#re:start

[nnomari]

RE:START !

some pose studies i did with my ocs 🧡

[dominimoonbeam]

Everyone Can Get Hurt

playing with some of the new characters.

re:start crew.

A quiet study session turns into a serious conversation when Corvus mentions a new friend.

tags: protective friends, sex talk, predatory stranger, questionable situation

Everyone Can Get Hurt

“I have a date after class. Can we do it later?” Corvus asked, never missing a page in his steady and daunting reading speed.

Dreamer looked up, surprised. “A date?”

“Yes. A booked time in my schedule,” he explained the meaning.

Dreamer nodded, glancing around the group. They were at Lincoln’s place for a study session, clustered around the coffee table. Theo was in the big chair on one side and Lincoln was lounging across one side of the couch, Dreamer on the other with their legs tangled in the middle. Theo and Lincoln were both reading, just like Corvus but with highlighters and creased brows and nowhere near his speed or ability to talk at the same time.

“Oh. Okay. Sure, of course,” Dreamer said, pen still hovering over their planner. “What about–”

“What’s the date?” Lincoln asked, interrupting them and still frowning at his textbook.

Could he read and talk at the same time too?

“I am supposed to meet a classmate in the park. We’re friends now, though their feelings aren’t as…friendly as yours? Friendly is not exactly a feeling, it’s more of a mix of feelings at a certain level that I’ve come to identify as our friendship but maybe other people have different feelings in their friendships.”

“What feelings?” Theo asked, still reading.

Could everyone read and talk at the same time but Dreamer?

Corvus was sitting cross-legged on the floor across from them as the coffee table. He inhaled to answer and then stopped, pressing his lips. “I’m not supposed to talk about the feelings I can sense unless the person asks…”

“How does my friendship feel?” Dreamer prompted.

Corvus beamed, no longer reading his book. “It feels like happiness and familiarity and sometimes surprise and delight and sometimes frustration but affectionate.”

“Okay,” Dreamer smiled. “And how is that different from the new friend?”

Corvus looked puzzled, considering it. “Not the same. Excited? He is excited. He wants me to meet him very much. He says he’s going to show me aspects of the human experience.”

Dreamer wasn’t smiling anymore.

Lincoln and Theo had stopped studying, both looking at Corvus now. They heard it the same way Dreamer had, hadn’t they? Oh fuck. “What… Um…” Dreamer struggled.

Lincoln sat up, putting his textbook down on the coffee table. “What aspects?”

Corvus looked up at him from his side of the table, open and easy as always, and then something closed behind his eyes. “Oh. I wasn’t supposed to say.”

Theo was frowning too now.

“You’re upset,” Corvus said and then glanced at Dreamer and Theo. “You’re all upset. I’m sorry. What did I do?”

“You didn’t,” Dreamer hurried to assure.

“What do you mean you weren’t supposed to say?” Theo pressed.

“Why are you scared?” Corvus countered, blinking back at Theo.

“Did your new friend say it was a secret?” Lincoln asked, deep voice so steady and gentle.

“Yes.” Corvus looked between them, no doubt reading their feelings. Dreamer often wished there was a way to hide those. “You’re very worried. Are you worried for me? You do not need to be scared. I cannot get hurt in a way that matters on your plane and I do not think my new friend plans to hurt me.”

Dreamer really hated the way he said that–not that he couldn’t get hurt but that it wouldn’t matter. “It matters.”

“We’re friends, right?” Lincoln asked, still endlessly calm when Dream knew they couldn’t have been.

Corvus nodded. “Yes. Of course.”

“We want to make sure your new friend is a friend too, and not someone who wants to hurt you,” Theo said.

“I cannot be hurt in–”

“It matters,” Lincoln said this time. “I know you can heal yourself, but it matters to us when you get hurt.”

Corvus thought about that, and whatever he was reading in their auras. “Me being hurt would hurt you?”

Dreamer nodded.

“Yes,” Lincoln said.

Corvus considered it another second before telling them bluntly, “He wants to do sex to me. He thinks I do not know, but I know. I do not know what exactly he wants to do but I know it will give him sexual pleasure, whatever it is.”

“Fuuuuuuuck,” Theo was out of the chair and taking a walk around the room.

Dreamer pressed their hands into their thighs to keep from punching anything.

Somehow Lincoln managed not to react, nodding slowly and holding Corvus’s gaze like he’d known the answer and was just checking. “Okay, Cor. That’s not a friend.”

“Friend’s do not have sex?” Corvus asked, clearly doubting this conclusion.

“Some do. But this person targeted you because he thinks you don’t know what he wants. He told you to keep it a secret and meet him someplace. That’s sketchy. That’s not a friend.”

Theo was still pacing the room behind Corvus, shaking his head.

