I've been on an obsessive Shae'zel (IDK if that's the ship name I just like saying it) kick lately. I did a Shadowheart playthrough just to romance Lae'zel only to finish it and IMMEDIATELY start a Lae'zel playthrough to kiss Shadowheart so this is just who I am rn
Shadowheart wishes that she could control her dreams. If she were able to Lae'zel would certainly feature in none of them—except maybe in those where Shadowheart gets to kick her ass. Sadly those dreams never seem to visit her in her sleep. Instead Shadowheart finds herself betrayed by her own subconscious as it keeps dragging the memory of Lae'zel kissing her to the surface.
That forked tongue in her mouth shouldn't make her feel as excited as it does and it definitely shouldn't keep invading her sleep—Lae'zel pressed up against her, her long tongue in Shadowheart's mouth, licking the side of her throat, wandering lower.
If anyone told her at the beginning of this insane journey that she would have wet dreams about Lae'zel she would have laughed and left. Now she finds herself with soaked underwear in the morning and a burning anger and shame in her guts whenever it happens.
The bandage around her palm is still there and Shadowheart should probably have ripped it off by now. Instead her fingers keep touching it, pressing against the rough fabric, feeling the seams of the wrapping that has gotten more skillful over the past few days since Shadowheart started teaching Lae'zel first aid—or, how Lae'zel keeps referring to it: Patchwork.
Shadowheart can tell that the others are eyeing this new development between the two of them wide-eyed (Gale), disbelieving (Wyll) and amused (Karlach). Teaching a githyanki warrior about medicine and how to close a wound instead of cutting into it deeper is a surreal experience. But Lae'zel seems determined so Shadowheart refuses to be left behind.
In the next dream Lae'zel is on top of her completely naked, pinning her to the ground with a knife against Shadowheart's throat. There's something to be said about the state of her mind and specifically her subconscious that this is something that gets her going. But right now everything is hazy and hot and there's that forked tongue right next to the knife's edge and—
When she wakes up the knife is still there and so is Lae'zel—although in the real version of it all there is no tongue at her throat and Lae'zel is fully dressed.
Lae'zel sneers down at her.
"You've been feverish and making pained sounds in your sleep. If you're turning into a ghaik I'll give you a quick death", Lae'zel hisses and the blade presses against Shadowheart's skin like a promise. Despite the seriousness of the situation she almost has to laugh. Maybe there should be fear lingering underneath all of it, but all Shadowheart can really focus is on the cold steel on her skin, the weight on top of her and the heat between her legs.
Great.
"I'm not turning into anything, you absolute lunatic", she hisses back, heat rising into her cheeks as she tries to struggle against the iron clad grip of Lae'zel's hand.
"There is sweat on your brow", Lae'zel prompts. Shadowheart thinks that Lae'zel must be the stupidest person she's ever met.
"So what? You never sweat in your sleep? Are gith above sweating now?"
She could swear that Lae'zel is inhaling. Shadowheart thinks that maybe she has to ask Karlach to hit her really hard with a hammer so she can stop being insane about damned Lae'zel.
"Then what of the noises?", Lae'zel asks and she leans even further down as if she's trying to find a Mindflayer staring back at her from the depths of Shadowheart's eyes. Shadowheart is mortified enough about having been found out while having a wet dream about Lae'zel of all people, but the fact that Lae'zel makes into so big a thing is really starting to annoy her. Why can't Lae'zel mind her own damn business?
"My noises are none of your concern", Shadowheart presses and struggles again. Lae'zel's pupils widen.
"They are when you keep me from sleeping."
"I didn't think a small whimper could disturb you this much."
"It does when it's coming from you. You are the most—"
Shadowheart doesn't allow Lae'zel to finish. She surges upwards and presses her lips against Lae'zel's, causing the knife to dig deeper into her skin. The second their mouths collide, Lae'zel drops the knife and then they're kissing again.
Gods, it's so much better than it's been in any of her dreams. Lae'zel's tongue slides into her mouth and Shadowheart opens up willingly, wrapping her legs around Lae'zel's waist to pull her down. Lae'zel's breath is coming in short pants and Shadowheart is pleased to know that she's just as affected by all of this.
"So my noises keep you from sleeping?", Shadowheart pants into the kiss. Lae'zel snarls.
"Shut your mouth."
"Why don't you make me shut it?"
"Guys, please. Please find a tent", Gale's tired and strangled voice comes from his bedroll and Shadowheart can feel Lae'zel tense and pull back and before Shadowheart can say anything Lae'zel is gone.
Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Spread the self-love ❤️
Ooooh! Thanks for spreading the self-love with this ask my friend! I'm so bad at picking my favorite fics I've written but I'll try to pick my favorite ideas that I've written more so than the fic itself. and I guess these will be in no particular order because that's way harder!
Reignited - Shadowzel (Baldur's Gate 3)
this one is up there because it was so fun to write a single mom fic and i just love how the romance turned out!!
Nondisclosure - Shadowzel (Baldur's Gate 3)
okay this one isn't done being posted yet but it's gotta be one of my favorites because it's my first time writing fake dating!!
in the heat of your electric touch - Hosie (Legacies)
I'm super proud of this one because I started it and came back to it like a year later which is super uncommon for me. And it was fun because I wrote Josie super confident and there was a tiny love triangle and it was just so fun!
The Incomplete Song - Hosie (Legacies)
I liked this one because it was a bit shorter for one of my multichapter fics but I played a lot with flashbacks in it and the music theme was just so fun to work with.
Happily - Choni (Riverdale)
I dunno, this one just has such a special in my heart, it was hard to choose between this one and It Ain't Always Perfect but I went with this one because I think it turned out better written. But the enemies to lovers roommates was so fun. I loved this version of Toni and Cheryl that I created and again I'm just proud of it I guess!