#stress post

[kimmiessimmies]

Oh, the stress... Suddenly, my game keeps crashing, and not one pose is working anymore. After typing the pose name, nothing happens, they just stand there.

I haven't installed any new CC, except for my own CD, but removing that made no difference. I have no idea why this is suddenly happening. I'm now trying to load a save from a few days ago to see if that helps, but man, am I stressed right now.

[bloodypeachblog]

Going through bad time.

1. Mom brought her grandson over for a week, thus taking over the entire house and I have no choice but to hold up in the bedroom for sanctuary. Just like back in the neglect/abuse years...

2. Boyfriend and I had a very bad fight. Still haven't fully resolved it, I'm still crying about it.

3. All of this is stressing me out and bringing up inner demons and shit.

Can I have my life back yet?

[esperhuntress]

Faculty vs. Students basketball game but its just Oobleck dunking on everyone. Ozpin with the best assists.

[americhrissytude]

I have decided that people need to stop telling me to ‘Grow Up’ just because I am not at the mental level they think I should be. I have been dealing with mental illness and trauma on my own without help for years. I have been pushing myself to become stronger despite it, and not giving up even when I slip and fall and fail, I have gotten myself to the point where I can do important things like bills and jobs despite my mental illness making these near impossible for me. I have gone through, and learned from and made my way through myself telling me that my sexuality and gender were not my own. That I didn’t deserve to be me or take titles I was not assigned at birth. I fought through internalized homophobia and transphobia (aimed at myself) to become the person I am today, I have been through two sets of abusive parents and I have guided myself to NOT be like THEM. When I had to fight off my internalized ableism at myself saying ‘it’s not that Fucking bad, you’re just a crybaby r*t*rd and you need to get over it and fix yourself’. I go through all of this and work to fix it all myself, I make progress on becoming a better person.

And you think it’s problematic if you make me isolated in a group, and I can only convey how this makes me feel by going ‘ :c ‘ because I haven’t gotten to the point where I can talk about when something is hurting me yet? Because I’m afraid of hurting other by saying it’s shitty and manipulative to do? You tell me to grow up? Bitch I fucking raised myself, it’s your turn to grow the fuck up. It’s your turn to become a better person.

Because that’s on you, and fuck you, too. Because for once, I’m not actually blaming myself.

[whump-it]

[cows-in-sweaters]

I’m a legal adult who is moving out for college in two days and will have to handle my own financials and scheduling and general life responsibilities completely independently for the first time in my life, but also I spent 40 minutes yesterday putting tiny puppy and alpaca stickers on my laptop and laying on the kitchen floor with my dog so it’s safe to say I have no idea what the fuck I’m doing

[kyluxtrashcompactor]

I have so much anxiety over the ultimate fate of Kylo Ren. Why am I like this? Someone comfort me. Just tell me he's going to be okay in the end. ☹