→ man in my dreams PT3 bucky b x f!reader
inspired by @demonsandmischief 's story something special ↪link to their story: something special part one Parts to this story ↪one:man in my dreams ↪two:man in my dreams
prompt ↪ after meeting the man in your visions, they change. instead of seeing Bucky you see your younger self. With each vision, each murder and each mission, your powers become uncontrollable as do your emotional and mental state. It seems like the only person who could calm you... was the man in your dreams. "i feel like i'm going insane buck" warnings / other notes ↪mentions of death ↪PTSD ↪delusions, its also confusing but to me I understood it. ↪you might need to keep an eye out for the POV change cause its one of those one, and i dont know if there is alot because i didnt reread this or edit it. ↪ the grey lines are a sign of scenery or pov change if you don't like this pov idc im bored Y/N's POV Why had the visions changed, they were no longer of Bucky or Hydra and Why did it happen in the middle of the night why couldn't it have been in the jet or the car. There I was, I must have been like 13. The stone... it was yellow my hand touched it and it starts getting windy? Why windy. "MUM" the younger girl yells, my mother rushes in "mum" I whisper trying to reach for her, my arm going through her body. "the stone, its weird i feel tired" the younger version say before fainting into my mothers arms. This was a memory I tried to forget, the first time I had seen Bucky, killing people, choking them without mercy. The younger version of me is picked up from my mother carrying her to my room "Paul" my mother said pushing my hair back "PAUL" she yelled again as my father ran in. "She tampered with the stone again" my mother whisper checking my temperature "she shouldn't even be alive in that case, are you sure she did" my father says standing behind my mother staring down at me "she yelled for me paul, she said the stone and then fainted what do you think" my mother turns around disappointed. My father loved me but he didn't like that I wanted to be apart of his job, the fighting and killing, especially at a young age. The teenager sits up alarmed, her eyes yellow as my parents both ran up to her cradling her "hunny?" my father asked but she sat there. In that moment I remembered seeing nothing but Bucky, in the hydra office being tortured, being used and abused. I was able to look and walk around without being heard or seen... this was my first vision.
The first time I had seen anything that wasn't normal. My eyes turned back to normal "y/n, hunny wake up?" my mother says shaking me "mum" I smiled in relief hugging her as my father embraced the both of us.
I sat up looking around, I was in bed. Not in my bed at home, but in my bed in Greece. Standing up and walking over to the door, I could hear Sam and Bucky talking outside my door "you need to see if she's alright" Sam insisted "No, let her rest" Bucky responds and I open the door slowly "she's awake and wondering how long she was out" I say and they both look at me "an hour" Sam says and I nod rubbing my head. "you feeling ok?" Bucky said "yeah uh a headache, but i'm not like dead or anything" I smile to them and they both nod "I'm tired so I'm going to bed" Sam said before walking off "goodnight" I say to him. Which left Bucky and I "what did you see?" he asked "a younger me, something i tried to forget" I say awkwardly and he nods "there's left over pizza downstairs" he says and I smile "come with?" I ask and he nods as we both walk down stairs going over to the marble countertop, sitting down. "are you ok?" he asked and I nod "yeah it's just, I didn't remember touching the mind stone when I was younger, yet i did and somehow ended up here" I mumble opening the pizza box taking out a slice and stuffing it in my mouth. "the mind stone?" he asked taking a slice and taking a bite and I nod with my mouth full, swallowing the food in my mouth I shrug "apparently i was in my parents office playing with the stone, i touched it and then felt tired. Fell asleep and woke up that was the first time I had a vision" I say drifting off into another world. "first vision?" he asked and I nod "I was 13, the first time i saw the winter soldier... not literally of course i mean sort of i don't know" I say it was all confusing "I hope you didn't see you know the killings" he mumbled and I shrug "saw it all, every bit just in a flash" I say and he looks down. "it's ok though because you're Bucky he's gone, dead" I smile and he looks up giving me a half smile "i'm just glad i don't have to touch that stone again" I say and he nods "i'd be glad too" he says with a faint smile. "so that's how you really got it huh" he says "I suppose so" i say sighing checking my phone to look at the time "a late night again" I mumble. Bucky had a certain thing about him, I couldn't describe it but whenever I'm with him I felt fine, calm like all the voices I would randomly hear would disappear. "you ever feel safe when you're with a certain someone?" i ask randomly and he nods "i mean sure there are the odd few, there was steve, obviously sam" he paused "you i suppose" he said and I smile "do you?" he asked and I nod.
