It's a clusterfuck here

Patch ~ he/him/they/them ~ late 20s ~ languages enthusiast ~ queer, tme, white ~ chronically ill, tired and real angry about it ~ writing blog @lovenliterature

[shortqueershakespeare]

Masterpost of my stuff!

Writing

Poetry blog

Poems for mutuals

Collection: responses to walking towards the noise

Collection: responses to increased risk

Fanfic:

epiphany - Ballum fic

ivy - Ballum fic

gold rush - Ballum fic

Abstract (Psychopomp) - Merlin fic

Album thoughts: The Good Witch, Midnights, reverie, You Signed Up For This, folklore, evermore

Uquizzes

Which song from Unreal Unearth Unending are you?

What type of love are you?

Which of my current favourite songs should you listen to?

What song I have a tattoo based on are you?

Which of my favourite Stornoway songs should you listen to?

a song from a situation where I should know better

Which song that reminds me of a particular person or place are you?

Which song that reminds me of summer 2019 are you?

What kind of hot drink are you?

Which of my go to albums should you listen to? (2020)

Spin this wheel Hozier polls

morning alarm

Favourite line from the song tattoo

Song playing on repeat when falling asleep

Third line from the song tattooed

Hozier dedicates the song to you at a show

Someone who doesn’t know you like Hozier walks into you FEELING the song

Funeral song

Sent this song to your tinder match

Whenever you walk into a room this song gets played IN ITS ENTIRETY

First dance at a wedding

You can no longer listen to this song ever again

This is the only song you can ever listen to for the rest of your life

Hallmark movie song

Song to introduce people to Hozier

Song that plays when you see the person you're on a first date with for the first time

Song tells you how successful you and your bestie are at committing a crime

Song plays once a day in your new apartment

Movie montage

Sent the song to your tinder match with the message "this made me think of you"

You've assigned your coworker a song, how fast are they calling HR?

You wake up to discover this song has gone extremely viral overnight

one song 24 times at a show

workout song

random song for a friend

dog sighing to shut up

proposal

Art

Collages: Trans flag, Hozier songs - Fare Well, First Time, July, No Plan, Maisie Peters - There It Goes

Paintings - quotes, lavender watercolour, flower bookmarks

Handlettering

[taskmastersource]

TASKMASTER LIVE REACTIONS (4/?) Series 21, Episode 10: Domestic Bumfluff

[cheetz0]

Iran is slowly coming back online, but by "online," I mean they've moved from whitelisting some websites to blacklisting everything. I had no idea what these terms meant, but living in Iran forces you to know about technical network and connection stuff. Basically, instead of banning everything except for a few shitty malware apps posing as "social media platforms", they have now moved to filter out and ban the same usual things as before (like Telegram, Instagram, YouTube, everything). So what does that mean? It means more IPs will be available to bypass the ban, and VPNs will be more affordable. So more people can access the internet, STILL ILLEGALLY and THROUGH A PAYWALL.

It's currently close to 4 AM now that I'm posting this, and I've been crying non-stop since midnight because my friends came back online one by one through an unstable connection and said: "Hi, I'm alive." I had prepared myself for the funeral of so many of my friends. Some haven't come back online yet, and we've formed small "search and rescue" groups to find their contacts or families to check if they're okay.

What remains a fact amidst all of this is that nobody in the world ever gave a single fuck about us. I was one of the lucky ones to connect during the complete shutdown via some newly invented way we were too scared to even publish on GitHub for fear of getting arrested. In the time I was connected, I felt immense guilt for having access to the internet, and I begged you all on my socials to be the voice of the people who were about to get executed.

Not even once did I see someone talk about the internet blackout in Iran, and it enrages me.

We've been massacred, mass executed, and then silenced by getting our only way of communicating with the world shut off and the world treats it as some background noise, some irrelevant news that isn't even worth spending time hearing about.

