I'd say I do see the status of a person, but that isn't exactly my main focus. if a person is outcasted, I might still pursue them if I like them. it would be more enjoyable if the person has a higher social standing, but I will still be interested in forming a connection with them and if they spark me enough I'd prioritise them.
"Do you enjoy the rush that you get when you actually click with a person?"
This is one of my main goals of seeking friendships and relationships. if there isn't a rush, I feel like something is missing and if there isn't anything that makes me stay, I'll leave the friendship/relationship. I prioritise connections that give me a rush, mentally, emotionally or physically and call them my best friend or potential partner.
"As soon as you click, do you have this need to know everything about them ?"
Yes. I tend to share about myself more if I'm interested in someone, and I want to know all about them. it's like bearing my true self with the person and vice versa. this is also one of the main goals of making connections for me, feeling comfortable enough to share everything with the other. I'm almost always digging for something more to learn about the person.
'Do you struggle prioritizing positions, connections, and interests when you get hooked on to someone?'
I tend to prioritise the person I'm hooked onto. other connections I might give little attention to after I find a person to hook on to. in fact, I also tend to always be hooked onto something if I can't find a person to hook on to, draining the life out of it. that's how I operate.
Hmm...now that you've talked about yourself a bit more, I do see some hints of sx.
But since I don't know you personally, or haven't seen you interact with the world, I don't think my typing would be accurate.
But here are a few more things that might help:
See what your connections are based on. I have friends who on first glace might come off as sx-users, however their primary method of connection is through compatibility, and interests, which makes them so-users an sx-blind. They enjoy finding people who prefers being a part of a group that they are interested in. A lot of them would rather play the social game of 'getting to know' than destroy the concept of boundaries when they are talking to someone.
What makes you paranoid ? Does it bother you when your partner is careless about finances, security, safety (Note, this would look different based on your enneagram type, but the fundamentals are usually the same)? Does it bother you when you can't connect with your partner through similar interests? Does it bother you when you can't introduce them to your friend group? This might be superficial, but while finding a partner, is them following the dating culture a very important aspect to you? Or, is it important that your partner matches your energy level, which is extremely intense, and self-consuming(as absurd as it sounds, that's exactly what it feels like to have sx)? Do you find yourself annoyed when the said person isn't bound to you, or if you can't be bound to them? Would you immediately reject someone, or be extremely upset if your partner or anyone you are interested in gets overwhelmed by your energy, or sometimes calls it unhealthy because, it's weird to feel that way?
Feel free to ask more questions. I'll try my best to answer them.
