#the countess posts

[countessravengrey]

I love this scene, not leastways because it's so hot, but the way he keeps slapping Ilya's hand away

yeah, Shane, because the hand in your face is the problem right now

[countessravengrey]

Reminder on this Day of our Captain VII/IV that Steve Rogers...

Had immigrant parents

Had a Jewish gay best friend(/soulmate)

Was ostracized and bullied because of his poor health and general disability, and was considered a burden on society as a result

Is a Veteran

Loves bodily choice/autonomy

Loves independent women who will kick your ass if you threaten their bodily autonomy

Loves due process

Hates concentration camps

Knows fascism when he sees it

Spoke out (and more) against a surveillance state

Has knocked out Adolf Hitler over 200 times

Asked a black man to carry on his legacy

...And is the only man in the History of Everything to use his Little Dog White Man Rage™️ for the good of others.

Happy Birthday, Steve

[countessravengrey]

Shout out to ships whose canon relationships were sacrificed in order to give the hero a woman as a prize.

[countessravengrey]

"No! Not without you!" is still one of the most romantic lines of all time, and no one talks about it. Well, we talk about it, but it doesn't get brought up that much outside the shipping fandom just how epic of devotion that is for friends, brothers in arms, etc.

[countessravengrey]

My fan favorite quote for the 10th Anniversary of Captain America: The Winter Soldier:

"I'm not gonna launch those ships. Captain's orders."

~Nameless Analyst*

This moment gets me every time. We get online and talk about doing the right thing and make it sound easy, but here's this Analyst who probably has never even held a gun, and he's terrified and just knows he's going to die and he does the right thing anyway, and it's such a beautiful moment, because he's the catalyst that spurs the rest of the room to action. It only takes one person to make a difference.

@catws-anniversary

*aka Specialist Cameron Klein. Thanks to @justanotherstonyfan for the info.

[countessravengrey]

the way the Lemurian Star sets the tone for CATWS fight choreography is unparalleled in my mind. We go from the stylized 40s style to the bubblegum Avengers style to the most brutal and realistic moves in a superhero movie that wasn't already rated R and definitely in the MCU to date.

They do this because Cap has to be a match for the Winter Soldier's style when he shows up. We'll find out that while WS is the unstoppable force, Steve is that immovable object, and the tone for that is set as early as the Lemurian Star.

[countessravengrey]

A little post I did in another location (with some edits/additions) because I liked the analogies I made:

ADHD people work harder than neurotypicals do. This is not a moral superiority thing. We are not better workers or more dedicated workers or more responsible workers. It's that the basic tools that every worker in every industry needs: concentration, focus, memory, time management, prioritization, self motivation... These things are broken in us.

Imagine working with faulty equipment: a computer that randomly shuts down before you can save anything, a keyboard that's missing the 'n' key, a light that only comes on half the time and shuts off randomly, a clock/calendar reminder you can't trust not to die when you least expect it to, a piece of machinery whose start/ignition sequence doesn't always work.

Think of how much extra time you'd have to spend on things, how often you have to do things twice because your computer shut down before you could save, how many workarounds you'd have to find to compensate for that missing 'n' key, how often your flow would get interrupted because your lamp shut down and now you have no light to see to do your work by so you have to turn it off and back on again, how much time you'd lose because you didn't realize your clock/calendar reminder stopped working, how many entire days of work are lost because that piece of machinery just won't start. Think of how much faster you have to be, often cramming 2-4 times as much work into the same amount of time as everyone else, not because you're awesome, but because there's no other choice, because you're the only one working with broken/faulty equipment and still being expected to perform just as well as everyone else.

You'd have to push yourself harder, work faster, stretch yourself thinner. You'd be exhausted at the end of every day. And you'd have to do it every day, so you'd never return to baseline, never truly get rest. And still, you'd have to do it every day.

That's what having ADHD is like.

[countessravengrey]

Okay, I'm trying to explain what is like to have an AuDHD brain, particularly the ADHD part, and what the inside of my mind feels like to someone, but I'm coming up empty. The closest I've gotten are things like:

A murmuration of starlings

The monkey pavilion at the zoo, complete with poo throwing

The Infinite Monkey Theorem

The Infinite Monkey Theorem while throwing poo

If some of my fellow neurodivergents would like to share some of your analogies, etc, I'd be ever so grateful. What does the inside of your brain feel like?