#samuel.txt

[the-indigo-symphony]

Kinda strange to me that willomancy seems to be becoming a synonym for creating a system when it's really just one method for it. Like hey let's not forget dæmonism, soulbonding, tulpamancy, and all the other methods out there!

[into-the-bugverse]

GARNET - If they had to kill someone, what method would they choose?

OOO OKAY.,,, I can work with this

Absynth : Probably the good ol’ Soul Suck™️. Drain them of their energy until theirs nothing left. Definitely a Gods work no doubt.

Cassius : I don’t talk about this guy that often BUT I SHOULD… that being said, he would probably strangle someone. Tho he never would- not even imagine it. Hes a huge pacifist

Charles : Notably Suffocation and Knife. Thats what he did BEFORE (dun dun dun)

Donny : Another lesser talked about oc, but me thinks it would have sumthing to do with his claws.

Emoc : oh 110% strangulation. Probably homoerotic to him /j/

Flip : Truth be told, despite being an infernal god, I don’t think he’d kill people. That being said,,, probably something similar to Absynth

Jakk : Energy suckin like Absynth. He does it on the reg accidentally

Dorien : Om nom nom, tasty person (wont elaborate)

Melissa : I do not think she could kill someone even if she imagined it. Maybe poisoning? If she tried she’d feel guilty

Chastity : Stabby stabby. Probably.

Rodger : VIOLENCE. Beating someone

Samuel : Shooty shooty pewpew

Zander : He likes to switch methods, so theres no one set way he would kill someone

[aquaticamelodica]

shoppers girl: need any help girl?

me, a femme trans dude: oh i'm just looking for a few things thanks :^)

she: oh let me know if you need any help girl

me: thanks : ^ )

she: i can hold onto those things if you want girl

me: o h t h a n k s : ^ )

[birdshollowwords-blog]

you know you’re touchstarved when someone taps you on the shoulder and you go fuckin nuts

[the-indigo-symphony]

If you've ever seen a marathon and thought "wow I wish I could do that with everyday tasks" have I got the thing for you. Plorality.

[the-indigo-symphony]

So, I, Samuel, took the DES 2 recently because there's a poll going around, and I realized as I was taking it that we've just kind of stopped noticing or caring about certain symptoms. And maybe for some of these things we never fully questioned it – some have been present our entire life, so they're normal to us – but I think the number of times we actively notice some of these things has decreased since discovering we have DID and coming to accept everything that comes with that.

E.g. there's a question about how often you find yourself in clothes you don't remember putting on. If I think about it, the answer is pretty often. But I have to really think about it, because it's not something I question much. I switch in, and the outfit I get is the outfit I get. I'll change if it really bothers me, but I've already accepted the roulette wheel of our common outfits, so I don't think about whether or not I can recall putting on the specific outfit I'm wearing. I doubt even singlets without memory issues often think about whether or not they can remember getting dressed that morning. It's just not something I notice or question. So, answering "do you find yourself in clothes you don't remember putting on" gets a little difficult! I don't "find myself" in clothes, I'm just wearing clothes, and that's how things are. I'd be much more confused if I "found" myself naked. So, that's something that was already kind of low on our overall attention's priority list, being something that we were used to, and then after learning and accepting why it happens, it dropped further down that list.

Granted, I don't have many memories from before we learned about our DID, but I see it as kind of like running out of milk; most people don't note every time it happens, and identifying how the milk ran out is not the largest concern in their life, they just go buy milk when they need more. Especially since they have a rough idea of "how the milk ran out" – someone must have finished it off. Similarly, we've always had a rough idea of "how I ended up in these clothes" – we must have gotten dressed. Remembering the exact process of getting dressed is not necessary when we have that rough idea, so why bother to record in our brain or journal every time we didn't recall getting dressed? We probably didn't even think to try recalling that! So, I'm not going to go on a Scooby Doo Mystery to figure out why I'm wearing a shirt I don't like (especially since we now have a more specific answer), or bother trying to etch the instance in my brain, I'm just gonna go change and not think anything of it.

There's rarely distress, so there's rarely notice or care. I suppose that indicates good things for our overall health, but if I'm not noticing when something does or doesn't happen, that does skew my answers and thus results somewhat...

[the-indigo-symphony]

I opened Tumblr for some plural solidarity and joy and instead within five minutes found someone bashing a bunch of semi-verbal people for not struggling "enough" with speech to be "really" semi-verbal. What a world.

[the-indigo-symphony]

*math teacher voice* it's actually a triangular prism scheme