In this past month I just can't stop listening to this masterpiece of a song a gazillion times per day... especially while coming back home from work or before I go to sleep.
It's like it helps me relieve the stress I bring along from the office... I'm still learning the ropes of the job, there's way too much stuff to handle and way too many expectations on my persona (being a friend of a highly regarded and skilled member of the staff sometimes just plain sucks and doesn't help out in the slightest... :| ).
On the bright side, even though it's tough, I like what I do and I hope they won't send me home after my contract expires - ahhh the joys of temporary employment... it seems like we'll never get rid of it -_- on this subject, have I told you how much I hate this fucked up shitty world we currently live in? Can't make long terms plans, fuck knows what's gonna happen tomorrow... yet people still look at me like I'm a fucking retard when I say I'm not married and I have absolutely no intention of doing that.
To be honest, in this era we currently live in, I consider marriage to be nothing short of an inescapable death sentence.. I'm no expert in relationships (I probably belong to the "chosen few" group of human beings that didn't really get many girlfriends during his teenage years and things didn't quite change in my twenties) but I'm old enough to know how things work: according to what I have seen, even the most sound and stable relationship seems to be bound for failure... plus I don't really want children to be honest, I don't feel like taking on the responsibility of raising a child; truth be told, with these unemployment figures constantly skyrocketing I believe you're actually "doing a disservice" to your possible newborn by introducing him to how the world is right now.
Gloomy huh?
If you spoke in person with me, you'd never tell this is what I think unless I tell you... and when I do, people always feel the urge to unload an incessant stream of clichés that just does my head in every.single.time.
Don't get the wrong idea: I actually am a smiley, ordinary sociable person and I like meeting / talking to people and such (even though I must confess I enjoy my lone time a lot more recently and I am not willing to easily give up my "single" status); however, I do have my own set of convictions and ideas - oh yeah, I'm fairly opinionated ;)
