isn’t the sky so brave? to be so wonderfully consistent that everyone expects its sights, and forgets to look up. but when you take the time to sit and admire, all you’re left to say in awe is,
“oh.”
the beauty of consistency is not in the monotony or the repetition but in the perfection created from it.
i’m trying really hard to find a way to do things, not because i’m motivated to do them but because i need to. it’s really difficult and honestly, the only way my adhd even agrees to it is that i have to constantly post online about what i’m doing to hold myself accountable, even if no one ever reads this blog. i want to grow and be happier and achieve my goals. i hope that one day, those goals will become an everyday life for me that i can find ways to get bored of. i want to be in a place where, looking back, i remember that i worked so hard to get there.