It's raining and hailing here today and I forgot my umbrella and was wearing sandals which was an unfortunate mistake but I was late for class and had to walk 😭
I want to write stuff but I have bad writers block so here I am lol
During my American Literature class my prof started talking about canon and noncanon and I fear I gave myself away but laughing out loud
Anyways I hope you are doing good and staying hydrated and all the things!!!
Also heres on of my favorite pictures of Han cus I can lol
Omg haiiiiii
I'm doing good. I was supposed to study but I'm texting my friends. It's a little past midnight so I think I should get in bed. I will get in bed in some time.
Talk about bad luck 😭😭😭
Hail can be quite dangerous so I hope you didn't get hurt. Sandals are good but at the same time they're bad because your foot keeps sliding off them (at least in my case)
It's really hot here. Like today was 43 degrees or smth. I don't know it was hot asf. If you add 100 to 43 just for vibes, you'll get 143 whi-
I'M GONNA LET YOU KNOW
I'M JUST GONNA GO
AND HOLD YOU SO I'M NEVER LETTING GO
I'M GONNA LET YOU KNOW
THAT I'M JUST GONNA GO
YEAH 난 너에게로 지금 출발합니다 바로 LIKE I'M
NEVER LETTING GO, OH
I CANNOT EXPLAIN THIS EMOTION
ONE-FOUR-THREE, I LOVE YOU
Oh shit... what was that? Who said that? Anyways-
I get it bro I get it. Writer's block is nasty. Write your ideas down somewhere so you don't forget them later when you've overcome the block. I do this a lot. I think oh yeah I'll remember it but I don't and end up forgetting shitz so yeah. If your brain tells you it will remember, don't trust it.
Well, what can we say? Guess that was a canon event. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA
Laugh.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAAAHAH
AND HAN LOOKS SOOO GOOD I'M ROLLING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
No shit. Han in this top was such a religious experience. I don't even know what religious experience we talking about since I'm not religious but goddamn I love han in this top. Gosh we want a part 2. DIV1 DO SOMETHING GOOD FOR ONCE YOU SHITZ
I've been wanting to drink water since some time now but I haven't but since you've given me the motivation, I shall drink water.
I hope you have a great day ahead and tomorrow turns out to be more benevolent than today
I dreamed of you last night. Actually I dream of you every night, just before the blueness of sleep finally sets in, but the waking world is so far off. Like a horizon, like a sunset that throws diamond fractals of light into steady violate seas.
Once we laid under white linen sheets upon our bed like the tongue of a whale. The candle light seeped in like mist. I stared at you like I could really feel you there, the way one feels cool blue eyes, sequined with love, staring at them.
I feel a lot of big things here. And I thought as I listened to other poets, trying to translate the synesthesias of their heart, that I could never put that feeling into words. You said it once already, that there was no language for what you're trying to describe, obserdities.
It's like you dont exist, like you never did. The only thing you ever were was a ghost. A thought. I know, because I am. The weight of a body at times feels like such a hardship. I cannot think like you, Libertine. Whenever I walk through barefoot grass I get bee stung. Whenever I try to chase the south wind I remember that I cannot fly like he does.
How did you catch the dawn? You woke so early and walked. So I retrace your steps, except I ran. I saw the dawn once, climbing up before me, rising from the gables and the golden mirror window panes. I was captured by her beauty.
And once I dreamed that you cried paralyzed tears that you could not be with me. You could not exist where I did. And for once it was not me crying. For once it was not my body twisting up in a sickly high of anxiety. I knew exactly what to do then.
I dreamed of you last night, before the dawn pushed me into the sea.
Yesterday we got to experience a very scary episode in which I fainted randomly while waiting for breakfast. I’m nearly six months pregnant, and apparently this is just something that happens.
Brent, our house’s resident ghost, did not react well.
He had chosen to be outside for the morning, dipping a hand into our neighbor’s abandoned vehicle and tearing out whatever he found, wires, soda cans, essential-looking parts, whatever. As he always does when he sees me, he asked with concern how I was doing.
“I guess Walker told you?” I said. Brent’s eyes got large, too big to consider a natural widening, and asked what I was talking about. They only got larger as I told the story of my collapse, slowly engulfing him until story’s end when I was talking to an enormous pair of veiny, watery eyes.
I tried to shrug it off, explaining that this was all very normal and that I wasn’t hurt, but he wasn’t having it. There didn’t seem to be a way that I could convey the fact “I’m okay” that he would accept.
“I brought you gelato,” came a whisper from out of the cold room. “Eat it. Eat it quickly, I need to bring the container back before they notice it’s gone.”
The freezer’s contents had been rearranged to accommodate a steel bucket of ice cream, the taquitos and bags of peas mashed Tetris-like into one shelf to make room. The gelato smelled of coffee, and was so cold that it burned my fingers when I touched the metal. “I’ll try it later,” I said uncertainly to the ghost. I love coffee ice cream, but I had read something once about dead people food leading to half-year entrapments in the underworld. I needed to be on earth in six months, as that is where my obstetrician lives.
