#thirstyobrien

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after 3 years i changed my url from thirstyobrien > saltyraph

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I really want shadowhunters to show that like Raphael has friends ??? like where's the relationships w people other than Simon ??

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I highkey wish ragnor fell didn't have to die in this episode like I wanted shadowhunters to explore more on his friendship with magnus and raphael

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"there's no such thing as what" my father everyone

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sorry for anyone that doesn't like the show shameless I've been probably spamming you these past 2 or so days

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I’ve been working out a lot today, I wonder if I’ll keep this up? (also I’m probably gonna blog/rant about it everyday when I exercise)

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my ever changing urge to delete something when it doesn't match my ig feed is horrendous this is like the 6th time I've deleted so much pictures also (shameless plug time) if u wanna check it out its @ughwestmore

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a thought about abortion and friendship, discretion is advised also very sorry if you're on mobile and you don't see the read more sign. x  

tonight i was feeling vulnerable as i was panicking about my period being late because of my panicking i became paranoid and got to the conclusion that I’m pregnant. rest assured I’m pretty sure I’m not pregnant being a virgin and all but my panic made me do some research on minors getting abortions and the cost of abortions. i found out abortions are really fucking expensive, like crazy expensive. 

after finding out the price of abortions i kept asking myself how i would get the money if necessary (all of this under the circumstance that my parents are unaware of what is happening by the way). I started asking two of my closest friends if they would help me out with money if i needed an abortion. the results surprised me. keep in mind that this isn’t an attack on one of them and they’re both pro choice. 

so one of my friends said that she wouldn’t help because she doesn’t have money and that hit me a lot. i guess if one of my friends needed an abortion i would help them, maybe it was the way she said it affected me or that she wouldn’t help. either way that got me quite sad, as well as feeling quite alone.

on the flip side i had asked my other close friend if she would help me pay for an abortion if i needed it. she said she would help. i guess that one line made me smile. that someone would help you even if they didn’t necessarily have tons of money to spend on something. 

I’m not shitting on one of my friends honestly, I’m just quite curious and had this thought about friends and abortions, I’m lucky to have family and friends who are pro choice and believe in the choice of abortion. I just had that thought and needed to share, i guess it shows the priorities and how in certain situations its better to go to certain people financially.