Summary : You are Jace's little sister. You recently moved to the institute following your perfect record in Idris. Izzy is ecstatic to have you back, but Alec gives you the cold shoulder.
Warning : Possible inappropriate language, alcohol misuse and violence.
Pairing : Alec Lightwood x Reader
Word Count : 2,687
“So he just left you?” You finally decided to talk to someone, and since Simon finally got the balls and broke up with Clary, you both realised that you needed each other. “No explanation?”
I shook my head and walked to the kettle. “Cuppa?” He shook his head taking out a hit flask. You knew what the contents were, considering what he was. “He said something about how things have changed, that people have changed and then he left.”
“I don't get it why would he do -” Before Simon could finish he clocked onto Alec walking towards the kitchen where you both were sat.
You were unaware as he was stood behind you, and Simon tried to tell you discretely but you were unaware of every attempt that he made.
“No idea. We used to be so close Si, but now. Now it's like he has had a mind transplant and forgotten about everything..” You went quiet as you continued “..forgotten about me.”
It was almost as if you had a severe case of word vomit. You just couldn't stop talking no matter how many times Simon tried to make you stop. “He promised we would always be together Si, but he wont give me the time of day.” You let out a sigh, “I miss him, I really miss him.”
Alec's smug smile had faded, he actually looked upset at your confession. Raising a finger to his lips, he gestured to Simon to keep quiet and walked back out of the room. Alec thought it would be better if you didn't know that he had heard everything you said.
“Y/N, I think that we need to go out.”
Your mouth dropped open to what he just said. “Si, you're a nice guy and everything but I need you as a friend, not -”
“Let me stop you right there.” He walked to sit by the side of you at the breakfast bar. “Night out, drinks, a night in pandemonium?”
You smiled. Getting drunk with your best mate was exactly what you both needed.
“Come by my room at 7.” You screeched to Simon who was grinning as you got extremely excited. Lifting up from your spot in the kitchen and running towards your room, bumping into Jace on the way.
“Y/N calm down!” He said in between laughs. “What's the hurry? What or should I say 'who' has made you the happiest I have seen in weeks?”
“Simon.” Jace rolled his eyes at the mere mention of his name.
He had to put up with Simon when Clary was going out with him. But now his little sister was always with him, it is like he could get 5 minutes without his presence, whether that be verbal or physical.
“We are going out tonight to Pandemonium. Gonna let my hair down so don't wait up!” You called not stopping.
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It was almost 7 and you had sorted out what you were going to wear. Laying it on the bed perfectly as you sorted out your hair and make-up.
Simon knew you left things to last minute so he thought it would be best to meet you in the social room in the institute.
Standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, you were finishing up with your hair. You had decided to curl your hair today, something that you haven't done in a long time. You had always felt more confident when your hair was curled. Taking the last strand, you pulled it around the tongs when you heard a knock at the door.
“Si? I am not ready yet. Give me a few minutes.” You called from the bathroom, untangling the last strand from the iron.
You walked over to your clothes staring at the carpet, “Jesus fucking Christ!” You screamed when you saw Alec, or more so clocking onto his feet as he sat on your bed. “What the fuck are you doing in here?”
“Jace told me you were acting 'odd,' and he also told me that you were going out with Simon tonight.” He paused scanning your body. It only just occurred to you that you were only in your underwear.
“Alec can you pass me my dress, please?” But he didn't move to get it, he was still staring at your body, almost in a trance. “Fine I'll get it myself.” You mumbled.
You had to lean over Alec to grab your dress, giving him an eyeful of your cleavage, just a mere centimeters from his face. This made him blush which somewhat satisfied you that you made him slightly uncomfortable.
You went into the bathroom and threw it on, sorting out your hair from where you had moved it when you had thrown it on. “Why do you care what I do in my spare time?” You called into your room.
“I just don't think that it is a good idea for you to go out tonight.”
“Why do you even care, Alec? You have barely even looked at me since I got back. Why would you care if I went out or not?” You went back into the room and grabbed your bag from the desk.
He stood up and followed you out of the room. “Y/N, I do care, I -”
You cut him off, turning around quickly to face him. “No Alec you don't. You haven't cared since the day I moved to Idris 5 years ago.” A tear came to your eye but you batted it away. “But I guess that is what I expected. I'm nothing more than a 'bitch' and a 'traitor.' Isn't that right?” His face fell to the floor, remembering the names that he called you the day you left.