"you know when my parents died i felt like everyone was out to get me, hence the whole SHIELD job but when I'm with you I don't feel like that I feel-" "normal, i get that feeling too" he says and I smile again. We continued talking until I started yawning, Bucky suggested that I go to bed because we have a big day tomorrow.
Opening my eyes there I was, back to my younger self in her room except this time I was her. I didn't control her thoughts, words or movement I was just a spectator from her point of view. It was my parents funeral, they both lay in a coffin. Shield had organised their funeral as a private service, this was where I had first met the avengers, Captain America had promised to avenge my parents but I had told him about the man, he was in danger, he didn't know who he was. Tears flowing down my eyes watching my parents being lowered into their grave was the hardest thing in my life, I was only 16 when they died. Director Nick Fury walked over to me "I'll take care of you kid" he said placing a hand on my shoulder, despite his creepy eye patch and his black clothing (which at the time I thought was weird) I had no choice but to go with him. "I have powers" I whisper to him "what was that" he asked "I can see things" I continue "I touched a stone and now I can see things, a man, an old soul" I continue and Nick wraps his arm around my shoulder "come on when we get in the car you can tell me all about it" he smiles. Nick was the only other person my parents said I could trust, to follow him and listen to him. They had also told me not to become an agent but I didn't listen. Nick and I sat in the car as it drove off "I see a man, this one time when my parents had that mind stone I had touched it. Now, I get these visions of a man being tortured and then becoming a killer it's like he's being controlled" I say "do you know his name" Nick asked and I shake my head "hydra is all i could come up with" I whisper. Despite only remembering the man and the word hydra at the time, I was the reason they started the search for Bucky. After a while Nick was able to suppress the visions, he had promised that they would go for a couple years and he stuck by his promise. Yet this time when I had visions I couldn't remember anything except for the blue eyes, thankfully its changed. The car drove off and we arrived at an apartment, the apartment I currently live in "you will live here, I will bring you food and give you a weekly allowance, let me know when you need something" he says handing me a phone "I want to fight" I say. "what?" he asked "I want to be an agent" I say "don't be ridiculous you saw your parents" he said thinking I was stupid "let me do it, i'll be efficient" I say "i'll let you know kid but no promises" he says. He hands me keys and my bag of clothes "come on" he says as we walk into a building "this man knows me, if anything happens and you can't find your phone go to him" he says pointing to Alex and I nod. "You can't have a car yet but when you get your license I will get you one" he continues opening the elevator and I nod, the elevator opens and we walk in waiting for the doors to close and when they finally do.
I open my eyes, looking around to see the sun peaking through the blinds. Wiping the sweat from my forehead I sit up checking my phone going downstairs and grabbing a water. Sam, Zemo and Bucky were all at the dining table discussing something important but I couldnt hear them, I could only hear my younger versions voice repeating one phrase i want to kill over and over again. "y/n?" Sam said and I spin around rapidly almost falling over, I didn't feel fine but I didn't want to say that. "yes uh hi goodmorning" I clear my throat kill them "pft no" I say "huh" Bucky said "oh nothing, nothing" I smile sweetly before walking back upstairs "she seems out of sorts" Zemo says "shut it" Sam mumbles. I open the door to the room and the younger version of myself is standing there "hello?" I ask "you can see me?" she asks, god her voice sounds annoying "how old are you" I ask her "15" she responds "you're me" she points to me and I close the door. "how, I wasn't able to do this" I mumble "illusion" Bucky says opening the door and I turn from Bucky to the spot where the younger me was standing "what? she was- she was right there" I point to the now empty space in the room "y/n... no one is there" he says. "well of course not because she left before you came" I say scratching my head starting to get anxious, "I swear Buck she was right there" I point and he nods not knowing what to say. He obviously didn't believe me, but I didn't need him to believe me. I just needed myself. kill him. kill him. the voice repeated. "stop" I whisper and Bucky looks at me "y/n" he says and the voice disappears "bucky" I say starting to tear up and he grabs me as I collapse crying "what's happening" I ask as he picks me up carrying me to the bed placing me down gently. "i don't know" he says worried "don't go" I sob. He sits on my bed and I place my head on his chest still crying "why am I weird" I say and he shakes his head "it's just out of hand alright but you will control it, i'll help" he says and I nod, wiping away my tears Bucky places his hand on the back of my head stroking my hair gently. "i feel