It’s pretty funny acknowledging the fact that non-system people can have plural senses of self if they’re more inclined to from trauma or mental illness but also having no understanding of when that goes beyond simple self exploration and leads into wanting to be recognized as a system
Like at the end of the day, whatever other people have going on isn’t my business, I just have no way of relating to them. Like I’ve always supported people exploring themselves as plural if they so choose (although not using that label) as a means of self understanding and healing but when people who explicitly insist it has nothing to do with trauma just do it for the hell of it Or want to take it that step further and use a system label, I just get kinda lost.
Because back when I didn’t realize I was a system, I constantly felt like my actions were detached from myself and I often felt like I couldn’t even trust my own memories or judgement because I’d do things I’d never normally do at times. I kept having to pick up after myself after having episodes I couldn’t fully understand why I had them and it was like I was dealing with different me’s I had little control over. And I… I couldn’t help but recognize my parts as parts because it felt so painfully wrong to see it as otherwise. And if someone is experiencing that then there’s definitely more going on than simply self exploration, I feel like. Like… that’s a dissociated part??? People don’t just have dissociated parts like that on the regular. And I stand by the fact that severe dissociation like that has to happen for a reason.
Maybe I’m just not understanding something, feel free to explain ig
I’m sorta ambivalent on all labels atm so idc who interacts, I’m open to hearing from a lot of different perspectives that I don’t hear from much, even if our perspective doesn’t change. We’d explore those other spaces ourselves but some alters get triggered like real bad when we do that so it’s more productive/better for our health not to. This post will be the sole exception.