“Y/N? I -”
“No Alec. Just don't.” With that you walked away, leaving him behind once again.
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The day you left was hard. You didn't want to leave, you had to leave.
There was a rumour that surfaced claiming that if Valentine found you, that he would use you to ignite the Soul-Sword, meaning the end of all Downworlders.
It was a risk that Maryse, your step mom / adoptive mom, was not willing to take.
Well at least this was what she had told you. She was close with all her children, but she never accepted you as much as she did Jace. She never connected with you, but Jace was always at her side. While you were always with Robert or Alec.
You were always too close to Alec and it unsettled Maryse. She didn't like rumours. They ruin reputations, and the Lightwood's were considered royalty in the Shadow World. The minute she saw how close you had gotten to her son, your adoptive brother, she felt conscious of what people would say.
She wouldn't be able to deal with the Clave thinking that she allowed her son and adoptive daughter to shack up under the same roof.
Her only option was for her to send you away to Idris where you could learn to fight and protect yourself, but still stop you from being close to her son. To her, image was everything.
You and Alec never knew the real reason why she did what she did. The only person who knew was Jace. He promised Maryse that he would never tell you or Alec. Especially after Alec found out you were moving and tried to come with you. Not being able to bare the idea of you leaving without him.
Everyone had gathered in the hall, saying their goodbyes to you as you were ready to leave the institute, a week after you were told you had to go. You were only 16 when you had to leave, but Maryse told you that she would do everything in her power to stop Valentine from getting to you.
“Goodbye Izzy.” You were crying as you said goodbye to your best friend. “I will miss you so much.”
You made your way over to Alec who was close to tears himself. You didn't know what Maryse had told him to get him to stop begging her for him to go with you. “Just go!” He said through the tears, “you're a traitor, and a-a-a bitch.” He ran off leaving you behind. You could hear his choked sobs through the loud chattering in the room.
Jace pulled you into his arms. “He didn't mean that. He is just hurt. You were his best friend, forever and always.
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“So let me get this straight..” Simon screamed over the music at the bar, “he saw you in your undies?”
He was bursting out in laughter, finding himself to be the funniest vampire on the planet. Noticing that you were not finding him amusing he stopped. “Okay Okay, on a serious note, what happened?”
“I told you, I walked in. He was there, and he spat some shit about me going out tonight.” You were counting each point you made on your fingers. “I don't get it Si, ignore me, resent me and now try to act all protective the minute I say – well not even I say, Jace told him, that I am going out.”
“I call bullshit!” He yelled passing you your 5th shot. “There is something going on with him.”
“You got that right!” You wiped the bit of shot that dribbled down your chin. “Anyway what is going on with you and Maia?”
“What do you mean him and Maia?” You recognised the voice instantly, “Hey Y/N, thanks for the invite.”
Maia patted your shoulder, not much of a hugger either. “Speaking of the devil.” You laughed, “Shot?”
She shook her head, “Actually, I was thinking more of going out there and showing all these Downworlders what real dancing looks like.”
You and Maia were not the closest but whenever you got together you had to admit that you had a good time. If it wasn't Simon leading you astray then it would be Maia. “Then what are we still doing up here. Ma lady.” You held your hand out for her and she took it.
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You had been dancing with Maia and Simon for about half an hour non stop and started to feel a little light headed. “I'm just gonna go get some water!” You yelled over the music, “want anything?”
They both shook their heads so you took the opportunity to run to the bar. Grabbing the water that you had asked for. You went to turn away after paying the bartender. But you were shoved up against the bar knocking the drink that not only you were holding, but the person's drink who had bumped into you.
“For fucks sake!” You cried under your breath. Not wanting to make a big scene but still clearly annoyed at the inconvenience.
“Fuck you say!” The girl screamed in your face, as you tried to ignore her. Drunks were never people you tried to mess with. “What are you deaf as well as blind? I said what the fuck did you just say?”
Trying to avoid any further problems, you moved away from the girl only to have her push you down onto the sticky floor. “Bitch I asked you a fucking question!”
You cried out in pain, even though you were familiar with it. Being a Shadowhunter came with a few painful bruises.
“I'll buy you another drink, you haven't even got a drop on you.” You say trying to pry yourself up from the floor.
That was when she slapped you right across the face, “You think you are so special with those runes, don't cha.”
“You tell her babe.” A male voice cheered from behind her. Clearly amused and probably turned on by the violence his girlfriend was displaying onto another person.
