Hello. I have been trying to pass through time without asking anyone for help. When I was 16 I had a tonic clonic seizure and was diagnosed with epilepsy. My MRI also showed signs of multiple sclerosis, but I didn't have any symptoms yet. On February 2020, while all this situation with Covid started spreading here, I started feeling like I was given an electric shock down my spine. Then it went to my hand, and my leg, covering my left side. It was my first symptom of MS. I have been prescribed Copaxone. I have been suffering from daily nausea for over a year now and have some trouble using my left hand lately. I am trying to go back to classes, but I also suffer from severe panic attacks when I am around others, that end up in seizures. Since July, I have had really bad gastrointestinal pain, that I haven't been able to do the necessary tests for. I need an endoscopy and an MRI, let alone the MRIs I need for MS, that I haven't been able to do either. Anything I eat gives me severe pain that ends up making me scream. Since July, I have only had a few days that I didn't end up screaming. I went to the ER twice, but they sent me back home because the ultrasound they did to me seemed OK and didn't bother furthermore. I was also diagnosed with diabetes lately, but have been unable to get a meter or have a proper diet, which also has prevented me from managing a diet for the bad stomach aches. Most of the time, there's no food at home.
The state in here has been awful, too. My father has been verbally and financially abusing my mother, threatening and insulting her for wanting to get groceries, even when she used her own money. They have been threatening each other with death and it got physical a few times. I haven't been able to work, when the symptoms of MS started, I lost my job at a daycare that I had really struggled to get, and my parent has been verbally abusive for even doing the smallest things, eating, taking a shower, washing my hair. My father has threatened of leaving us and has been getting the paperwork ready to go work at his birth place and leave home, and sadly, he is the only one with a stable job, mom has been going from job to job and without him, we won't be able to afford even the apartment. A couple of months ago, he left me alone while I was having a seizure and didn't notify anyone I needed help.
I don't know what to do, home feels like a battlefield. I just really need to do those tests, they are the most important ones and I'd need about 200€ for the MRIs, the intestinal one and the brain/neck ones. I know that's too much, but really, anything would help me, please? I can't stand all this anymore. I just want to have a chance at getting better. Thank you for taking the time to read. Please share if you can.
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