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This took ages. Anyway, hello! The names kilobam, and im here to introduce the cast of my upcoming comic series, "Solve For X"! Its a nerdy little story with a mix of action, fantasy, and romance elements, and features the numbers reimagined as characters, living life and facing dangerous situations along the vast numberline. Its all very dramatic. I should have the first chapter up relatively soon, as my stylus gets here tomorrow (Yes, the photo above is fingerpainted, and yes, my knuckles feel like lead). Ill keep you updated with character stuff until i can post a chapter!

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ASD Struggles

One of the biggest things that impact me negatively from being on the spectrum is the lack of proper executive functioning. It’s not talked about as much as a lot of other ASD struggles, but I feel it has put me at a huge disadvantage in my young adult life. This year I have noticed it far more now that my fiancé and I are living on our own thousands of miles away from our family and we have both struggled with severe depression all throughout the year, further inhibiting normal functionality. There are very important things that needed to be done within the first few months after the move that have STILL not been done and it’s been over a year now... I don’t have proper insurance, my car is all sorts of messed up, I need to go to the doctor, my fiancé needs to go to the doctor but even when I have energy and am not depressed it all becomes so overwhelming that I can never figure out how or where to start. I’m drowning and panicking and still just let all of these priorities fly by. I feel useless and lazy. I don’t know what to do anymore. Just let me sink.

-Jonah

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Writing

Writing a song now. I’m definitely not the best at writing poetry or songs because I think too much. I’m great at writing well technically and I’m a great editor, timed essay writer, tutor, etc. but I’m definitely not good at abbreviating my feelings in lyrics. But I’ve been listening to a lot of new original song writers and it’s inspired me.

-X

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Alter Alohas:

Ricky ~ protector

20, female (she/her), pansexual, American

Fun facts:

•not easily trusting, but will do anything to help people she deems real friends

•possibly bipolar or BPD, temperamental, unfiltered but sarcastic

•enjoys the beach, nature trails, traveling, fitness (competitive sports), and academics

•part-time barista, full-time college student inner world

•younger sister of Wyatt (other alter)

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Alter Alohas:

Rune ~ memory holder

Eternally appears approx. 16 but doesn’t really have an age, Cambion (half-demon/half-human), no gender(Rune/she/they)

Fun facts:

•often compared to Raven (“Teen Titans”) and Violet (“the Incredibles”) but with an oddly thin, bony stature

•was raised by fairies in a secret garden in Wyatt and Ricky’s (other alters) backyard

•insomnia (doesn’t sleep at all), recovering ED, and serious case of RBF

•enjoys studying Wicca, reading, long walks, and alone time

• explores and collects mystical/natural materials

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Basic Intro

Hey there! We are System X and we have dissociative identity disorder. Here are the basics:

1. How many alters are in your system? 7 total, we believe, along with a few fragments

2. Names? X (Jonah), Jessica, Cameron, Wyatt, Ricky, Rune, C.J.

3. Who is the original? X relates to the body and has earliest memories, however we do not feel that there is an original or core in our system.

4. Who is the host? X and Cameron co-host

5. Are there any littles? C.J., but they’re 10 yrs old now. They grow up so fast.

6. Did you realize you had DID? If so, when? I always knew something was off and doctors had trouble treating me. In high school an event triggered a breakdown, which resulted in X becoming aware that the alters were actually coming forward. After years of struggling, another breakdown led us to a psychologist who suggested the possibility of DID.

7. Why System X? The short answer: While figuring out what was going on in our head, everything felt hopeless. Doctors said they couldn’t help and they didn’t understand us. We didn’t think anybody understood. We were unsolvable. So we started going by X (i.e. solve for x) because it felt like the name fit us perfectly.

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When someone in your comments embodies everything wrong with the LGBTQ+ community haha not that having long hair makes anyone any less agender obviously. But they looked at one post of me trying on a wig for the first time and feeling myself a little bit and decided that I was just spam tagging. Hi I’m Jonah and I’m agender, and part of the reason I identify that way is because I don’t feel a connection to any gender despite how I choose to express, which is more “masculine” or androgynous 98% of the time anyways, not that it matters agh. If you don’t know somebody, then keep your mouth shut. How hard is that? Damn.