“I d-” You was interrupted by yet another slap on the other side of your face.
“Y/N!” Maia and Simon called when they saw the scene. You looked over at them and tried to walk towards them but you got pushed back down to the floor. The girl on top of you smacking you about. Although you were capable of beating the shit out of her, but you didn't want to, she was drunk.
“Get off of her!” You recognised the voice, as well as the feel of those hands on your waist. Those hands brought back the memory of him in the training room 7 years ago. Alec helped you up from the ground. His eyes scanned all over you to see if you were seriously injured. “Y/N are you okay?”
“I'm fine Alec, I just want to go home.” Simon and Maia were now by your side. “Si, can you take me home please?”
He looked at Maia and had an apologetic expression on his face. “I'm sorry Y/N, but Maia and I were going to go and watch a film at my place.” He raised his eyebrows several times, allowing you to understand that he liked her. You could have insisted but you didn't want to get in the way of someone else's happiness. Just because you were miserable, didn't mean he had to be.
“It's fine you guys have fun. I'll ring Izzy or Jace.” You got out your phone and started dialling the number but Alec took the phone out of your hand. “Hey!”
“I'll take you home, it will be a lot faster if you stop arguing and refusing.”
“No you wont.” All of a sudden the room turned upside down as you were thrown over Alec's shoulder. “Alec put me down.” You cried, hitting his back like a small child refusing to do as they were told.
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“Alec put me down now!” You had been over his shoulder almost the entire time it took to walk back to the institute. He sighed and placed you down onto your feet. “What is going on.”
His eyes fell onto the scratches on your cheeks from where the girls false nails had caught your skin. Alec found himself reaching out towards them only to have his hand swatted away by you. His face immediately fell to the floor.
“Y/N I didn't mean what I said.” He lifted his head to look at you. “T-the day that you l-left.” He stuttered while he was talking, choking on his tears. “I-I was hurt that you were leaving me behind. You promised we would always stick together.”
“I had to leave I didn't want to.”
“ Mom told me that you didn't want me to come with you. She said that you couldn't stand the idea of being stuck in Idris with me. That you n-needed space,” he paused letting his face fall once again, “space from me.”
“Maryse said what?” You yelled causing the people walking passed you to turn around and give a questioning look. “She told me I had to leave because Valentine was going to use me to destroy the Downworlders. I didn't want to go, why could you think I would want to leave you.”
His mouth fell open at the new revelation. “So you did want me to come with you? You didn't want to leave cause of me?”
You shook your head, “Of course not Alec, you were my best friend.” A tear fell from your eyes. He reached out to wipe it away but you beat him to it. “I was alone Alec, I wanted my friend. I asked you to visit, but you never came.”
You took that as you opportunity to leave. Walking back to the institute on your own.
Summary : You are Jace's little sister. You recently moved to the institute following your perfect record in Idris. Izzy is ecstatic to have you back, but Alec gives you the cold shoulder.
Warning : Possible inappropriate language
Pairing : Alec Lightwood x Reader
Word Count : 2,431
“You don't have to baby me Jace!” You say slapping his hand away for the fourth time since he picked you up from Idris. “I can carry my own bags. I do not need my big brother to do everything for me.”
Jace sighed as he considered taking it from you anyway. He only stopped himself when he caught you rolling your eyes at him. “Y/N, I am just trying to be nice.” Jace stepped in front of you cutting you off. Rolling your eyes a second time, “Come on! I haven't seen my little sister in ages and I just wanna look out for my little girl.”
His hand raised to your head as he ruffled up your once neat parting. Setting your whole look off balanced, and basically giving you the appearance of a girl who had been dragged through a thorn bush backwards.
But even though Jace was doing everything that he could to annoy you, you knew that he came from a good place. You hate to admit it but you missed him too. Not only him but you also missed your best friend Isabelle.
Izzy would come and visit you whenever she had to go to Idris to see her family. Giving you the low down on everything that had gone on from missions to just general gossip. You almost laughed when Izzy had told you that Jace was deadly jealous of Simon who so happened to be a vampire. All of this because of a girl called Clary.
Jace had shown you a picture of her and you had to admit that you could see why he was smitten, she was absolutely gorgeous with a capital G. You actually felt sorry for Jace because you knew what it was like to have a crush on someone that you knew you could not have.