like i'm going insane buck" I mumble sulking "first hydra, then being in hydra then reliving the memories i had forgotten for a good reason" I continue "everything will be okay" he said still stroking my hair. (gif) My visions had never shown me something I didn't want, they only showed me things of use, things that could help me, not hurt me. Was it because I found Bucky? Was I not suppose to warn them... was it all a test. My parents, why could I see them, remember their faces despite not seeing them for years. Why could I remember how I got these powers when I clearly didn't remember before. I continued to crying into Bucky's chest. It was all new to me, with Nick focusing on Peter he had forgotten about me completely and if I were to contact him now I wouldn't even know what to say, how to describe this feeling, even it even counted as a feeling. "I relived their funeral" I say my lip quivering and Bucky's hand stop in one place "Steve, sSteve said he would avenge me but i knew he was your friend so I told him not to. I don't remember that Buck, why dont I remember it, I don't remember their funeral and that was the saddest moment of my life" I say looking up at Bucky who had a sad yet serious expression on his face. I hadn't been able to feel anything after my parent's funeral, because I couldn't remember it no matter how hard I tried it left my mind right after it happened. I had been numb for three years after that and on my 20th birthday I thought I fell in love. It was a miss but it made me feel something. I rest my head on Bucky's chest again as he continues stroking my hair, I focus on his heartbeat, it was beating fast. Eventually it would slow down but after I say something it would go faster, it calmed me down.
Bucky's POV Her heartbeat was fast, she was tired and anxious. I knew I couldn't help her at all but, if all I had to do was reassure her to keep her calm then I'd do it. I'd travel the whole country to find whatever keeps her calm whether it was food or a specific type of shirt that she wanted, I'd go and get it just to not see her in pain. "am i insane?" she asked quietly "no, you're fine, i'm here for you y/n" I whisper stroking her hair gently, her heartbeat remained beating at a fast pace but after a while it slowed down. "I just need to control it" she says "then it will be ok" she whispers and I feel her smile gently against my chest "maybe you should get sleep, think of something other than that" he says. Her file said something about dreaming, if she thought about something happy before going to bed maybe it would lighten the vision and the mood, but I don't know if a ten year old wrote it or if Fury wrote it. "think of a safe space" I say "will you stay with me just until I fall asleep atleast?" she asked and I nod "of course" I smile "you can fall asleep on my lap if its more comfortable" I suggests "I probably will" she says moving down to my lap. She grabbed my metal arm playing with my fingers distracting herself "i'm scared buck what if it happens again" she says and I place my flesh hand on her head "it won't just think happy thoughts" I say "thats cheap" she snickers before closing her eyes still playing with my metal fingers. A few minutes pass of me looking at her whilst she plays with my metal fingers but eventually she stops and then faint snores follow shortly after. I gently move her over my lap replacing my lap with a pillow, she didn't move instead she started smiling. I wonder what she was dreaming about. Gently opening and closing the door I walk downstairs and see Zemo and Sam smirking "don't turn trauma into a relationship moment" I say sitting at the table "we weren't" Zemo said "you were both thinking it" I roll my eyes. "she's got stuff going on, the powers are getting out of her control so whilst doing the mission we help her" I say leaning back on the chair "or what, are you going to kill us" Zemo said "she's so young, if anything happens to her or Sam I will kill you myself" I mutter to Zemo who chuckles lightly. After a while of discussing Zemo gets up and leaves randomly "where do you think you're going" Sam said "To my room, all this talking is too much I'm having a nap" Zemo said before disappearing leaving just me and Sam. "the girl, whats so special about her" Sam said putting down the files he was reading and I shrug, I just feel attracted to her, safe with her. In the two days I've known her she's comforted me more than anyone I've known. "well I was young when I thought I died, I don't want her to you know become the next hydra project" I say and Sam nods "there's something more, you catch her when shes falls, you're constantly asking about how she's feeling" he says leaning back in his chair and I shrug. "nothing special" I say "just can't help but feel bad" I continue telling the truth. I was only 27 when I was turned into a killing machine, she's only 24 and Hydra knows who she is. There's no explaining what can happen. "so you don't feel an attraction, i mean sure she is really good looking" Sam says grinning, I see whats going on... he's trying to make me jealous. Although I say it won't work it usually does that's probably why he's doing it. "I'd love to take her out you know, I was just making sure you didn't want her because that would b-" "knock it off sam the poor girl is in pain and you're thinking of taking her out" I cut him off angrily. "you guys" she said groggily as I turn around "oh hey, how are you feeling?" I ask gently, she had been asleep for an hour or two but she looked better than she did before. "yeah i feel way better" she mumbles "lets change that wrap on your arm hm?" I ask her and she nods going the the kitchen finding the first aid kit "my point stands" Sam smirks and I roll my eyes. "What did you dream about?" Sam asked