So I'm asking you again, please, be the voice for the people in Iran. We are barely surviving.

[anarchopuppy]

sometimes being a fan of something means not wanting them to make any more of it

[hcnnibal]

just got back into gardening so i’ve forgotten. are basil leaves supposed to be this big

[hcnnibal]

am i the problem

[mousegirlheart]

op are you a hobbit

[yviisxo]

rest in peace to this diva

[97642]

[stuckinapril]

it took me a long time to get here but I have a handful of people in my life whom I trust so much that I know no matter what happens they will be there for me. & that helps so much with abandonment anxiety and even with rumination. i don’t have to ruminate on their absence because i know we’ll find our way back to each other & work through things no matter what. everyone needs someone like that in their lives

[stuckinapril]

no & im being so serious. if you’re like “i never felt throbbing anxiety at the prospect that everyone might just up and abandon me,” merry xmas to you. But if you’re like “FUCK i resonate so much with this” examine both your limiting beliefs but ALSO the people you surround yourself with because it’s not necessarily that your brain is lying to you. maybe you do need to find the right people, people who can demonstrate that you don’t always have to be scared of abandonment bc your guys’ connection is stronger than uncertainty. I’ve had some shitty friends in my life (even up until now tbh) but just this morning i ended the call with a friend who verbalized he’ll always be there for me. your people are OUT THERE you literally just have to find them.

[shortqueershakespeare]

I keep being like why am I so low energy I’ve done nothing when it’s like. My brother in Christ your body is dealing with your chronic illness 24/7 and you are extra heat tolerant. It might not be crisis level heat til Thursday but your body IS STILL STRUGGLING

[luci-notactuallyshortforlucifer]

GUYS. FRANK EDITED TO NORTHERN ATTITUDE.

[brbjellyfishing]

[secret-aardvark]

The corporate version of “hey OP what the FUCK does this mean”

[shortqueershakespeare]

i can't stop thinking about a pitt edit to one of your girls but alas i cannot edit

[romancenjoyer]

“the possibility of rejection is essential to forming deep relationships with people” - chanté joseph for british vogue

[romancenjoyer]

[shortqueershakespeare]

Year 2 of no pride bc chronic illness boooo

[paper-wounds]

[paper-wounds]

[theartofmadeline]

happy pride to the gay people in my computer <3

[capitulism]

The largest mass shooting in American history was a hate crime against gay people. Don’t ever forget that.

[exmellivorinae]

June 12, 2016. Putting a date on this for when it gets reblogged months from now by people who think the post is about something from 30, 40 years ago.

[butch-reidentified]

I am a survivor of the Pulse nightclub shooting, having grown up in Orlando and just turned 20 a month prior. If you didn’t know, there were several families who refused to claim the bodies of their relatives due to their sexuality. One family even had their relative’s name removed from the memorial. Murdered by the same hate with which their families reject them in both life and death.

Many, many people celebrated Pulse. We were told we deserved it. That it was God’s punishment for our sin of loving the same sex. We are sent messages like these I received in 2018:

We in the community often call the victim count 49+ to include the survivors who couldn’t live with the pain.

The event was never officially declared a hate crime or targeted homophobic attack and is rarely listed as one in databases.

At our vigils for those slaughtered, Extremist Christian groups showed up to protest, holding signs like this:

ID: Me kissing a woman I was casually seeing in front of an angry looking man with a “Sodomy is Sin” sign.

Please understand how much more than just a mass shooting this was. We are still to this day harassed and told we deserved it by some.

This year was the sixth anniversary. The first couple years I received dozens of messages checking in on me on 6/12. Year 5 got enough news coverage for people to think to reach out to me. This year it was my therapist, the woman I kissed in that photo, and a couple of other gun violence survivor friends. People are forgetting already.

[butch-reidentified]

With the 7 year anniversary <2 weeks away, I figured I’d reblog this

[spinningprincess]

ten fucking years.