#self-consiousness

[witchwitchglam]

Never, ever externalize your self-consciousness! It will take your energy away and transforms it into a toxic one, which comes back again and destroys you completely.

[highladyluck]

Story Pairing: 3 Stories about Self-Consciousness

Ok, going to try a new thing! I love short science fiction and I've been reading it for at least half my life. I also love grouping stories together by theme or topic or feel. And I like recommending things! So I'm going to start doing periodic 'story pairing' posts where I tell you about some stories and why you should read them with each other. First up is a trio of stories that are making me think about the experience of self-consciousness (being aware of oneself). Touring with the Alien, by Carolyn Ives Gilman (http://clarkesworldmagazine.com/gilman_04_16/) is plot-wise what it says on the tin- but it gave me a lot to think about with regard to self-consciousness and the pros and cons thereof. It explores some of the same themes as Second Person, Present Tense by Daryl Gregory (https://www.baen.com/Chapters/9781618248992/9781618248992___2.htm) but from the opposite perspective. I read SP,PT first and found myself thinking of it when I read TwtA- it's a good grounding in the difference between your subconscious and conscious selves and also an amazing story about being yourself when everyone sees you as someone else. Finally, some of the scientific exposition in SP,PT reminded me of What's Expected of Us by Ted Chiang (http://www.nature.com/nature/journal/v436/n7047/full/436150a.html?foxtrotcallback=true) which is kind of like a fast punch to the face, in the best way. I hadn't connected WEofU to the experience of self-consciousness before, but I think it adds a cool extra layer. Content warnings: disassociation (more in SP,PT but arguably in the other two) and in SP,PT a mention of sexual harrassment, a mention of bulimia, past drug use, and ongoing not-being-the-person-your-guardians-see-you-as (there has to be a shorter word for this!)

[darlingmartyr]

An ass riding an ass... I’ve had a bad semester.

[lindalibelula]

Españolización

One thing I've realized about speaking a foreign language is that, though in some ways I feel limited in what I can express, in other ways I also feel liberated. For some reason, I feel like I can be more open, be more me when I speak Spanish. Strangely, when I speak spanish I feel distanced from myself, in a good way. Less self conscious/worried about what people will think of what I say. Maybe it's because I'm using excess mental energy to construct gramatically correct sentences instead of being self conscious? In any case, being able to speak another language feels like its opened a whole new side to who I am. A new way to express myself, and it's wonderful. It affirms that one of my most important life quests is self-expression. And speaking Spanish just adds one more color to the palette. 

This is just one of the many reasons I love teaching Spanish. Helping other people learn to express themselves in a new way is such a wonderful, beautiful and meaningful challenge. I feel so honored to be a part of my students' journeys, whatever they may be. If any of you have toyed with the idea of brushing up on your Spanish, know that I would be happy to help you. Check me out on Takelessons.com:

http://takelessons.com/profile/christy-v1

[thegelicopter]

The Life of An Awkward Teenager...

One of the best feelings is being called pretty. Especially if it's from someone you don't know. Like, I rarely get compliments and I don't think people realize that one compliment can just make someone like me feel betrer about themselves. Moral of the story: give more (genuine) compliments. Do it for people like me..

[alwaysadreamer26]

So I'm doing something different, modeling at school so bleh let the self-consciousness begin

[jenemmalawson]

So what if I am not tall and skinny enough to be a model ? So what if my hair isn’t silky enough to be a model ? So what if my skin is not smooth enough to be a model ? So what if my lashes are not long enough to be a model ? I don’t care BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO BE A MODEL.

[thechordsareintherain]

Self-Conciousness and Judgement

I feel like i've always been the type of person who would say "well fuck what everyone else thinks", and never actually follow my own advice. I could think that all i want, and even start to believe it, but then a situation arises where i fear so much for the judment of others that i miss out or don't just live my life with that motto. As much as i would like to, i don't. So now i sit here in a situation i know i will surely be judged for, but a situation nonetheless that will make me happy. i just wish those on the panel could see that i'm not being naive or foolish, i'm just doing what what will make me happy (which personally i think is more important in some aspects). If it comes to it, let me learn from my own mistakes, and not yours.

Thank you, and goodnight.