Ego Killer; Playboy Reeler (Revised)
Listening to Lucky Daye Misunderstood
Sometimes growing curious as to what pain
Occurred in your childhood
You make out that you’re so strong, too strong
But sometimes cry in silence
Because there is a fear of being vulnerable.
It’s not my place to call out the root cause for you
Because it is your path to explore the feelings of your own truth.
Just note that we’re all ascending,
Coming into a heightened age.
Still built up emotions pending
Coming out of this retrograde.
Life is a continuous healing,
Because in life you have to live
And living requires growth
Exploring root causes of pain that hurt you the most.
Embracing the joys, triumphs
Once we tackle the inner work.
You have no obligations to make sense to me
But it wasn’t something I couldn’t already see.
That’s why I never understood why you hid things from me.
You’re not the most affective communicator
Because you don’t feel, you THINK.
You don’t surrender, you control
In love, when it feels good,
You don’t know how to let go.
Meaning you don’t know how to receive.
And I get it, that was also me.
You dislike communicative confrontation
So you take offense of the entire situation
Bottling everything in like “woe is me”.
So much for certain addictions
Sex, drinking, and or LSD.
And you knew I could mind read
Due to my gift of empathy,
My soul is just way too tired to wait on you.
Life is just way to short to play player boo
The game is old, but the gamers are advanced or new.
You were a moderation of the two
Nothing I ain’t seen before
Just sent to challenge you to choose your heart
Or continue the cycle as you’ve done before.
You’re quite a stubborn soul.
Choosing girls who like you more
And stunting your own growth.
Wanting your ego to be stroked
Afraid to loose all self control
In the end you suffer most
Because a connection is intended to be mutual,
I ain’t saying this to taunt you
Or expose the secrets of your heart
There are still things you kept from me
Secrets I still hold for you
Though you tried to play me
Like I was the fool solely chasing you,
But all the way to California dude?
I didn’t even want to go.
I went because Rahjuice asked me to.
We weren’t a “situationship”
We had a whole relationship.
Chose to keep it private.
You may draw a blank after what you said
But I’m not here to prove shit.
I just can’t stand liars.
I did the same dumb shit you did
Knowing my heart was with someone else
And couldn’t fully give to him,
Plus, I had a low tolerance for childishness.
Despite me and my situation,
This time now, has always been about you
And aiding your convalescence.
It’s been about shedding light on your truth.
Is how you’ve been truly serving you?
These are just examples to assist you.
How can you ever attract the best from your situations
If no one knows the real you?
Life is about living free in one’s own truth,
Not going about it as if life’s one big interview
Because the REAL ONES can see through you.
I’m not here to preach or lesson.
Hope you’re truly progressing
Expounding on where you’re stagnant
Shedding light on your darkness
To aim exactly at your targets.
I pray you know despite all the bs
You just have to feel it.
From feeling your true love lives only in your fantasies.
They can also be in your reality.
Know that heaven is also here on Earth.
And you do have a safe space.
