#spn 9.06

[kerryweaverlesbian]

The third in my Dean and Cas share a cigarette series. It's another miserable one lads! You don't need to have read the others to read this. This one is during thee fanfiction gap of Heaven Can't Wait.

Read it here on ao3. The opening is below:

The only motel in town is miserable, but it's worse outside - heavy rain chokes out the sky. The brown-on-brown hall carpet had squidged unpleasantly underfoot as they'd come through to the room, which Dean can only hope was from the weather. 

The room itself has a faux outdoor tea party theme, for some goddamn reason. There's even a couple of inexpert, off-brand Alice In Wonderland characters looming over the walls. Maybe the owner got a deal on the painted metal outdoor furniture that's posing as breakfast table and chairs. The bed groans every time Dean shifts on the end of it, and the bathroom door doesn't shut properly. 

Cas isn't talking to him. To be fair, Dean isn't talking to him either. The tv is busted, naturally, and anything else they have to bring up is only going to start an argument. Cas is staring listlessly at the plastic bag of snacks Dean got from the Gas n Sip, and Dean is staring at Cas. Overbearing, sure, but Cas doesn't seem to care. 

He's slumped in a way that he never had as an angel, like the few strings left pulling him upright have been severed. His legs are spread open, one straight and one bent, and his chin rests on his fists - the kind of deeply uncomfortable looking comfortable position Dean had found himself in countless times. Cas's hair is frizzing, from the shower Dean coaxed him into, and the black-and-white flannel Dean gave him lifts every time Cas breathes. And he does breathe. Just like everyone else. 

[super-sootica]

Nobody told you. Nobody explained. You're just … shoved out kicking and screaming into this human life, without any idea why any of it feels the way it feels, or why this confusion, which feels like it's … a hair's breadth, from terror or pain.

You know, just when you think you do understand, it'll turn out you're wrong. You didn't understand anything at all. Guess that's just how it is when you're new at this. You know, it wasn't that long ago when all I'd need to do to ease your pain was touch you.

[foxthefanboi]

9x06 - Heaven Can’t Wait

[mittensmorgul]

i rewatched 9.06 this morning and just cried. Cas wanted to live, even with the pain he felt as a human. I will forever be bitter he never got the chance to experience real human joy.

and the end of 9.08, where Sam is talking to Dean, feels especially horrifically apt:

SAM What if there is something wrong with me -- something...really wrong? DEAN You're just crapped out, man. You need some rest. SAM Oh, it's more than that. I mean, Vesta said I was practically dead inside. DEAN Oh, and she's in the circle of trust now? SAM Why would she lie? DEAN It's probably the trials, okay? Probably some sort of a, you know, aftereffect. It's not like you're bouncing back from the flu here. I mean, you were glowing with freaking trial juice. SAM I don't know. DEAN Well, what else would it be? SAM Why does it have to be something else? It's always something else. We're always scraping to find some other explanation when maybe it is... just me. DEAN Oh, come on, Sam. SAM I'm a mess, Dean. You know it. And sometimes, I feel like maybe I'm never gonna actually be all right. DEAN You will. All right, 'cause whatever it is, we'll figure it out. SAM Or this is... just the way I am.

And when Dean breaks and tries to tell him the truth, Gadreel interferes and stops him.

And hell doesn’t that feel like *us* right now, desperately looking for an explanation, wondering why everything feels so wrong.

[sunrisebayskylight]

A tale of two stories.

David x Patrick | Dean x Cas

[cloverhighfive]

In 9x06, Heaven Can't Wait, at the end of Cas' (failed) date, Dean says

and we very well know Cas doesn’t have a home to go to. So... where are they gonna go? Dean could have left Cas at the Gas n Sip where Cas has a rolled-up sleeping bag in the back, but... The following scene is Dean letting Cas off at work...

...the next morning.

I'll let you think about that.

[teamfreewill2pointo]

Team Free Will as Daddies

[mittensmorgul]

god i wish i could see cas' reaction to having garths kid named after him 😪

LET NORMAL CAS HOLD BABY CAS 2k20.

Let them both have a stare-off with Dean.

Let him get to appreciate how much Garth obviously cares for him to have named his child after him.

Let him get a Garth Hug.

Let him sing to the baby and dance around the room.

Let him babysit and have long chats with the baby.

Let Dean see all of that. :’D