#testosterone blockers

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"T-Blocked (pt. 1-5)"

I made this arc because when I first started Spiro I got a sudden pain in my testes just like Tiff. I was not warned this would happen, but I did find others online who had experienced something similar, so it was reassuring to know that it does happen.

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Everything is Somewhat Repaired: Why am i so cold? CW: Meds

Winter is here and you would need a geologist to count the layers I'm wearing. (alt: A mountain with rock layers wearing a scarf. Fossils in the rock layers, a dinosaur skull and spine, a fern and a trilobite.)

1. My T blockers are repurposed blood pressure medications, meaning that they're are lowering my normal blood pressure, meaning my fingers and toes are pale little ghosts. (alt: a raised hand with a red watch band, the fingers have become blob ghosts)

2. I blasted all the insulating fur off my face with lasers. (alt: A 1950's looking ray gun shooting a red laser beam.)

3. Or is it all an elaborate excuse to have your frozen ghosts warmed up in the hands of a hot blooded cutie? (alt: holding hands, one hand blue and one hand red)

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Good fuckin news estradiol is like,,,,, real fuckin cheap to buy yourself online compared to what I thought

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Everything is somewhat Repaired: Mystery Door

Cw: Surgery

I'm getting an orchiectomy. No balls by Xmas. I want my body to stop producing so much testosterone. If the fascists come and take my hormones, I'd rather deal with menopause symptoms than detransition.

alt txt: Rubber gloved hand holding a scalpel

Maybe my kidneys will produce something like cis lady levels of T*. But it's hard to tell because the blockers I've been taking don't distinguish between ball T and kidney T, they squash everything.

alt txt: An early stream driven steam roller

Hormone balance effects everything in your body and not knowing how things will change is kind of nerve wracking. I feel like I'm at the end of the game show, giving up the jet ski I never wanted to find out what's behind the mystery door.

alt txt: A jet ski on fire

Footnote: * Average hormone levels vary wildly.

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Everything is Somewhat Repaired: Curses cw: meds, sleep

I recently started on a high dose of blockers again. These ones, spiro, make me sleepy. The last ones, androcur, made me sleepy and a thousand other unfortunate things.*

Before I started Medikinet, a slow release amphetamine for ADHD, It would get to the middle of the afternoon and I would have a total body shut down and have to pass out wherever I was.

I now occasionally get uncontrollably sleepy, only that little bit of morning speed, carries me through til about 19:30 AKA the cursed nap time.

I wake up after 2 hours at nearly 10pm, well rested and wondering who even invented "bed time" anyway.

*Everyone’s relationship to side effects are different and T-blockers can be very messy, or you know, Just chill! This is what happens when most trans healthcare is repurposed cis people medicine with underfunded research. But please remember: A leaky life raft is always better than outright drowning.

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Everything is Somewhat Repaired: When I cut down my blockers cw: doctors, sex reference, genital reference

I was so relieved to have started hormones I embraced whatever they threw at me with open arms. My body was changing and I was trying to keep track of it.

Things got pretty confusing. I was interested in sex, I just didn't know how my body worked now. I figured I would just need to re-learn what it meant for me. It was scary but maybe it would be a fun puzzle to figure out.

I didn't realise when I started that my endocrinologist* wanted me to have 0 testosterone and average cis woman estrogen. But trans women I spoke to suggested I should aim for cis woman's T and a bit extra E, and also average hormone levels are kind of a myth anyway. (*who I would later figure out had very little experience of trans patients)

So I started biting my little Androcur pill in half every night instead of swallowing it whole. Within a few days a fog lifted and I realised I'd been pretty spaced out for 6 months and the side effects of the blockers were responsible for all kinds of trouble.

I still had to re-learn things but that complicated puzzle got switched to easy mode. My body and it's prudish nerve endings were suddenly as responsive as my brain had always been.

The real kicker is that my blood tests showed that my T had kept dropping. Thank you baby jesus for testicular atrophy! It wasn't the low testosterone making me weird, it was the additional side effects of the androcur it's self.

Footnote: These are observations of my personal experience and should not be treated as reliable medical research. But also, thanks eternally to my trans siblings who have shared their experiences and helped me navigate my own.