“Is it the secret part or the meeting part that is bad?”

“It’s the secret and that the whole thing sounds like he’s planning to do something bad to you.”

“Sex is bad?”

Theo put himself in a corner.

Dreamer held their breath.

“You are very upset,” he said to them.

“Sex is not supposed to be bad,” Lincoln said, not letting the topic go. “But it is supposed to be between consenting adults and it doesn’t sound like this guy wants you to know what he plans to do, right? That’s not consenting.”

“Hm… You are not wrong. He was very excited that I did not know. He called me cute and simple.”

Theo swore, his voice muffled in the corner.

“It sounds like this guy was hoping to take advantage of you.”

“But I can not get hurt.”

Dreamer wished they’d put themself in a corner too. “If it was one of us instead of you, would you tell us to go?”

“What?” Corvus and Lincoln asked at the same time. Theo turned his head from the corner to look back at them.

Dreamer looked at Corvus and reached across the coffee table to catch his hand. “If you think about it again, but instead of you–it was one of us, would you tell us to go alone to meet this guy?”

He blinked and then really focused on them. Dreamer wasn’t sure what he was thinking, but somehow they knew he was considering the things they had talked about–the things Dreamer had told him had happened to them. The world was scary sometimes. He frowned like he’d tasted something bad. “No.” His hand squeezed theirs a little. “I see. You are right…That is not a friend. So, he said we were friends but he did not mean it?”

Dreamer winced. “I don’t think so.”

Corvus thought for a while longer and they all waited in that quiet with him. Theo was calming down, shoulders easing back. Corvus nodded as though he’d come to a conclusion. “I can ask you next time?” he said, glancing between Dreamer and Lincoln. “Next time I make a new friend, I mean, I can ask you if it sounds okay? Or should I not? You were very upset.”

“You can ask,” they said at the same time.

“But I should not ask Theo?” he clarified.

Theo was sitting back down in his chair, looking wrung out by stress. He scrubbed a hand over his face. “Of course you can ask me. Definitely ask me.”

Corvus nodded and went back to reading. The rest of them took a while to absorb what the fuck had just happened, and almost happened.

“I can get hurt,” Corvus said, seeming to think it to himself. His lips pressed, concerned. “If I got hurt, you would get hurt… I think if you got hurt, I would hurt.”

Dreamer realized then that he was still holding their hand. They squeezed it. “Hey… What was the not-friend’s name?” 

“I do not know. He was an elemental. We do not have classes together.”

“What element?” Lincoln asked.

“Water.”

[mercuriouss]

I really like how Dreamer is avoiding therapy. They tried it, probably not for long, didn’t like it and haven’t attempted it since. As much as I love that so many characters in the Redactedverse are in or have gone to therapy, specifically that it seems to have helped them a lot, I really love that Dreamer isn’t and it hasn’t. It’s so fitting for their character and accurate to how many people react to therapy, especially in the early days. They hate talking about their experiences so they suck it up and tough it out instead.

It was hard enough for them to tell Corvus, a friend and objective party, they couldn’t even begin to try tell someone who they don’t know or trust. Dreamer does nottt think highly of themself, is deep in self-loathing and regulalry insults or dismisses themself. Maybe I’m projecting but generally people with that much shame don’t tend to enjoy telling strangers, even if they’re medical professionals, about the ‘shameful’ things that they’ve done or have been done to them. Someone like Dreamer who bottles up their issues isn’t going to be able to stay in a ‘being vulnerable about your deepest darkest secrets and traumas’ situation long.

Not to mention that Latency is just so rare that most of the stuff they’d have to work through would be difficult for any Empowered therapist to really understand. Unlike Lovely, Dreamer has been a part of the Empowered world their whole life. They knew they were Latent, they knew what they were supposed to be and what they ended up not being, they experienced the insecurity of being an outsider in their own community - in their family. Not even a humanborn therapist would be able to understand that (not saying that therapy would have been easy for Lovely as a humanborn latent and vampire attack victim but I feel like it would be easier for a therapist to help someone parcel through because those experiences are more common). Even a D(a)emon therapist wouldn’t work. Dreamer could tell Corvus because he’s so new, he only recently coalesced and doesn’t have the long standing biases or contexts an older D(a)emon (which a therapist would have to be really) would in regard to Latency and the Empowered community. On top of that emotionally unavailable Dreamer doesn’t exactly love that D(a)emons can read their emotions.

