“I loved real real hard once. But the Love wasn’t returned. Found out the man I’d die for... He wasn’t even concerned. I tried and I tried to keep him in my life. I cried and I cried. But I could it make it right. But I loved the young man. And if you’ve ever been in love... Then you’d understand That what you WANT might make you cry. And what you need might pass you by if you don’t catch it. And what you need ironically Might turn out what you want to be If you just let it...” - #LaurynHill #WhenItHurtsSoBad ➖➖➖➖➖➖ I post about my academic, career, and even my fitness goals a lot but I rarely (never) talk about the fact that a young thug hasn’t been in a seriously committed relationship in (going on) SEVEN years. 👀 Too many of those 7 years I sacrificed to wanting that old thing back 👩🏾💻 A couple of those 7 years I gave to miscellaneous situationships despite the wisdom of my book #TheEndOfThirstiness (currently on sale in the shop on my website). But a lot of that time I have given to the journey of healing, understanding my complicity in so called failed relationships - dealing with myself, my fears, my “stuff.” Not dating a lot. Just minding my business (figuratively and literally). And learning to be a better daughter, Sister, friend, Auntie Eb, Boom Girl, business woman... a better whole free me. ➖➖➖➖➖➖ Do y’all watch #ThisIsUs ........................... I’m 2018... May those of us that are ready for real, look at me like I hung the stars in the sky love get us a Randal. 😍 cc: @susankelechiwatson @sterlingkbrown ➖➖➖➖➖➖ If you don’t watch #ThisIsUs you don’t know that I just blessed you with a great prophetic unction! Huh? 👂🏾 One major thing I’m doing in 2018 to actually be open for my beloved to come is... not doing whatever I was doing before. Lingering in a #ColdPlay song. Wallowing in a #LaurynHill song. Letting folk strum my pain with their fingers. Being dependent on anyone’s validation or affirmation. Losing myself in a #relationship (like I absolutely did in my last serious relationship). Nah... I’ll be 35 on the 16th! The time of the perculator is upon us. Which means if it is to be it is up to me. #VisionBoard
