#ssquotes

[saltgrave-prose-poetry]

I often feel that I am full of good words,

I just don’t know if they’re the right ones.

- Shae Saltgrave

[saltgrave-prose-poetry]

“Could it actually be that easy? To become happy?”

“If you stopped overthinking it… yeah.”

[saltgrave-prose-poetry]

Of course I have the audacity to keep living, because what underdog doesn’t want to win against a hedged bet

[saltgrave-prose-poetry]

I have thought myself into a state where my head was emptier than when I began

Shae Saltgrave

[saltgrave-prose-poetry]

What an unsalvageable thing am I, when I long to be made anew

Shae

[saltgrave-prose-poetry]

It was a Curse, Huh?

I mocked a fortune teller once,

Mostly to fit in with the friends there.

The stupid “you’re life is in flux right now,

And an important decision lies ahead”

Made me spit venom.

We are constantly in flux and making decisions.

It’s called fucking breathing.

But then you made it impossible to ignore you.

You jinxed me.

I think so much of you now.

Even when I have pot and pills and shots,

I think about what I must look like to you.

It simply isn’t fair

That your world could melt

And I cannot save it.

(I cannot think of it as anyone else’s when you live here.)

Would you forgive my stupid mouth

If I spoke my ignorant,

Selfish,

Barren truth?

I don’t deserve your time,

Regardless,

So my lips are sealed.

How many summers have we spent together?

Not enough for me

To make you “off limits”

In my brain.

I ache to know you more.

I am unwritten in your wake -

Forgiven by my undoing.

I could start over, all over, if asked.

What a selfish fool it takes to assume you understand my flaws.

You are above them. Always have been.

[saltgrave-prose-poetry]

I should have ended up alone. I would only have to worry about making myself unhappy.

[heyimaphander]