#suspecting stpd

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suspecting stpd culture is convincing myself i subconciously made myself more schizotypal after finding out about stpd

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heavily suspecting STPD culture is not understanding how dressing yourself is related as a symptom

no mama I don’t understand how/why you keep saying my clothes don’t match or I can’t dress myself; idek why they HAVE to “match”

they’re just fine to me… it makes sense to me??

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(suspecting) (potential) (high chance i’m completely off the mark) szpd/stpd culture is genuinely being exhausted with ‘close’ friendships. i truly do not have the energy to communicate and constantly console you and i don’t really have the ‘connection’ as motivation anyway. truly i don’t care. get over it

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suspecting stpd culture is oh I think there's someone watching me there's someone watching me there's someone watching me I should hide I can't be here

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suspecting stpd + avpd culture is i'm the worst human being alive and they all know it and are talking about it with each other they know they can see it i should hide

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Suspecting PPD/STPD & diagnosed autism culture is

Tw mentions of (sexual) abuse, delusions and illusions

Whenever I finally get the courage to try and reach out to a professional and to try to get myself assessed/diagnosed so I can access further treatment the doctors just don't do anything because I'm already diagnosed with autism. It's not just with PPD literally all my problems are watered down to and blamed on my autism which might literally be misdiagnosed

Idk man I don't think autism is causing me to be so paranoid that I went outside to take a shopping cart back to the store but got so scared 2 minutes after walking out and seeing people perceive me that I left the cart in the middle of the street and ran back to my house terrified and nearly sobbing and didn't leave for a month straight

I don't think autism is causing me to not be able to trust anyone not even my friends and family.

I don't think autism is causing me to have delusions and illusions

I don't think autism is making me have grandiose fantasies about saving the world from an unseeable evil

I don't think autism is making me try to tape my curtains to the wall because I was scared that I'd get watched through the small open space it leaves.

I don't think autism is making me unable to be in a room that has windows without any blinds or curtains to cover it up because it feels like people are watching me and taking pictures and videos of me to laugh at me

I don't think autism is making me unable to shower because I'm horrified of being recorded while doing so

I don't think autism is making me unable to leave rooms because I suddenly got the feeling that there's someone standing behind my door waiting for me to get out and rape me

I don't think autism is making me hallucinate someone and their dog staring at me dead in the eyes like I liked their entire bloodline

At this point it's starting to feel ableist towards autistics too why are we blaming everything on autism I'm aware autism can be the cause to sooo many things but it gets to a point yk

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Questioning (basically self-diagnosing) Stpd culture is how do I tell my friends I'm crazy without them thinking that I'm crazy 😐 As far as they all know I'm just casually rawdogging psychotic symptoms for fun or whatever