“Well hello there stranger!” Within seconds of walking through the doors you found yourself crashing to the floor sending one of your bags that you were carrying to fall right onto Jace's foot.
Izzy apologized as she stood up, helping you to your feet as she was at it. You smoothed down your already messy hair do and stared at her confused. “Do I know you?”
Izzy's smile instantly faded. A look of pure horror crashed onto her face as she considered the thought of her best friend not remembering who she was. That was when you burst out laughing, causing the corners of Izzy's mouth to lift into a weak smile. “You are not allowed to do that. You had me worried!”
She slapped your arm and slowly her smile increased to a full belly laugh. “I'm sorry Izzy you are just too easy. Come here!” Both of you hugged each other tight after being apart for so long.
You scanned the rest of the room, spotting people that you could faintly remember as well as those that you considered family. There were some that you just couldn't put their face to a name, obviously new.
But there was one person that you could see through the crowd, walking in the opposite direction, and fading into the distance. You could remember that dark wild hair anywhere.
Alec.
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A week has passed and you had developed new relationships with the other Shadowhunters. Clary was an alright chick. Although you did find it hard to like her because of her behaviour with Jace.
Jace had told you that things were odd between them. They were close but awkwardly close. She was still with Simon who is now a close friend of yours. Both of you spent a whole night talking about Star Wars and Lord of the Rings. Comparing theories and reciting scenes together. Simon was just the nerdy friend that you were lacking while you were away in Idris.
Jace was always thankful that he was able to pry Clary away from Simon while he was distracted by you. He even joked about you and Simon becoming the new power couple because of how similar you both were.
Every time he would say this you would smack him in the back of the head and tell him to get his mind out of the gutter. Just because he wanted to drive a wedge between the two, allowing him to swoop in and comfort Clary, doesn't mean he can exploit his sister.
Simon and you were talking in the training room after spending some time sparring.
When Clary and you got closer, she asked you whether you would mind helping to train Simon, knowing that you were one of the best in the institute. But also aware that not many of the other Shadowhunters were willing enough to work with a Vampire.
“So what is it with you and Jace?” you asked as you through him a bottle of water from the table. With his fast reflexes he was able to retrieve the bottle before it made an impact onto his head. “Nice.”
“What do you mean Y/N?” His head tilted to the side the way that a dog would. You had to admit, it always made you smile when he did that and he knew. “Jace is Jace and I am just me.” You snorted a little at his response making him hold his hands up and change his answer, “fine, you got me. Very wise you are. No wonder we get along.” He scratched at the back of his head while searching for the right thing to say. “Well Clary and Jace have always been close and had that tension...”
“Tension?” Your eyebrows furrowed.
“Yeah sexual tension.” He stood up and approached you. You were leaning against the table that was at the far side of the room, watching him as he talked and advanced towards you. “So basically they want each other. But not as partners or friends, but more.” Using his fingers to air quote the word 'want.'
Your hand lifted to the top of his arm as you looked deep into your friends hurt eyes. “Simon, if you know all of this. Why do you stay with Clary?”
He moved away, turning his back to you as he brought a hand to his head. “It's not that simple Y/N.” He paused, “I love her. I have loved her since I was old enough to know what love is. Maybe even before that. So you see, I cant let Jace get in the way. If I want this to work, then I have to make it work.”
Before you could stop yourself you pulled him into a hug. You weren't quite his height so your head was flat against his chest. After a few seconds, his chin rested on the top of your head, wrapping his own arms around you.
You weren't the type of person who would show weakness like this. Where you would show that you cared as much as you did, especially when your line of work is as dangerous as it was.
There were only a select few that you would allow yourself to be yourself around. To truly care about. It was hard for you to let new people in, but Simon would be an exception. You just couldn't stand seeing him this hurt.
Especially because you knew far too well how it felt.
Your hug as well as your thoughts were interrupted by a loud cough. Pulling away startled, you looked to your right and noticed Alec with his arms crossed staring at you disapprovingly.
You had not seen Alec since the day you had got back. Even then all you saw was him look over his shoulder as he walked away, locking eyes with you for what felt like an eternity, but in actual fact it was a split second.
“If you're done 'hugging.' Some of us need to train.” With that he moved over to start the simulator, bow at the ready. This was your queue to leave.
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Another week had passed since the training room drama. The person who said that time heals all wounds, was the most brain dead person on the planet.
You couldn't help but feel like shit the past week. Thinking about how Alec and you had been so close for years. But the minute you were back he saw you as nothing more than the Downworlders that he used to despise.