The container was gone the next evening, but a new one had replaced it. “You need to try this,” Brent hissed in my ear. “You need your strength.”
Thanks, I guess
I’ve mentioned before that our ghost doesn’t know what to do with a pregnant woman, but that he is fascinated by it. I still don’t know exactly when he got all of his information about such things, but it seems more than a little outdated.
He doesn’t like my cat. Ghosts and cats have a tense relationship on the best of days, lots of hissing and puffed-up tails and declarations to “GeT oUt oF mY hOuSe YoU fILtHy AnImAl”. Brent has become even more suspicious of Ted the cat since learning of my condition, which is inconvenient for everyone because Ted has become unusually affectionate towards me. Apparently this is also to be expected, though science doesn’t have a good explanation. Cats just plain like new moms, I guess.
“It will steal your child’s breath,” Brent growled as I sat stroking my cat one evening. “They come from the devil. It’s probably someone’s familiar.”
“I’m really not worried about that.”
Outside, our neighbor’s rooster crowed. Brent visibly, literally, prickled at the sound, his back spiking like the line on a heart monitor. He glared at the direction the crow had come from. “If the cat kills that bastard rooster, then we might be friends,” he grumbled.
“There used to be two roosters. I have reason to believe he did kill the other one.”
“Well then. If he makes you happy and he kills roosters I suppose it’s all right.” Ted only flattened his ears and allowed his pupils to expand, claws digging into my legs. Brent snorted.
“Don’t let him crush you. I’m going to the shelter to get as many cats as they’ll let me have.”
And he was gone. I still don’t know if he was joking. It was still something of a relief when he went though, as Brent brings with him a smell of burning, which fills the room the loner he’s in it. To a pre-natally sensitive nose, that can become overwhelming fast.
“Eeeeeeeat the gealtooooooo” echos down the hall. I pretend not to hear it.
Ok hi its me coming in with my pics from the kpop store!!!
I got a free yoongi photocard for spending more than $50 on albums, and then I pulled Felix, Changbin, and RM for my photocards!!!
I also talked alot with the lady who works there and showed me videos from when she had floor seats at Vegas, and Jungkook waved at her 😭😭😭
She proceeded to try and convince me to drop too much money to go see bts live, and when I told her I couldnt to enjoy the concert movie (which I am going too!)
Anyways, if you want to see I can show you my whole kpop collection too someday, the amount of albums I have has started to get out of hand 😅
Anyways how are you? I am good, back at work again sending this well on my break. Its really hot here today so I'm making sure to stay hydrated!!!
Oki thats all, byeeeeeee
HAI HAIII GHOSTIE!
Omg you got Maxident and Persona that's soo cooll. I too want to get Maxident for my first SKZ album and Map Of The Soul for my first BTS album. And all the albums they've made if my pocket allows 🤭🤭
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH my namgi look so cute☹️ and look at... at... at... (wai- do changbin and felix not have a ship name or have I forgotten?)
Anyways- look at changbin and felix so cute wthhhh
Lino looked very yoongi in that sticker so for a second I was wondering what yoongi is doing with maxident... he looks cute as well
I'm definitely not eyeing that pastry 👀 it looks so good tho?? It would be a bummer if it didn't taste as good lol
Lucky lucky lady. It's kinda weird sometimes when that happens. I mean I get it you want others to share that experience and have fun but it's just weird when they start insisting 😬
Glad you'll be enjoying the movie!! Lemme know how it was ^_^ the stray kids movie is now available on the streaming platform that I use so imma watch it some time but I know I don't have it in me to watch it without crying. I haven't even seen the survival show 🫣🫣 I'm too weak for this shit ngl
OMG YES I WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOUR COLLECTION
Show me whenever :]
Please, if it's getting out of hand, I'll help you take care of it. Pass some to this peasant too I'll bless you in return 😔💔
I'm doing good!! We were out for a few days for some work and currently, we're on the way home now that the task is done. As I was writing this, I got an ice-cream AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH I'M SO HAPPY
Back to the update, it was raining real hard yesterday. We had to take shelter at a furniture store because it was raining a little too hard. My shoes were wet. Unfortunately, it was the only pair of footwear I had brought. Good thing it dried overnight.
My entrance test answer key is out but I haven't checked it yet. Gonna do it first thing once I'm home. I'm scared about that but ik government already fucked it up so there isn't much that I can do 🤷🏻♀️
It's hot here too so I'm trying to stay hydrated too :D
I am working on my revamped blog and have decided my bestie moots are going to be spirits in my haunted house!!! So I wanted to ask you what you would want to be the spirit of!!! Muffin is the spirit of muffins lol
You can be the spirit of anything you want lol
Ok byeeeeeee
Hai haii ghostie
OMGOMGOMGOMGGGGG THAT SOUNDS SO CUTE 🥺
Hmmmm................................. I think I'll be the spirit of chaos because I am very chaotic idk?
