Just when I'm in a good place, life brings me back down.
My smear test results came in today. High-risk HPV was present. My cells are abnormal. "Mild changes," the letter said. I have to go for a colposcopy for further screening.
In a weird way, I'm not surprised. I've spoken here about my menstrual issues. I knew something was wonky in the womb area. I knew the moment I touched the letter what it would say... I just didn't think it actually would.
I'm 29. My last smear was normal. And I've been ignored about my concerns with my periods for 3 years. I only got this smear because someone finally listened and I had the coil fitted. My dr asked since I'd be there with my legs akimbo anyway. I was overdue by a few months because of my period issues. It was pure chance she asked.
And... I'm absolutely fucking terrified.
If you are someone who prays... maybe you would be so kind to include my cervix in them.
And please, for the love of God, go and get your smear test.