- VENT -
You ever catch yourself having a negative perception of life? ๋࣭ ⭑
this is one of the things i strongly dislike about myself and ive been dealing with it for so long. i am currently medicated/in therapy but still myself in a slump due to my environment. i feel so ungrateful at times >.<
its so easy for me to feel sad/pathetic abt my life, no relationships or genuine friends..i never experienced that irl before the trauma and constant betrayal ive been through with family n then expected to get over it is just all too much
i really feel myself spiraling, whenever i get into headspaces like this its so easy for me to get upset n feel like no ones cares or gets me ;/ because im so used to rejection n ppl invalidating my feelings constantly. this week was mentally tiring in general yes ofc good things happened in between but dealing with responsibility worries, recovering from a virus and on top of me and my moms weird relationship + insecurities of my own n mental health i am TIREDDD
gonna try n not be so hard on myself abt this i just get so frustrated w this mindset, i write myself off as a "realist" but i dont wanna come off as a negative/pessimistic person just bcus i suffer from mental illness and my brain is wired differently than everyone elses ;/
hope this yap made sense~ thx for always listening, mwah <3
