for me the biggest dissociative CPTSD thing I have is like Losing Access To Emotions. sometimes if I'm under a certain kind of stress they just yeet themselves into the cloud. stored elsewhere. I have to really really consciously remind myself that 1. they're there 2. what they are and 3. that I'm not an unfeeling monster who doesn't have them at all
it's so much work and sometimes it goes on for so so long that I have to start sort of hypothesizing about what exactly emotions about certain things will be once they're done downloading themselves back onto my hard drive. so I've gotten pretty good at predicting that, which sounds like "I am reasonably accurate at knowing what emotions I am likely to feel about this once the emotions come back" which sounds a lot like "I'm pretty good at guessing what I'm feeling about things at any given time" which I guess is not inaccurate. but my point is it's really easy for me to understand how someone with a very similar experience to this would conceptualize it as "I become a different guy" yk
