I'm thinking about how bad a typical fanon "escape the circus au" would be for Ragatha
First of all, she's been missing for nine years. nine. years. she's legally dead. that means credit cards, social security info, home ownership, any legal ids are invalid. getting that reversed costs money, money she doesn't have because no more bank account. she could go to her family for help since they're wealthy but that means going back to her mom. if her mom is still alive. which is its own can of worms.
she might be roughing it on the streets for a while and like. Ragatha is a rich girl. besides the child abuse she's been comfortable and provided for all her life. and in the circus she didn't need food or anything. Ragatha is gonna be struggling to survive for the first time and that's gonna be extremely jarring and unpleasant.
and!! following the logic they all entered and exited the circus in different places she's. alone. so much of her identity is in being the helpful one, the cheerful one. suddenly she's Completely Alone in the world. none of her friends are with her. she has nothing but her own thoughts for company and that Will Not Go Well
quarter life crisis fan anon
DONT EVEN JOKE LAD. ive been cravingggggggggg for a fic that touched on ALLL that for so long and quarter life crisis did a STELLAR job but i want one where it really really REALLY digs into how much deep shit the idea of coming back after years like that wouldve been. and because i love to make her suffer i also really love reading fics where the length of your stay in circus determines how much your body declined over the years. couple that with the legal headache of determining if youre still alive or not (shes not. shes been dead for 9 years. maybe even longer than that) then yeah... i just crave... i just crave her going through it. sorry rags. fortunately for u though ive not seen much fic undertaking that type of premise but man. i dream about it.....