Also really loved that when James asked if they’d tried another therapist or if they needed help finding one they immediately get defensive and snappy. They don’t need therapy, they’re not broken or fucked up or crazy, they’re fine. People go through much worse in real life and only the Quinn attack was actually real! Dream magic is just in your head, it’s all fake! It shouldn’t bother them at all! The way James had to preface his asking about therapy with a ‘I don’t think you’re crazy I’m worried you’re in pain’. Ugh. It’s a generally nice thing to do but especially hits for Dreamer who, as discussed, internalises like they’re getting paid for it and probably thinks they’re losing their mind. James has to change the subject because Dreamer’s so offended and insulted by any implication that they might need professional help. I’m glad he’s so patient with them :( they deserve it. James being the one who got them out of the Dreamscape, the one who helped them remember who they actually were, also impacts their reaction I think. In Dreamer’s eyes he’s already seen far too much of them and doesn’t need to see or hear any more of them.

I’m interested to know how all this affects Dreamer’s relationship with their sister. I got the impression she had only recently recovered, mentally or physically, meanwhile on the surface Dreamer is fine and healed. I could be wrong on that but that’s the impression I got from the Anton video since we don’t have a specific timeline for Re:Start. Has she gone to therapy? Does she think Dreamer is still in therapy (that would be fun)? I’m sorry I just need to see more of them. I think their relationship is so sweet and I need to know how it’s holding up in the wake of the attack and PM.

This isn’t super relevant to the therapy discussion but I can’t begin to imagine what it must feel like for Dreamer to constantly be forced to use the magic that they wanted so badly yet brought them so much pain every time they go to sleep. They can’t escape it, no matter what they do. Considering fools!Dreamer likes to let their dreams weave themselves (I’m not gonna talk about N’Dellex because that’s a whole other theory lol), RS Dreamer likely has a tight hold on their Dreams. They don’t let them run out of control, they are in control, they know what’s going on and they won’t let it go off track, their subconscious is locked. But then imagine they have an intrusive thought and something Quinn/Marc/PM slips in… Something that could be worked on in therapy maybe hmmm.

Thanks for coming to my TedTalk :) I have so many thoughts on Dreamer and Project Meridian/Re:Start that I’m not able to tell anyone so to the tumblr void it goes!

[heynowimalooser]

happy make a shit comic day gang!!

So. this is part of a much much bigger dnd oc thing going on, and I promise this isn't how Koe, the bird fellow, normally is. In this he's just after making the biggest mistake of his life for the second time, so hes fucked up about it. theres a much longer conversation after this, but yk, have a page for today!

huge shout to @brewlyallen -

-who is the creator of the wonderful tall unicorn fellow in this! Ambrose is always so much fun to draw =]

uhhh yeah blah blah if you repost this I'll come for your left kidney, the usual stuff. be cool out there!

[mikhaelidea]

[hadukilina]

[rubymikun]

[Donation only] Tsukiuta/TsukiPro CD rips

Hello guys! I’m opening shares for my CDs because my dad just quitted his job, and I want to earn money to contribute to the fandom more, as well as having an independent spending income for my hobby. So I’m opening those with cheap prices! But if you want just to support me, that’s fine too (lol)

How to get

You just need to send an amount of donation listed down in the list into my Kofi here, then inbox me and tell me which one would you like to have and I’ll send you the download link. Same as the Rabbits Kingdom BD rips.

All my rips are including 320k rip (highest quality) of drama (depends on CD), on vocal and off vocal tracks, with BK scans that are 600dpi (highest) quality!

List of CDs

Tsukiuta. Men 4th season, Six Gravity CDs - 2 coffees per CD

Content: 2 Drama CD tracks, 1 on vocal song track, 1 off vocal,  BK scans

ALIVE Re:Start series - 1 coffee per CD

Content: 1 song track, 1 off vocal, BK scans

TsukiSta CDs - 1 coffee per CD

Content: 1 song track, 1 off vocal track, BK scans, tokuten (an extra bromide that only given when buy at the stage)

ATTENTION [IMPORTANT]

Despite sharing those rips, I would kindly ask you not to share it outside or claim it’s yours. Please kindly prefer people to this post here if they want the rips.

AND PLEASE DO NOT RE-UPLOAD THE RIPS ELSEWHERE. Since I’m sharing as a voluntary mind, please don’t affect those people who want the rips later on.

Please don’t hesitate to inbox me if you have any questions!

[moonlit-manifesto]

[3/27/19 - ALIVE Twitter] Soara's Final Re:Start Song

☆Re:Start Series Completion☆

Sora: "Now that it's finished, let's hang out at a theme park for fun this time! I feel like 'Yayyyy (・∀・)v ♪''" [last time they went to one for work]

Morihito: "Keep up the good work, Sora."

Soushi: "Nice job."

Ren: "Thank you so much for all your wonderful compositions, senpai!"

Nozomu: "It's spring break! Let's actually go to a theme park to commemorate this completion~!"

Sora: "Sounds good!"

#thank you

(@aliveinfo1)