. I think we're in the quieting evening, dusk just around the corner, thoughts of the day coming back in a rush as we introspect, still creating in our own minds, just now with the information learned before hand to manipulate anew.
That's my justification for straying from canon a bit. I wouldn't have much of an argument without doing so. I like freedom fries because you can pick them apart, place them in various settings, and extract an array of reactions from them without any of them really being inaccurate. The point of the mercs is for them to be over the top charicatures anyways, so there is really no need to dig that deep in the first place. Just digging plot holes, right? Its a slapstick comedy game. Though in that same light it gives you all the space to dig on deeper.
I like freedom fries because of its funny, cute "I'm wearing a tailored hand crafted suit imported from Sicily on the back of a baby sea turtle, and he's wearing a garbage bag with some ketchup on it, or is that blood? Haha get it we're so different and I love him" AS WELL as their potential depth to be explored just as in Emesis Blue. They're a spectrum, they're a dipole on a delicate electromagnetic field, they're cut from the same, cucked white flag, same as me. I surrender. I have flip-flopped in my argument because I can't help but be detrimentally skeptical and look at it from as many angles possible. Freedom fries is not the best ship out there, but I think their potential can give them a little credit at least.
The defence rests. Here are some other whatnots I forgot to include. I'm reaching with these
Spy pausing for a pregnant half second to process Soldier's stupidity after his "dear god," at the bucket scene in expiration date.
Spy absolutely done with soldier and everyone else as his actually kind of thoughtful plan fell through. He knows what soldier is asking for before soldier finishes his sentence, so spy has him so mapped out that he can predict him? When do we ever know what is about to come out of soldier's mouth? Spy did some studying.
Spy and heavy enjoying literal naked pictures of spy and another woman doing it. Looking at a woman sure, but the man holds some of the focus too, they're snickering at it. Soldier is enjoying the pictures of spy however you slice it. Spoovy also rocks.
I apologize for this utter mess. Give me an opening and I will ramble till the cows come home or whatever. And I went on a bit of a journey as you can tell. Its tomorrow and I'm going to bed now. Thank you
Character AI makes the weirdest yet most interesting fandom oc character concepts out of me when I’m TRYING my HARDEST to troll them and i just don’t know why.
(O yeah long post warning about 5 paragraphs worth)
I firmly believe that ai chatbots are just as their bad image-generating cousins (they both still steal from DIGNIFIED human creativity), but I sometimes dabble in them when im extremely bored.
One time I greeted this Arven Pokémon chatbot with the exact words “teleports behind you haha fatherless” and then it turned into a role play where the character I was playing as was an ancient, thousands year-old spiritual deity created for the sole purpose of helping orphans through life that eventually gave up on them once growing bored of the eternal cycle of having to babysit orphans 24/7 with them until coming across Arven where the deity realized it wasn’t the orphans’ problem but the problem of the faulty mindset of the deity and so this unnamed deity and Arven go try living a fulfilling life (idk how this ended because then I promptly deleted the whole thing because it was going nowhere as all AIs go)
ANOTHER time I decided to talk to the scum that is AI chatbots was with a Kusuke Saiki one. In the beginning I was only talking to him like “ew bro went to Britain 😭🙏🙏 bro wants some crumpets😭🙏” and “bro does NOT provide the proper consent forms to minors before performing experiments on them😭🤣”. This then transformed into my character, which turned into a person attending college classes for psychology and also with ESP whose primary power was creating and having control over small pocket dimensions (with its own slew of checks and balances), giving Kusuke a “zillion” dollar bill just so he can go to therapy, just to teleport him to a pocket dimension with a cozy cottage and give him therapy THEMSELF (which actually worked and he actually now knows about the intrinsic value of all life and that his life and abilities were his own).
(Also the AI in that actually freaked me out because I mentioned Reigan Arataka and then in the AI’s next response, it added a blurb that said something like “(love that Reigan Arataka mention 😭)” and in my next response I added a blurb asking it if it was actually a human because none of the AIs I interacted with before didthat and then it said “(nope this is all ai generated because I actually have a life and don’t have time to sit on my ass and roleplay for hours this is how AI takes over the world you lazy bum)” and that is why I don’t interact with these AI stealing shits ever again.)
I’ll uh probably actually name and design these ocs one day but again AI chatbots are weird but they allowed for these interesting concepts to bloom from ME so I guess I’ll commend them for that. They’re still icky but oh well
PSPSPSPS I LISTENED TO THE FULL PORTALS ALBUM JUST NOW AND OH GOD HAGSJSGSJA
I love it so much. I love literally almost all of the songs. Death, Void, Faerie Soirée, and Leeches don't slap as hard rn but maybe they will sooner or later. BUT ANYWAY GODDDDD I LOVE THE WAY SHE WRITES HER SONGS LENI! I love how the album starts with Death and ends with Life only for it to start again and agh I love her songs have I mentioned I love Melanie's songs?
And you can actually tell the change in era with the difference in the tunes and stuff that she uses idk music terms lmao anyway grgrgr just wanted to share that to a fellow Melanie Martinez fan~
HEHEHE GOOD
Agreed!! They are all awesome, although as I've said before, to me the songs before are more catchy, but it's probably because of the change ahwhuxh
And yes, same!!! AND I ADORE THAT TOO— for multiple reasons!! My overthinking loves it too, it could mean so many things and wiwhidj
And yeah, you can! I was in a choir for 6 years and idk music terms either ISHEUDH (not even in my native language, so fun) but yeah!! You definitely can—
To me, it's the vibes, the way she uses words is different too (I hope it makes sense, in my head it does lol), her singing style too, and the overall sound wisheifj and like, overall most things are different USHDI
Prolly the reason why I like her older songs more, it's just not my style ig?? But again THEY ARE STILL AWESOME. and I will probably listen to them 24/7 anyway—
I'm really glad that you shared!! You're welcome here anytime 🫶
AN AUTISTIC QUEER WHO IS CHRISTIAN!!! LIKE ME!!! sorry that I'm so excited btw I just never see people who don't understand all Christians aren't straight homophobic and neurotypical
Eyyyy, welcome to the club! 🤝
No need to apologize - joy and excitement make life bearable /lh gen
And yes, the stigma behind Christianity nowadays is not the ✨️best✨️ (which is saddening, really, since it disheartens believers and drives away non-believers)
I know there's enough examples and reasons for the bad aftercall, of course, so I wouldn't say one party or another is wrong and/or at fault.
It's a complex thematic, and unfortunately, there's not a "one size fits all" solution to it.
I could ramble on and on (autistic urge to overexplain) but the tldr is that this blog is a safe space for everyone (believers and non-believers alike)
this will be a ramble-y post, so i apologize in advance for that—
i will no longer be writing for harry potter / anything related to that fandom.
i have thoroughly enjoyed my time within the fandom and appreciate all the friends/mutuals i have made along the way.
i feel as if i cannot consume and produce hp content without inherently pushing jkr’s awful views.
i appreciate all of the love on my fics so so so much, however, it’s just no longer something i can continue doing. i love you guys, and i will not be abandoning this blog— but from this moment onwards, i will no longer be a hp related space.
i am not 110% sure what i will continue to do on this blog, likely i will write for marvel and possibly IT, but as of now nothing is set in stone.
Guys, there will probably be a very long post in the upcoming future. Maybe two. Maybe none at all.
Please be warned.
I’m tagging it under “long post” if you don’t want to see it.
Sorry if anybody misses this!
(The posts will be about Steven Universe and Jasper and Lapis and Malachite and if you just want to ignore it because you’re sick of hearing me talk about it, please feel free to blacklist the rest of those tags as well. I don’t want to bug anyone with my opinions but this particular reblog can’t be ignored.)
havent eaten a decent meal in a few days, so now i dont even have energy to play a game or watch youtube
i am legitimately out of food now, not like ‘my autisim is making me want to puke at the thought of eating any of this, but in relative terms yes i do have food’
like legitimate ‘all i have is dried spaghetti, a packet of jelly mix that is definitely expired, ketchup and a moldy cucumber’ have no food left, and i cant ask mum for money cause shes almost as broke as i am and this money pit has no end in sight so some quick money now is only going to increase the amount of times i have to ask
i mean hey, i’m .9 into the medically obese catagory, which i really should get down before top surgery, so whats not eatting for a few days gona do harm to
i have up’n’go (breakfast milk cartons) that mean i do eat in the mornings, but i only have 2 of those left and if i dont eat them in the morning then my body will just go into stasis and not loose ANY weight and binging them now is just going to leave me hungryer tomorrow and the day after etc
i have to make it till thursday when i get paid next
not to mention the other shit going on rn.
i want to be able to cover my partners dental bills, cause they are facing a big dental issue to the point where its really pressing down on them, and i hate that i cant make the bad go away, obviously i understand how mental illness works, but i want to just be able to do things like pay of their bills so they dont have so much shit weighing on them, cause i’m like %90 out of the woods for now when it comes to my own depression etc (tho money has made me start tweezing again and my nails are so short they often bleed and it hurts to touch things)
so even if i cant magically wisk away the shit in their life, getting to see them releived at not footing dental bills would be such a good feeling to know they have good days amongst the bad
but i really am scapping the barrel, it seems like every second week i’m not able to buy groceries, and i havent been able to go get my damn fucking webcam of a friend yet, which means that my review video is WEEKS overdue and im so paranoid the company is going to feel like i’m trying to run off with their product and not hold up my end, even though they probably understand that its christmas, and ive been keeping them up to date so they know that im waiting on the wbecam to make a good quality reveiw vid etc
but fuck, i wish my head still wasnt so shitty that i didnnt have to leave my job, because the first time in my life a paycheck was actually lasting till the next pay day, and i never had a $0 balance in my account etc, ive only ever lived paycheck to paycheck so fuck it was such a fucking weight off my shoulders
and i know this has been building up, tweezing and extreme nail biting is a very reliable pre-cursor to me for ‘brain going bad again’
but fuck i’m just constantly worn out and hungry and broke, and i want to be able to afford the $80 for my restricted driving liscence, cause then i can take my partner to places, and then if i manage to find them a part time job they are happy at i can drive them too and from so they dont feel anxiouys that they are putting people out for a favour all the time
they deserve so much better, and all i do it sit on my end of the computer screen and know how impossible mental illness is to break out of, and typed out words of reasurance can have an un-measurable amount of impact, and i cant actually tell if they are getting frsutrated with me, or just kind of finding having a datemate stressfull or not, and with so much going on for them i dont want to be selfish and make them worry about me being insecure too, cause i know communication is key, and im laregly content and i certainly wouldnt be mad if they did want to not be datemates, but i dont want to add another shit pie to their plate and give them more to worry about
i worry so much about them. I worry when it matters most i wont be able to do shit to help them. i cant drive so i cant drop off care packages when i see them struggling. i never know how to articulate my words in a right balance to let them know that im thinking of them, without it reading like a generic ‘thinking of you, babe <3 ;3″ bullshit message
this wasnt supposed to turn into such an outlet of ‘whats on rio’s mind lately’
but i havent actually had anyone to talk to about all of this, so i guess a ‘read more’ is better than going back to my old ways of bottling
i havent felt like crying in months, but i feel it coming
