Been Waiting
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Summary: You and Happy have been secretly together behind your family for a year, but when the club goes into lockdown and the only room left for you is Happys dorm things start to unravel, all the secrets come out
Pairing: Happy Lowman x f!reader
Includes: Age Gap, Violence, Pregnancy
•Masterlist•
•1 Year Ago•
There was a new member to the group who was coming back after being a Nomad for awhile so Mom, the SAMCRO mother, had me help get things ready for the welcoming home party
I wasn’t as involved with the group things as my mother, father and brother are seeing as I’m still in my early twenties they wanted to keep me away from the danger and chaos
But I was always excited for a party, especially a SAMCRO party, I finished up helping with the food in the kitchen, changing into black Jean shorts, a v cut longsleeve white t shirt, black cowgirl boots, and matching silver jewelry with adorning onyx gemstones
I pull into the lot and the party is already started, members all over the place celebrating and drinking, some fighting in the ring while others watched and bet, I found mom and went to check on her
“Hey sweetheart, looking pretty nice for all these slimy guys” she smirks as she sets out some hamburgers
“Well I wanted to look my best for the new member to join the family, now where is he?” She nods as she points over to one of the fires where a man sits, eyes piercing black, sleeves of tattoos and my heart clenches in my chest, never have I seen a member like this but there was something about him that drew me in
I take a hamburger and put it on a plate and get a fresh beer, making my way over to him I sit and he turns to me not saying a word just watching…..observing
“I hear you’re the newcomer, thought I’d welcome you to the family myself!” I smile as I hand him the burger and beer, he takes it hesitantly but his shoulders seem to relax
“You a croweater?” He asks his voice raspy sending a thrilling chill through me
“What no, I’m Jax’s sister” his eyes go wide for a split second
“Didn’t know, never seen you around before” he takes a swig of the cool beer
“Yeah they’ve been hiding me away for a while now, but I’ve convinced them to let me come around more” he grunts as his eyes subtly glance over my exposed thighs
“Good”
•
After that day I started dropping by the club more just to get a glimpse of him or anything really, sure it may sound desperate but that man was all I could think about, he was so mysterious it enticed me, when you grow up in this town with guys knowing your family they weren’t too keen on trying their luck, but Happy is apart of this world
I turn the corner heading to Jax dorm to pass out, completely exhausted from cleaning up after one of the guys drunken ragers they had the night before, when I bump into a firm chest
“Shit sorry lil girl” that nickname oh god he was killing me, looking up I catch his gaze as they roam my body, he’s gotten more comfortable with me since the first night we meet, Jax told me he’s not one for trusting immediately
“No it’s my fault I’m just tired, didn’t see where I was going” I say rubbing my eyes his hands still on my shoulders
“Guys got you running around?” His voice dropping a level like he was mad
“Mom says it’s my job, I have to clean up after everyone, and the guys sure like to make a mess” I try to laugh it off but he’s not laughing
“Come you’re sleeping in my room” he leads me with no hesitance to his dorm, its clean unlike Jax’s
I sit on the bed and he throws me on of his white shirts
“Get comfortable and relax lil girl” then he was gone leaving me with so many feelings
•Present•
It’s been a year since the first moment I meet the love of my life, sure we had an age gap but I didn’t care and he didn’t either, he treated me amazingly unlike how some members treat their woman, even though Jax is my brother he’s a prick to girls, can’t keep his emotions in check, or his dick in his pants, but with Happy I never have to worry about what he’s doing when I’m not there because he’s mine and I’m his, and he reassures me every chance he gets in his own ways
I huff as I strip out of my clothes and unhook my bra as happy lays in the bed, I walk to the mirror and pull my hair back into a messy bun and pull on one of his SAMCRO shirts
“You know I love you in my shirts but your sexy as hell without them lil girl” he grunts making me laugh at his filthy mind
I crawl in next to him and he immediately wraps his arms around me, my head to his chest, I trace my finger gently over his multitude of tattoos
“Think the guys are catching on” he says as he hand lifts the bottom of my shirt resting on my lower back
“How?”
“Well before you I was all over the ladies, think they see I’m not messing around”
“Ever the ladies man, but how could they connect that I’m the only woman you want hmmm?” I tease as I brush my fingers over his cheekbone and he looks down at me
“Sooner or later someone will catch us, you’re not the quietest girl” he smirks tapping my ass
“Hey I can’t help that you fuck me just right”
“You got that right”
•
At the garage I’m sorting through some papers to help mom out since everyone’s been so busy with the white power group coming to town
Hearing the rumble of the bikes we head outside seeing the guys pull up, seeing Happy on his bike always did something to me, weak in my knees seeing him in his kutte showing his muscles and tattoos, all I want to do in that moment is run over like Tara and mom are doing but I can’t, so I just lean against the building as our eyes meet so a while
Chucky comes out of the shop with a burger in hand to see the guys, he was a little ray of sunshine around the place but when the smell of the meat hits me my stomach flips, I run to the garbage can next to the shop and empty everything I’ve eaten today
“Shit are you okay?” He asks worried, I wipe my mouth and nod trying to catch my breath, he helps guide me to the steps to the office to sit down
Looking up happy is crouched in front of me the worry written all over his face
“Sick?” He asks putting his hand on my knee and I feel a little better just at his touch
“I don’t know, just hit me I’m sure I’m fine” looking behind him I see the guys taking glances at us, confused as to why Happy cared
“They’re watching” I whisper as I place my hand ontop of his
“Don’t care right now, had to check if you’re okay” he grumbles
“Are you getting soft on me Happy?”
“Soft? Never and you know that lil girl” he smirks before squeezing my hand and heading back to the guys
I know it’s not just sickness, I’ve been late for my period for 2 months and I’m only now just realizing
I get my purse and head to my car when mom stops me
“And where are you going little lady?”
“I just need to head to the store quickly, need anything?”
“No sweetheart you go, don’t be long”
Driving to the store my mind is racing, how do I tell him? We haven’t really talked about kids, we haven’t even told anyone we’re together let alone having a baby together
I speed through the store getting the test and going to the bathroom, the ten minutes were the slowest of my life
When the timer on my phone goes off my hands are shaking as I take the test and turn it over
Two lines……I’m pregnant
•
I feel the anxiety in my body the whole day even when I’m at home alone nothing can ease me right now except the man I need to tell
The door to my place opens like every other night and it’s Happy, he throws off his boots and slumps down on the couch next to me sighing as he wraps his arm around my shoulders and kissing my temple
“You still feeling sick Angel?” He only used Angel when he was worried
“I have something I need to tell you Hap” his eyes bore into mine telling me to go on
“I wasn’t just sick, I’ve been missing my period for two months, I took a test……I’m pregnant” he was still not a single emotion on his face as his eyes went from mine to my stomach
“I know it’s a lot, we haven’t even talked about it” he gets up and he’s out the door just as quick as he came leaving me with a whole in my heart, I never thought of all his reactions he’d leave
I feel the tears pool and can’t help but let them fall, if he leaves I’ll be alone and I won’t even be able to talk to anyone about it, I just want him he’s all I’ve ever wanted and I’m keeping this little baby no matter what happens
•
I get ready for work the next day, my eyes red and puffy my hair a mess but I couldn’t bring myself to care at this moment, I walk into the shop and get to work
“Sweetheart you look like a mess, rough night?”
“You could say that” I groan rubbing my itchy eyes from all the tears I shed
She pats my shoulder and Chibs walks in dropping off another paper
“Thanks”
“Ye alright las?” He asks as he leans against the desk next to wear im sitting
“Not really Chibs, feels like my world is crumbling and I’m all alone”
“Happy?” My heart stops I look up at him with wide eyes and he just smiles
“What? I…..how did you find out”
“It’s easy, for me atleast, say the way he looks at ye, never seen him care if someone was sick before” I sigh
“Don’t tell anyone please it’s….complicated right now… have you seen him today?”
“Nah, his bike ain’t here yet” I was starting to get worried, the more time went passed the more it felt like he’s really gone
•
It’s mid day and a bunch of cars pull up, mostly woman and kids, confused I go to Jax
“What’s going on?”
“We gotta go into lockdown, zobelle is getting too cocky, can’t risk someone else getting hurt”
“Oh should I go grab an overnight bag?”
“Yeah go quick you should be fine” I left driving quickly to my place, throwing together a bag, some clothes, makeup, perfume, all the necessities
I lock up and turn bumping into a chest making me squeal in surprise
“Whyre you here alone” that gravelly voice, happy
“I…..Jax said I’d be fine to go alone…..where have you been?” I ask looking up at him with a lump in my throat, his eyes ever piercing
“Let’s get you back” he lifts me onto the back of his bike, strapping my helmet on and gets infront of me as we drive off in silence
Getting to the lot I feel so many mixed emotions, does he still love me, was this just an order to come get me
“The place is pretty filled I don’t know where you’re going to stay sis” Jax says, he always seemed to take care of everyone else before me
“She’ll stay in my room, safest place” Jax gives us both a look but nods
Happy takes my bag and we go to his room and when I step in all that doubt is gone, looking around the room my heart is filled with a joy like no other, a bassinet in the corner, a changing station with little SAMCRO blankets and beanies
“Been working on it all night” he says as he sits on the edge of the bed
I turn back to him standing between his legs and his hands come to rubs my hips
“So you want this? You wanna have this baby with me?”
“Hell yeah, when you told me I was shocked, shit I should’ve stayed but you know I’m not great with that emotional shit” I run my hands over his shoulders and he drops his head to rest on my belly
“I know but next time don’t leave me Hap, if you need to leave the room and collect your thoughts I get it but walking out on me…..I thought you were gone for good” his head snaps up as he tightens his grip
“You know you’re mine, you’re not getting rid of me now lil girl” I love when his possessive side comes out
“It’s gonna be a boy” he grumbles matter of fact
“No it’ll be a girl, I see you as a girl dad”
“Yeah we’ll see about that” he pulls me down onto the bed hovering over me
“Do we tell the others or let them guess why you have baby shit in your room and why I’m sporting a baby bump without them knowing I have an old man”
“I like sneaking you around, makes it hot”
“Oh really, well Chibs already figured us out, guess we wait to see how long it takes the rest”
•
Sitting around a table for dinner, everyone’s having chili and fries, sat next to Chibs and Happy, across from us is Jax Tigs and Tara
“Sis want a beer?” Jax asks trying to hand me one but Happy takes it instead
“Oh I’m good still feeling a bit sick” I lie as happy takes a sip of the beer like it was no big deal but the guys gave us a look
“Am I missing something here?” Tigs asks
“No?”
