Okay, I’ll be the first to admit it: this is kinda stupid, but my own anxiety and personal shit have brought us to this moment.
I, unfortunately, share a name with someone under a lot of scrutiny right now. My brain can’t seem to retain that information (TBI? APD? Idk, it’s a problem of one of those 🙄) so every time I scroll past and see the name, I panic for a second until it registers that no one is talking about me.
** Insert the Alexis Rose “Nobody cares, David” GIF that I can’t find here **
So, for my own peace of mind, I’m going to do what I did on another blog and rather than go by my actual first name, I’m going to ask that, if you’re not calling me by my URL, you just call me Kansas. Again, I know this is silly, and you can roll your eyes and think whatever you want, but please keep it to yourself.
Even with all its defects and drama, I love tumblr. It’s an escape. The most comfortable place I have found for my fanfiction. I don’t want to be uncomfortable here, so I’m controlling what I can, and trying to let the rest go.