You sent this ask 3 days ago and I spent 3 days thinking of what spirit I should be. I'm so sorry please don't think I was ignoring you or smth I am just too indecisive when it comes to matters like these 😭😭
Once again I am so sorry about breaking that vase, I hope that my paranormal activities at fuckass hours of the night have been more reasonable as off late. Just don't ask where the expensive lamp on the side table next to the couch went, as I have no clue and it obviously wasn't me...
Anyways
How are you doing??? I am doing good, a little sleepy and a little moody but aside from that I am doing really well. I love the freedom of summer break and finally getting to watch tv and read books again. I am reading a really amazing book right now called "The Sun and the Starmaker" by Rachel Griffin, and I am obsessed.
I am writing this as I am getting ready for work. I work 5 hours today and I got a raise yesterday because I have been at my job for exactly a year and 3 days. I keep dealing with silly people but it is sort of fun, and my coworkers are great!
Rain is rolling in today, and that means that it's going to be so humid but that is ok cus I love rain and thunderstorms. I am too much of a weather nerd for my own good. For example, today the rain is moving in from the south to the north, which hardly ever happens. Normally our rain moves in from the west to the east. I think is happening because of silly atmosphere stuff.
I have a question for you, I am working on my fanfic (will keep writing it when I get off of work) and I am using a pet name, but I cannot decide if it sounds cringey af or not. I don't really use pet names but I know lots of people use them irl. So my question is, is there a pet name you think doesn't sound cringey??? I am currently using "love" and I cannot decide if it's awful or not. I was thinking about switching it to "babe" but that is the default one I use when writing cus its like, the most basic. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
This got way longer than I meant it to be so I will spam you some questions to answer and then sign off because I gotta go eat lunch before I go to work so I am not late lol
I already said how are you, but how are you, are you staying hydrated, is the weather good where you are today, are you getting enough sleep, and when I go to the kpop store tommorrow can I send you a silly little haul of my stuff???
Oki byeeeeeeeee
HAI HAIIII
It's okay. I forgive you for breaking that vase because at the end of the day, you're just a silly ghost.
I can feel you having random zoomies in my room when I stay up late or wake up randomly at ungodly hours of the night.
Uh-huh... surely not you, huh? That's a really suspicious thing to say 🤨
But I believe you (I don't. I'm watching you)
I'm doing good. It's really hot and humid here so sweating too. That sounds amazing. Summer holidays really are the best, you know. A whole year of grind later you get to relax for once.
I haven't heard of that book but I'd like to know how it was once you're done. What is it about tho?
I am re-reading <Then She Was Gone> by Lisa Jewel. I also bought <The Diary Of A Young Girl> by Anne Frank. I haven't touched it yet. Father is reading it a bit after mother told him to do so but I can tell he isn't as interested in it and that nothing that is written is being understood. Bet he's forcing himself only because it is famous.
A whole year??? Omg that's such a milestone! I think you should treat yourself if you haven't already. Indulge in a guilty pleasure and/or buy yourself that one thing you've been wanting to buy but couldn't. I feel like wins should be celebrated. No matter the size. So you should get something. Rest, is upon you :D
Ooohhh that's surely very interesting to hear. Is that about rains in general or only about your place? (My geography sucks)
I think pet names, if spoken with meaning and emotion, don't sound cringe at all. Every title holds a meaning so irrespective of whatever someone is being called, it wouldn't sound bad. I personally love the pet name 'love'. It sounds so pure like the word love itself. When you adore someone so much they become the very definition of love for you... this is what I would mean if I were to call someone 'love'.
Babe is also good. Yes, it is a bit of a common and popular thing but it's still meaningful. Yk when I became an adolescent, I used to find it cringe when couples called one another 'baby' but now I don't. Because everyone's love language is different. Which somewhat influences the pet names they give their significant others. To me, 'babe'/'baby' is like loving and caring for someone so deeply you start doting on them like you would for a baby... this is what it means to me. Yet, at the same time, it is also a very casual term for me because of how frequently I use it. Or maybe everyone is a baby for me and I need to look after them. You included.
But then again, like I said, love languages differ and so do titles. The difference between the two for me is that 'love' sounds innocent and 'babe' is mature. If i were you, I'd sit and think what the characters mean to one another. And what kind of title feels natural to come out of their lips for the other person. For example: 'love' would sound more fitting coming out of Hyunjin's lips and 'babe' would sound more fitting to come out of maybe Bangchan's lips(?)
(Idk if I am making sense anymore)
Rest, is upon you :D
Although I don't know if I would be of any help, I'd love to answer whatever questions you have. It's been a very long time since I last wrote and honestly, I feel so bad because at one point, I felt so on top of the world when I did. I haven't found motivation/inspiration for it but I think I should get to writing in the coming days.
I'm doing good. I haven't been staying as hydrated lately so I need more water in my system. Ahem I shall not answer that question. Oh baby yes please. I would love to see your little haul. Spam me please 🥺👉👈❤️
