Ramble about my recent discovery under cut if ur interested lol
Discovered I'm not just aroace, but demiaroace as well as panromantic (confused it with pansexual before)
Just recently, I realized that, while I'm not the biggest romantic or affectionate person irl, I feel like if I had a close enough bond with someone, I'd be willing to be more open with them, but it would just take a lot more time with someone like me. I'm a comfort and trust kind of person as well as very nervous and awkward, lol.
Love that it's a spectrum cause it makes things so much easier, lol. I feel like if I were to have a partner, my feelings would be just out of platonic, and I'd be a more openly affectionate (but still within comfort zones ofc).
I've also already known that gender does not matter to me. I care more for how the person acts/behaves (in terms of respect and decency). I'm just more of an emotionally affectionate person than anything else. Or even a gift giver.
But, as of now, I still have no interest in finding a partner. This is more of an "if I were to" kind of thing. I'd much rather try and take care of myself first before I'd even begin to think of that kind of stuff.
And, of course, I've known for a while I'm genderfluid. Despite leaning more on the masc side of things lately, I'm still very comfortable with either she/her, he/him, and they/them pronouns. I don't often have a specific preference (maybe on occasion) but I'm more of a "whatever you see me as/want to call me" kind of person because you'd be right either way lmao.
Anyway- not a big change to my identity, but it's more comfortable nonetheless and makes me feel better about how I identify myself ^^
