Im bigender. I am also genderflux but i like to call myself genderfluid. I am bigenderfluid.
After playing with the possibility of being trans (not nonbinary, i always knew im not nonbinary), after a few months i discovered that i am bigender. It took a few weeks to come to terms with it but i was bigender.
A while after that i found out that my genders aren't actually stable. I think then it was just me not being aware of another term (i had heard of genderflux but didnt fully understand it) and i had been exposed to genderfluid a lot sooner. I also found genderfluid people to be really cool.
I started playing around with the idea of me being bigender and genderfluid. In my head it looked as if i had a fem—nb—masc slider and there were two dots on it that would wiggle around. I also started using pronoun braclets because of this.
But eventually i found out that it wasn't like that. I was very uncomfortable with calling myself nonbinary or using they/them but i still called myself genderfluid. There was also a period of time where i was questioning weather i was just one or the other.
Then i discovered one time that i was probably genderflux. I think it was a similar time to me discovering a part of me that could be agender. In my head it changed to two seperate sliders. One was masc—off and the other was femme—off. I now understood that i was genderflux, however i had grown so comfortable with the term genderfluid, and i like the flag more and more people understand genderfluid more than genderflux. Genderfluid was what i called myself to people i knew didn't understand lgbt+ labels in depth.
So i continued calling myself genderfluid. I knew i was genderflux though but it felt uncomfortable and weird to call myself genderflux.
But recently it has been slowly getting easier for me to use it. I call myseld genderflux more online because that is what i actually am, but im still weirdly clinging to genderfluid even though i know that is not how my gender it. I guess its the idea of having to reword a tonna things: inform my friends abiut the change of labels again, change my bios, change the flag in my room (i love the genderfluid flag in my room and kinda dislike the genderflux flag), make a new pin for my bag. It all feels like a ton of work just to use a different label for myself. And while im getting more comfortable calling myself genderflux, i cant help but seperately cling to calling myself genderfluid even though i know that i am not that and no way of altering the definition will make me feel i am genderfluid. I identify as genderfluid even though i am not. In a confusing way.
I guess this is a gender update/coming out post?
So here is the obligitory:
