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3 months back on T
I'm so looking forward to my bottom surgery, which is only a few more months away. I'll hate being ill and healing, but I'm going to be relieved to have it done. Also I'm curious how my approach to my own sexuality is going to change, since bottom dysphoria does impact it significantly. Having a different configuration down there is probably going to have an impact. I wonder if I'm going to get hornier, or if I'm going to want to act more on my horniness than I currently do.
i'm at around 150 doses i think, since i just picked up a new box. so i guess we can call this my 6-month t timeline post!
i have a pretty good beard going, and my voice has dropped significantly (though i've lost more upper range than i've gained lower), and i haven't had my period in almost a year! my appetite is a bit more, but not a ton like i was expecting. i haven't noticed any sex drive or genital changes. i also haven't noticed any fat redistribution which is sad, that's one change i really wanted. my emotions are much more stable and my acne's completely gone away without my cycle. my body hair is changing texture, but my head hair hasn't.
i'm happy about all the changes, but i'm also sad about my voice. vocal was one of the major changes i wanted out of testosterone, but i know one of the reasons i was scared to start was the transition period where i wouldn't have the range i wanted or the range i used to have. it's a weird sort of sense of loss. using my new lower register makes me very euphoric, but at the same time, there's a part of my voice i'm locked out of until my range settles, and my tone isn't going to be the same there. i know this is one of those things that's just going to take time, but that doesn't stop it from feeling bad right now.
i know i'm going through something most cis teenage boys do. i know i'm getting closer to the body and the voice i want, and i know i'm happy about the changes i'm seeing now. that still doesn't change the sense of loss for how i used to be. it's weird, because that's something i didn't expect at all. i spent so long being dysphoric, and now that i'm changing the parts of myself i was dysphoric about... i'm not so dysphoric anymore, i definitely wouldn't say i regret starting t, but i'm not feeling only positively either. i suppose it's a type of nostalgia.
Two things about T that I’m loving right now
So it’s been about 2 months on T if I’m doing the math right lol (I’m at time/dates) & this is on a low dose of gel.
I love my T voice. It’s cracking still but it’s settling in this deeper mid range. With a lot of resonance. And I love it. For the first time in my life I love hearing my own voice.
It in no way passes but my goal isn’t cis passing anyway & I know it’s still getting deeper
The second thing is I’ve never been super active. Working out has always hurt more than it’s been helpful. But I still do like repetitions / calisthenics. But I can tell that my muscles are acting differently 2 months on T - it feels more active & less painful.
I’ve always had pretty defined - idk what the muscle is but it’s the one on the side/back of your arm that’s like a little diagonal cut (triceps maybe)
Anyway that’s super pronounced & im like barely doing more than I usually do! Which makes so exited & like motivated to work out a little more than I usually do. Who knows maybe I can like have a more muscular body I never thought that I could have that.
Day 29
Soggy and gazing adoringly at my wife moments
guess whom just got prescribed T 👀
28 weeks on T
7 months post op (plus 1 yeah 9 months on T) and I finally feel like me!