I've said it a few times, and I'll say it a few more: I miss my family. I love them so much. I miss J and their ability to wreck absolute havoc while keeping the most professional smile I'd ever seen, I miss M and his stupid, witty sarcasm, I miss A and his dumb, goofy fucking smiles and jokes, I miss MA and how sweet he was; he was like a brother to me. He'd been handed this reality the same way I had been; so much magic, unable to use it, and only finding out about it because of our partners. I loved being his human-friend that he could bitch about magic shit to.
And, of course, it'd be a crime to complain all night without talking about him...I miss David. I was never good at telling him how seriously I loved him, and I wish I had been, but I also think he knew. I hope he Knows. I miss you, baby. I know I'll probably never find you. The chance is so, so low. But I miss you. And I love you. And I know its stupid and dumb and you'd call me a dumbass for it but I'm hoping that maybe, somehow, by yelling some sort of confession into the void, it'll reach you, and you might just feel better, even if you don't know why. I dont know. Love you, Davey-Baby. Stay safe.
(Also, mod(s), please tag this as a long post, im so sorry for my rambling, I just have a lot of feelings and I shouldn't be awake rn anyway, haha. Thanks for bearing with me.)
