I am actually the worst person ever on the planet in the history of bad people. So yesterday the Paul was "sick" with food poisoning and stayed home with me on my day off. Which was annoying because I had wanted to clean and I can't clean in front of people because I end up crying and stressed out, but also nice because we got to relax together and go get our favorite sushi lunch special (complete with black sesame ice cream) and he was totally going to be able to take me to the courthouse and print my stuff and then I lost my birth certificate. I haven't had a reason to need it since the move and I had assumed it was in the spot with all my other important paperwork but it wasn't. So I had to order a new one all the way from Indiana and it won't get here for 2-4 weeks so I probably won't have my name changed by my birthday and I just really suck as a person a lot. The only good thing is that it gives me more time to get prepared. Close my unused bank account so I don't have to deal with it after my name change, save up enough money to fully replace everything (SS card, ID card, debit card, etc.) asap after my name becomes legal, think of a better way to word my reasoning, all of that. It just really sucks and I'm super crushed. I know it'll happen I just want it to happen now.
