#thinking too much

[gothictickles]

I know my blog is a kink one. I know I come here looking like a slut because I post my body naked and shit, and write all kinds of horny posts.

Thing is, I'm so much more than that. And I think a lot of people can relate, especially women in this community.

Please be mindful of what you say.

Thoughts are getting heavy, had to get that out of my system. I'm sorry.

[hneymoonvio]

no fr i think TOO much

[icrushworms]

i hate having thoughts and literally not being able to say it or write it in a way that makes sense

[peachteamo]

Rewatching Reborn: I like that Yamamoto learns from Squalo, but I am still confused how he can use his attacks like Attacco di Squalo with Shigure Kintoki, when it is supposed to ONLY transform into a blade when using Shigure Soen Ryu. It felt like such an interesting restriction, but then it stopped mattering. And if it's something like "no, it's still Shigure Soen Ryu, he just modified it", that feels to me a little cheap and like it's going against the idea of Shigure Soen Ryu being perfect. It could have been such an interesting thing to explore. What if Yamamoto's Shigure Soen Ryu from the future is actually weaker than the younger Yamamoto's because he started implementing other techniques (out of necessity). But then Shigure Kintoki stopped transforming even when he tried using Shigure Soen Ryu, so he ended up replacing it with a different sword. So, young Yamamoto's faith and determination in his father's style have to be tested much more harshly this time. Yamamoto will have to think about the idea of it being "Invincible", what it really means, and understand why he in the future decided to move on/adapt. Something about him sacrificing himself for the sake of the family and how the "darkness" of the mafia world changed Yamamoto (even though his priority was still to protect others). But younger Yamamoto can come to a different answer; beyond The Past (just trust Shigure Soen Ryu) vs The Future (Learn new styles). Anyway, I just need to get it out of my system, or I will get no sleep

[girlwithhat]

In my mind, David Burke Watson is Boyfriend!Watson while Edward Hardwicke is Husband!Watson. I (and Holmes) love him very much.

David Burke, to me, matched the energy and theatricality of Jeremy Brett in those early episodes with his equally soothing voice and facial expressions. His Watson feels like a great friend and companion to have on adventures.

Their easy banter, collaborative deductions (that feel like a fun game between them), and Watson's awe of Holmes' abilities work well for establishing the type of partnership and relationship they have at the start of the show. It's a very fun dynamic that caught my attention years ago and brought me back recently during a bout of nostalgia and need for a good mood booster. I admit I watch clips and compilations of these two a lot for this reason.

And then Edward Hardwicke really impressed me throughout his run because he seems like a natural progression of Watson post-hiatus: more seasoned, subdued, and calm but also aware of being perpetually put upon by Holmes' habits. He's overjoyed the man is back so he can resume his place by his side but he also has his practice and routines that his friend disrupts at any given moment.

Hardwicke seems like a more natural actor, he just so believably embodies Watson as the loyal chronicler, dependable companion, and caring doctor he is, especially in his chemistry with Brett.

They feel so comfortable and settled down with each other, and as domestic as can be for two Victorian men who solve mysteries. This time around in my rewatch, I'm finding his portayal a source of comfort.

I'm just so in my feelings when it comes to Holmes and Watson lately. *dreamily sighs*

[sandyseekssanctity]

[dramalove247]

Do we need a sad ending?

A 🐠Dori rambles post

Been thinking about @my-rose-tinted-glasses post for over a month. This originally started as a reply, but once it was clear I was overthinking and oversharing, I scrapped it. But definitely read the post for full context.

I can't stop thinking about expecting happy endings and how it impacts our emotional experience. I am sure Rose is right and someone actually staying dead would make us all a lot more scared. And I do think being confident it will end happy takes the suspense away. But at the end of the day, if it's done well, it hurts me.

I enjoyed Wicked Game for the fun soap opera it was and I did get some feelings during the journey. Sads were felt, but they just weren't big, and I was definitely immune to the fake death. Daou did a good job being a sad dino, so it wasn't the acting. It was the entire show. It just didn't heavily impact me.

For me, some stories just don't get their claws in me the same way. But right now, watching ITSAY, I am feeling every freaking emotion turned up to the max and I KNOW both seasons end happy. In this case, the lack of suspense may be the only thing getting me through it! To My Shore was so cruel that I had to ask about the ending so I could mentally prepare if that was going to end bad. I was also convinced a certain character in the MOST TRAGIC WEDDING EVER was alive. Without a body, there is no proof of death and I expected a miracle (we won't talk about how this messed with me in My Stand In... Kat was entertained by my delulu... I even doubted the proof... LOL! I didn't say I was smart). But even my certainty didn't stop me from crying a million tears watching that wedding and every scene that preceded and came after!!!! The writing and acting was SO PAINFUL.

The more I think about it as I write this, the more I have to admit that knowing it will end happy probably does tone the pain down a bit, at least in most cases. But that doesn't spare me from epic pain, it just might help me survive it. I get to hold onto that small glimmer that no matter how broken things are now for the characters, everything will be right in the world in the end. And when I know it ends sad... the reverse is also true... looking at you XNamping!!! Every fucking second of that story crushed me!!!!

So personally, I am good without the suspense that it might be a sad ending. I don't think that is the magic that makes something devastating to me. I'm not sure what is the magic recipe.... maybe I just need to take the story seriously to really feel it. Or maybe I need to want to feel it.... to want to go on that journey. Knowing it's HEA may have taken the edge off, but I can think of a long list of series I knew would end happy and managed to completely wreck me along the way. For me, the Wicked Game was a fun watch, but despite the the great acting and moments that did manage to hurt me, many of the punches missed me and I just don't think it's because of the predictable happy ending. In fact, having that character stay dead would have felt like a cheap shot.

On that note, I HATE a sad endings that feel cheap. I don't like sad endings, but there are many I have loved. They need to feel right. I have to feel that my mourning is justified and the ending somehow fits better than the happy ending I craved. I get so pissed when something ends tragically (or even just bittersweet) without feel necessary, earned, or the entire point of the journey. So if it's going to have a sad ending, I need to respect it. Convince me. Make me love it. Wicked Game had zero chance of doing that for me and if it had given me anything less than a HEA, I would have rioted.

Thank you Rose💜 for making these thoughts swirl around in my head until they spilled out. Sometimes overthinking is fun.