Chucky comes out of the back straight to Happy
“Hey happy sir, what’s with the baby stuff in your room” chucky was always scared of happy, as he should
“What the hell were you doing in my room” he growls staring daggers at him
“I…..Gemma wanted me to drop of something for y/n and she’s staying in your room” I look back at the others and I can see things click
“Wait wait wait, happy you better explain yourself” Jax groans
“It’s private” I place my hand on his thigh under the table trying my best not to smirk, everyone knows happy keeps things private so they didn’t ask much further, mostly out of fear
Looking next to me to Chibs he gives me a knowing smile of congrats, he leans in whispering
“Bit old for ye aye lassy” he laughs making me blush
“Even better”
After supper I’m feeling tired from the roller coaster of a day, deciding to head to bed early
The crew hanging around the poll tables
“I’m gonna head to bed, night guys” without a second though and almost on instinct I lean up and pull happy into a kiss and walk off not even thinking twice about it until arms are wrapped around me carrying me back to the guys, juice sits me down on the table and every is just looking at me shocked
“What? Did I do something wrong?” Happy stands across from me smirking
“You just kissed me lil girl” my face completely flushed as I look at everyone around me wanting to shrink in on myself
“Lil girl? What the hell when did you start calling her that?” Clay asks and a chill runs down my spine he was always very protective
“Look it was just a mistake, just a thank you for helping me today” I try to intervene
“You sure?” Bobby asks with a raised eyebrow
“Come on Angel just tell them” happy grumbles wrapping his arms around my waist after I jump down from the table
“Are you sure?” I ask looking up and back at him, his hands placed over my belly, he nods and grunts in agreement
“I’m Happys ol lady”
“Uuuuuuuuuh since when?” Juice asks dumbfounded
“About a year, kinda hit it off during his welcome party”
“A year? And out of everyone happy that psycho” Tigs says making happy laugh
“I like them a little crazy, plus he makes me feel like an angel”
“You better or you’re dead” clay says
“Hold up a minute……the baby shit in your room happy? Are you pregnant sis?”
“Yeah, just found out today” the guys cheer congratulating us both
“Must be pretty pussy whipped to finally settle down brother” Tigs adds making me smack him up side the head
“You’re just jealous”
“Yeah she’s all mine, you’re stuck with pass arounds, I got the best piece of ass out there” happy smirks as he smacks my ass making me blush, shit I love this man
•
It’s been a few days now of this lock down and I was going a little crazy and these pregnancy cravings were kicking in high gear
Sighing I sit at the bench outside the club waiting for the guys to get back, too many people in there and I can’t stand the constant chatter, I like my peace and I always got that with Happy
Halfsack comes out and sits across from me, he’s sweet he’s around my age so we get along well
“Who’re you feeling? Heard you’re pregnant!”
“Fine just reeeeeeeeally hungry, I want a chocolate brownie milkshake and pizza but I can’t leave” he laughs
“Want me to order it for you?”
“Please! I’ll put in a good word for you with the infamous Tacoma killer” he perks up like a little boy and whips out his phone
“I’m on it!”
We wait a while and the gates open and the guys pull into the lot just in time for Half sack to get my food coming back and placing it infront of me, a whole pizza and a large milkshake making me look ridiculous as the guys come over
“A little hungry there lassy” Chibs laughs and I look down embarrassed
Happy leans down next to me kissing my temple
“The baby has cravings and I’m hungry” I groan
“No one comments on what she eats again” happy growls as he hands me my drink and opens the box for me
“Yeah he’s totally pussy whipped”
“Watch yourself tiggy don’t think I won’t beat your ass just because I’m pregnant” I say making everyone laugh
•
It’s been 5 months and I’m about 7 months along now, today we are having the baby reveal at the club, mom insisted we celebrate since it’ll be a new member to the family, walking into the club with Happy, his hand on my lower back guiding me along, he’s become extra touchy with me since he found out I was pregnant
“Okay everyone put in your guesses on what you think the baby will be!” Mom says going around from each person
“Definitely a boy” Jax said
“Nah man Happys totally a girl dad” tig adds and chibs agrees
“I’m with Jax it’s a boy” juice cheers, Opie agrees, halfsack says it’ll be a girl, dad thinks a boy and mom does too
“From mothers intuition I think it’s a little girl”
“So I’ll have two lil girls now” happy whispers to me
“No im your lil girl, this’ll be your baby girl” he smiles rubbing my belly
“Come on you two plenty of time for that on your own time let’s find out!” Mom says motioning for us to come up, she hands us both guns, paint ball guns with a target we’re meant to shot
“Alright 3…..2….1!” We both shoot and pink paint explodes across the targets, I scream jumping into Happys arms
“I told you!!!!” I can’t believe I’m have a little girl, happy holds me close and kisses my temple
“I’m gonna protect you both for the rest of my life lil girl” and in that moment I knew he was all I’ll ever need
•
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