You had no one that you could talk to about this. Jace was his best friend, nothing good would come from telling your brother that his best friend was ignoring his sister. You knew Jace all too well. Hearing something like this would make him want to confront Alec, regardless of who overheard or got hurt in the meantime.
Izzy was Izzy, she was all for the romance. But something told you that her innuendo and sexual nature would not stretch to her own brother. She was great to talk to about relationships, but probably not this particular one.
You couldn't even consider telling Simon any of this. Not now that he has his own shit to deal with.
Why wasn't life fucking simple.
You were sat in the large communal kitchen, stirring your spoon around in your already soggy cereal. You were never fond of cereal once it had gone past that 'too' wet point, slipping into the mushy. Your mind on other things, causing your cereal to become gross and putting you off eating it. For it to only become something for you to play with.
“You know mum hated it when you did that!” Jace walked in, obviously meaning Maryse your adopted mother since your real parents perished. Having Maryse as your mother made things a hell of a lot harder for you. “What's on your mind little one? You only play with your food when your mind is somewhere else.”
“It's nothing Jace.” You pick up your bowl, only to have it snatched back. “Jace!”
“What?” He said with a mouthful of soggy cereal, “no point in letting good food go to waste.”
You scoffed and walked out of the room, leaving Jace behind with the rest of your breakfast. Looking at the rota, you knew that in ten minutes it would be your slot in the training room. Running back to your room so that you could change from your pjs into your training gear.
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Half an hour later you were in the middle of training. Hair plastered to your sweaty face, unattractive and an inconvenience.
There were not many people who could use a bow apart from you and Alec.
When you were younger, you and Alec would practice together in the simulator. Having each others back. If it wasn't for him being closer to Jace, it is possible that you and him would have become parabati.
Alec always laughed when you would miss the target. But not in a mean way to make you feel like shit. But in a way that would push you to try better, to work harder for his approval.
While you were shooting the targets after your extensive sparring battle with the fight simulator. Your mind went back to the memories of you two..
**
Alec was shooting at the archery targets that you had both set up in the training room. Each arrow flew and hit the target dead in the centre perfectly.
He would laugh every time that he managed to land a perfect arrow on the target. While you fumbled trying to get the arrow to reach the board. “Another point for me! Any one would think you're distracted.”
Your head fell to the floor to look at your toes. “Don't be stupid Alec! You're just not playing fair.”
“How am I not playing fair?” He snapped turning around to look you dead in the eye. You were 14 at the time, Alec was 16.
“Because you put me under too much pressure to be like you. I am not you.” You walked over to grab an arrow from the table. Lined up the target with your eye but hesitated.
While you were trying to focus on the target, your were interrupted as you felt hands ever so gently placed on your waist holding you steady. “Y/N focus. You shake when you are trying to focus. Focus on not shaking more than hitting the target. Breath and let go.”
His head was right next to your ear whispering to you. You could feel his warm breath on your neck. It was hard to focus when you knees felt that wobbly. You let out a sharp breath and the arrow flew landing right next to Alec's in the board.
You could feel him smile without having to look at him. “The student has become the master.” You spun around with a big grin on your face. His hands fell from your waist and held onto your hands. “I knew you could do it. But I cant stand behind you every time we are in battle mind.”
You laughed and fell into his chest. “Thank you Alec. You make me a better me. I hope I always have you around to keep me safe.”
“We will always stick together. You and me, that's the truth. Forever and always.”
“Forever and always!” You repeated as you nuzzled into his chest.
**
“Are you gonna shoot, or what?” It was Alec who shook you out of your daydream about Alec. You released the arrow and sure enough you missed the target. You hadn't missed that bad since you were younger. “I am gonna go with or what” Alec snickered and walked out of the room.
“What is your problem Alec?” You yell. Your eyes were glued to the doorway where he was just stood.
All of a sudden he reappeared, arms crossed in his usual stance. “I have no idea what you are on about. But clearly you have forgotten everything that I taught you.”
“Shut it Alec.” You turned back to the target quickly and shot an arrow landing right in the centre of the board. “I know what I am doing.”
He turned and tried to walk away for a second time, but you weren't done. “You have been avoiding me since I got back. Why?”
“Just drop it. Things have changed,” he paused, “people have changed. So just drop it.” By the time he finished what he was saying he was back through the door. Leaving you alone, again.