her "Just normal stuff I guess, like a real normal dream" she said opening and shutting cabinets rummaging through stuff, she eventually found it bringing it to me lifting up her sleeve. Her gauze hadn't been changed since yesterday so it was probably infected, revealing the gauze it looked fine, no infections just good old blood. "normal stuff?" I ask wiping it down "yeah i mean like my imagination took control of it not the stupid stone" she said happily, her mood had certainly changed from a few hours ago but I was thankful that she was ok. Apply the antibiotic ointment once more before rolling the gauze around her arm again "there we go" I smile packing the first aid kit "thanks Buck" she smiled gently, I felt like a little kid falling in love for the first time. She stood up putting the first aid kit away "any news on hydra and where is creepy german guy" she asked going into the fridge and I look to Sam "one he's sokovian and two there's no news" he said and I nod and she spins around pulling something out of her pocket. A piece of paper. "Ok I lied" she said and Sam shoots me a look "it was half normal" she mumbles before coming over to sit down again. "The first half was normal the second half was... normal too i guess but I thought of Hydra and went there" she says handing Sam the piece of paper. "Its about you" Sam said looking at her "exactly" she says as Sam hands me the paper. Y/N Y/L/N Age: 24 Location: New York, America Phone Number: x-xxx-xxx-xxxx Special Abilities: Mind Stone Mission: Find her, capture her turn her into the next winter soldier. I look up at the both of them, y/n crossing her arms and I place the paper on the table "i'm toast" she mumbles staring off into the distance "no you're not" I say placing my hand on her back rubbing it and she looks at me with a smile. "As much as I hate to agree with the man, I can't let them get you" Sam said "see i knew you'd come around" I whisper to him still rubbing her back. I remove my hand and she smiles at me "they're here" she says abruptly looking at me and sam "what?" I ask "someone's walking down the driveway coming for the door" she says and Sam stands up opening the door. Something gets thrown and I grabs y/n and run upstairs placing her in the room "stay here" I whisper "no-" "y/n i don't want you dead stay here, if someone comes in use your knives and guns" I say and she nods. I run downstairs taking off my glove and see John Walker and his best man walking in to the house "oh its just you" I roll my eyes letting out a loud sigh "y/n you can come out its just the frauds" I yell and y/n pokes her head out. "just the woman we want to see, hi hunny" John smirked waving at y/n from the door, she rolls her eyes "i'm not your hunny, i help you out one time" she huffs walking down the stairs. She walks over like a model slapping John and I laugh quietly and she crosses her arms "oh come on beautiful we need your help" he says adjusting his jaw "she wont help you" Sam says "damn right I wont" she says and I watch her movements. Standing infront of John like a goddess, crossing her arms in disappointment before turning and standing next to me. "well it's help us or help hydra" John says, the world barely slipping through the cracks of his lips before y/n grabs the closest object next to her throwing it at John hitting his chest as it lands on the floor breaking into pieces. "you guys know each other?" I ask "yes we are very well acquainted" she says I could sense her anger, rising slowly. "acquainted huh" I lick the inside of my cheek "if he doesn't watch it he will be heavily acquainted with my fist and not the human one" I whisper in y/n's ear "that would be great" she sighed. "look if we found you, hydra can find you" John says and his sidekick agreeing like a little boy "where is little hydra boy you broke out" his sidekick asks "right here" Zemo says from up the stairs waving in a creepy way. "i see i was removed from your folder sweetie" John says "stop it with the nicknames" Sam says sticking up for y/n "well you have her
and we need her" the sidekick says chipping in. "you got in based on luck, say another word ill put my lucky knee and join it with your head" I say giving him a serious look "does he always stare like that?" John asks "you get used to it" Sam says "you really do" y/n agrees. "you two seem acquainted, why are you both so close y/n?" John says continuing to question her "look man, she doesn't want you here, leave or it gets messy" Sam says stepping up "fine" John says backing up. "but we will see you around" he chuckles walking towards y/n giving her a kiss on the cheek, I grab his throat "leave" I say pushing him back letting go of his throat as he smirks and leaves. He's lucky I didn't squeeze harder.
